yada yada~

start your day with bismillah :)

2012-01-17T03:14:00.002+02:00

in clinical year, we mostly go to the college to actually 'work'.
like work,but minus the salary.
you have to do everything your own, with the guidance of your lab/ clinic doctors.
it's actually fun! how you can go to college without getting bored of lectures, and lectures, and lectures. we do have lectures,still, and we do get bored of it, but the lectures are not as much as when we're in pre-clinical or non-clinical years.
more clinics= more fun!

until the requirements came...
oh the peer pressure! to complete a number of cases from each department is one thing, to actually FIND the patient is another thing, but when you found one, you'll be so thankful and you'll taste the sweetness of Allah's gift to you; when you realized that Allah asked you to be patient, and He'll reward you with the case best suits you :)

what i'm going to share is a very short story about my bridge patient.
i met her by coincidence in the clinic as she said she needs filling on the anterior teeth, and i checked her diagnostic sheet, she was indicated for bridge restoration on the upper canine to upper 2nd premolar, with missing upper 1st premolar.
made her filling on anterior teeth, and she agreed on making a bridge with me.
so the next day, while we were waiting for her xray from being processed, she asked me about how do i understand the Quran since my arabic knowledge was very little, i told her that there's translation, but she said, the translation doesn't really translate the Quran,in order to understand the Quran, you must learn arabic.

'insyaAllah' i answered. she made a deal with me that she'll teach me arabic like little kids and there's gonna be an exam for me. and i was like, how cute!
she gave me a little book of alif ba ta, and some pictures of animals and their arabic names.cute, right? haha.
so the next week, i had 2 patients. 1 for the bridge, and another 1 is for restoration. i was supposed to finish the bridge at 10.30 and immediately after that i have to start my restoration.
it was 10.30 and the doctors asked us to put temporary crown for the patient. i made the temporary crown myself, in order to put it on the patient's mouth, i need to remove any excess so that the temporary crown would be adapted nicely on the tooth i have reducted.little did i know it was very hard, and it was my first time. my restoration patient has been waiting outside. yup, the pressure to complete the temporary crown as fast as i can so that my restoration patient wouldn't have to wait too long.

it took me a long time to remove the excess, and my frustration is shown on my face, i was going to give up, but then she said, Dr, say bismillahirahmanirahim. in everything you do, you should start with bismillahirahmanirahim.
and i was like, yeahhh, i didn't start my day with bismillah, how should i go through my day with ease?

thank you madam aida, for reminding me. and since then, in every patient i treat, i will start with bismillah. and if there's something wrong in between the treatment, i 'll be thankful, as it is a test from Allah, for teaching me how to be patient, and to tell me that i have more to learn. and subhanAllah, Allah only test those He loves. so be thankful if you're in a difficult situation, you know Allah loves you :)

Wallahua'lam.

alright, i have to go back to books! we're having mid-term exam now. please make du'a for us, thank you!

ps: sorry if you don't understand any of my dental term! i'll explain soon, insyaAllah.

aku rela, kerana cinta

2012-01-12T03:30:00.004+02:00

"Biarku tanggung rasa derita
Asalkan agama, selamat akhirnya
Yang membantah, hanya berfalsafah
Kerana bimbang suapan harian"

Telah ku rela nama dan diri menjadi sasaran
Kerana cinta, aku berkorban
Telah ku rela segala tohmahan bermaharajalela
Kerana cinta, aku terpaksa

Kerana cinta jua aku berbicara
Dengan nada insan terluka
Meluah rasa, meluah fakta, mencedera jiwa
Semuanya kerana cinta…

Biarku tanggung rasa derita..
Asalkan agama, selamat akhirnya..
Yang membantah, hanya berfalsafah..
Kerana bimbang suapan harian

Dengan menjual nama Tuhan..
Lalu kebenaran disingkirkan,
Demi hidangan belian pendustaan
Namun aku yang sengsara zahirnya

Redha telah pun penuhi jiwa
Dalam keletihan ini.. aku bahagia

Kerana..
Pada kebenaran itulah terasa nikmat syurga.

ps: great song isn't it? after you understand the lyrics, you would understand what i meant.

aku rela, sengsara kerana cinta pada agama, kerana cinta pada Tuhan, bukan kerana cinta pada dunia yg penuh dusta, kerana sesungguhnya pada kebenaran itulah terasa nikmat syurga.insyaAllah, ameen. :)

the 2011 review

2011-12-31T23:31:00.000+02:00

hello good people!

happy new year for those who are already in 2012! 2 more hours for us in egypt to reach there, we're pretty much still enjoying 2011 hihi.

how is everyone? i know 2011 marked the extreme decrease of blog posts, sorry for that but, life is getting busier (i am supposed to study now, but it's new year eve!), and as you get older, some things are best to be kept untold ( ie: telling publicly the days of your life in a blog).

2011, is one of the most memorable year in my life, and these are the few reasons why:

1. my first experience of being a speaker in Tanta, giving talk about dentistry overall.

2. 25th january 2011, The revolution in Egypt. the extra 1 month holiday for us due to the chaos.yeay for that!

3. clinical year, treating patients is the most awesome feeling ever! (provided that you are not under stress)

4. the addition in the family, tasneem, the baby who made the entire family closer together :)

5. not to forget, the babysitting experience! priceless!

6. passed the finals, and now in the final year, alhamdulillah :)

7. as i told you, some things are better to be kept untold. haha :p

my 2012 new year resolution? well, i prefer not to make any but i do hope, and i hope you'll pray with me that i will:

1. become a better muslim, a better daughter, a better friend, a better student, a better dentist.
2. pass the finals with good grades, and graduate on time.
3. live, and go through the ups and downs of life, without losing hope.
4. control my anger, and living a patience life.

ameen ya rabbal 'a la meen.

may this year, be a better year than the previous years. ameen :)

30 minutes to the new year, so, happy new year everyone!
and a reminder, a step to the new year, a step closer to death, may we return in imaan.

loads of love,
hannahsahimi
31 december 2011, 2331 hours.

on hiatus

2011-11-10T10:31:00.003+02:00

patience is needed for me to update anything here as the internet speed is wayy too sloww.
hence the reason the blog is on hiatus. will be back soon. probably in 2 to 4 weeks.

and, have a nice vacations dear students of the universities in Egypt! enjoy the remaining 2 to 3 days of holidays!

a boring update.

2011-10-06T06:42:00.004+02:00

hello the readers of my boring blog! (if exist.)

new semester, new hope. it's the final year! 10 months only hannah!just 10 months, insyaAllah.

abit awkward though jotting things here since i left the blog for more than a month. it's quite true though the more you grow up, the more secrets you keep, the less you tell the whole world about it in the blog.

but i'm super bored due to unfinished jet lag i'm having, and it's super early to do anything or go anywhere right now. kedai paling awal bukak pon 10am, so you do the math.

i didn't write anything on this blog the whole time i was in Malaysia. was super busy eating stuffs and make myself fat.haha.

no, kidding. the whole time i was in Malaysia, i was busy babysitting Tasneem,my niece, keeping my mom company to everywhere she wanted to go, meet-ups, and oh! i went to school and met my school teachers! they still remember me as the 'budak bising and nakal' in the class though.memalukan -.-"

overall, i think my 2011 summer vaca in Malaysia is the best one i ever had, with specific reasons :)

of final year.
bismillah. the scary final year. just attended the 1st week of classes and here comes the pressure! more clinical requirements to do this year. yeah, we feel more like a dentist but the stress is overrated! even talking about it now makes me wanna scream.so let us talk about something else.

you know, when you're living alone, with super dirty house, you tend to get homesick everyday. i have never been this homesick before, i even cry myself to bed. -.-" but i got myself busy with cleaning up the entire house. and once the house is already clean, and i'm satisfied with it, i'm alot happier! but then i become bored, because i have nothing else to do.

anyhow, i hope this year will be a good year for everyone,insyaAllah, ameen :)

call me a spoiled brat but, 'mommy, i am super missing you!'

(not so) wordless wednesday

2011-10-05T04:47:00.002+02:00

super homesick :(

break fast: egyptian delicacies

2011-08-08T14:30:00.000+02:00

how amazing, i'm blogging a new entry, again!

we had our iftar last friday at our classmate's house. it was the first time they had foreigners in their house so they were so happy, especially Norhaan.

Norhaan felt sad that we couldn't join our batchmates for iftar jamaie because we'll be either on the aeroplane or we'll be in Malaysia at that time, so she discussed it with her mother and the family decided to invite us to come to their house for a simple iftar.

and simple iftar is not that simple at all! we had tonnes of food! and Norhaan told me that her mother wanted to cook more egyptian delicacies so that we could taste everything but then Norhaan stopped her by saying the Malaysians are small, they can't consume alot.

true, indeed.

Norhaan's house is so beautiful and her family is so friendly. it's sad how we couldn't really make a conversation with her parents due to our lack of arabic skills. but they were so happy that Norhaan's mama cooked us 2 plates of food each and let me tell you what she served:
1. 5 pieces of mahsyi : fried rice stuffed into vegetables eg: cabbages, cucumber. (my fav)
2. 2 cuts of bashamel: it's just like macaroni and cheese
3. 4 pieces kofta: minced meat, rolled like a sausage, roasted.
4. 1/4 of roasted chicken.
5. 7 pieces of dates and kismis inside a glass of water. (DELICIOUS!)

mahsyi and bashamel

kofta and firakh

all of these for each of us. it's a pity when i couldn't finish them all because i have a small stomach but i tried my best to finish them all until i was so bloated i couldn't move.

after maghrib prayer, we had some desserts. the desserts time is my favourite as Norhaan's mother served all of my favourite egyptian desserts! but again, i couldn't finish them up because i was too full.

desserts: balah syams and hunaifah

the dining etiquettes here is that you have to finish up what served for you and if you didn't finish them up, you are considered to be rude to the host and he/she will not be happy but sorry Norhaan and family! we wished we could have larger stomach to eat every delicious meal in front of us, seriously!

thanks for the hospitality Norhaan and family! you've made us love Egypt more! :)

Wordless Wednesday

2011-08-03T17:35:00.003+02:00

rindu.

Ramadan 2011

2011-08-01T22:51:00.003+02:00

“O ye who believe! Fasting is prescribed to you as it was prescribed to those before you, that ye may (learn) self-restraint.” (2:183)

Alhamdulillah, Ramadan has come to visit us again, this year. All thanks to Him who has prolonged our lives till this day to fast and greet the holy month.

as you know, i celebrate this holy month in the land of Egypt. eventhough it's only for 10 days (because i will be coming home this 10th august), i still consider it as a new experience because i have never celebrate the 1st day of Ramadan away from home since second year. This year, we have summer training, hence the reason why we're not with our family (yet!)

Ramadan in Egypt is differ than in Malaysia. The holy month is more welcome here than back home. They will wake you up for sahur either by gendang or by sounds or by azan, They will call for break fast 5 minutes earlier than maghrib, the people are much more friendlier, and you can see them with tiny Al-Quran and they'll recite them whenever they're free, be it while waiting for the bus, while waiting for the class to start etc, and the taxis are often fill with Al-Quran recitation. They'll lit the fanus (an Egyptian tanglung) in welcoming the holy month. if you see fanus is everywhere, it means it's ramadan! or that Ramadan is near.

Taraweeh here, we have so many choices on which Masjid to go to as in every street there will be at least 1 Masjid. Mostly they'll do an 8 rakaat prayer, and right after that, the whole town will become quite.And shops will only be opened after Taraweeh. cool huh?

i went to an event yesterday and a ustaz was giving a talk about ramadan, he said that for islamic studies students, they were given holidays from the 15th of Syaaban till 15th of Syawal only for ibadah, and for the students to go to the villages and teach the villagers regarding Islam mainly.

i was so excited that i bought loads of Ramadan groceries in intention of preparing for Ramadan that i forgot that Ramadan is not about food, it's about the month of patience, the month of repentance, the month of jihad, the month where you seek for Allah and He will multiply the reward for every good deeds that you've done in this holy month. for me, i call this month as a self reflecting month as it is the month where i recall back the whole year, what i have done, what i have wasted, and try my best to change and being istiqamah about it.

in every Ramadan, i will set some targets that and try to achieve them. this Ramadan's target? you will not know. but one thing for sure is that i want to be able to celebrate the next ramadan, insyaAllah.

Do not waste your ramadan by fasting blindly, who knows if this ramadan will be your last? Treat this Ramadan as it's your last so you will not waste it and regret about it later, insyaAllah.

Ramadan Kareem, everyone! may you'll be blessed this Ramadan and the upcoming year.

The Prophet (peace be upon him) said: "Fasting is a shield -- one who fasts does not use obscenities or act in an ignorant manner. If someone argues with you or insults you, say: 'I am fasting, I am fasting'." [Sahîh al-Bukhârî (1795)]

the new addition in the family

2011-07-17T21:47:00.003+02:00

meet Tasneem, the new addition in the family.
Alhamdulillah, all thanks to Him, dated 11th July 2011, Tasneem was born. :)
Tasneem is my sister's daughter, so that makes me an official Aunt or as they say, mak lang, mak for mother or aunty, and lang for being the third children in the family, so mak lang = the third auntie. but mak insisted her to call me khala (auntie in arabic)

my feelings? excited of course! she's my first niece! hehe. i hope that i will pass this year successfully and i can go back home and meet Tasneem, si kecil!

some pictures the family sent to me or posted in the facebook. :)

what a peaceful sleep you're having there, Tasneem, mak lang haven't sleep that peaceful for quite a while now. welcome to the world, si kecil. wait for mak lang to come home and we'll meet insyaAllah :)

accept differences

2011-07-12T03:38:00.001+02:00

i like tomyam, and not everyone like tomyam, maybe you prefer curry instead of tomyam. but tomyam and curry are both Malaysian foods. i never get emotional when i heard someone else doesn't like tomyam. and i just eat curry if my housemates cooked curry. without argue.

i like dentistry. i talk about dentistry since forever. i get angry when people say, ' dentistry, it's an easy course. or dentistry, not a critical course'. you like engineering. your ambition in becoming an engineer has grown into you since you could ever remember. you get angry when people say, 'engineering, too many people, hard to get job once you graduate.' but we are still friends aren't we? we appreciate others opinion.

so why when politics come into a discussion, we got angry with those who didn't share the same opinion as we do, and become enemies?

i respect and my salute goes to those who are aware of their country's politics , either you're with the government, or against them. it shows how intellectual you are, rather than those who are so ignorance, and would prefer hang out at the mamak or update with the celebrities gossips and think that the world revolves around them.

i live in Egypt, the country who recently fight for a revolution.i witnessed how the country changed. i befriend with the Egyptians, so maybe my political opinion for my country is from the influence of the country i live in.
you, on the other hand, may be live in the US, and when it comes to your country's politics, your political opinion may differ than mine, by the influence of the country you live in.

it's sad to see how best friends became just friends, when sisters ignoring each other, when couples fight, and when the person you have faith in getting together, crush your heart that instant due to different political opinion.

my advice is, don't get too emotional or too personal when it comes to things like this. the internet, i must say is a very informative yet dangerous place. think wise people, that's all i can say.

do you think we like it when our Egyptian friends ask us is Malaysia becoming like Egypt? we don't. many Egyptians respect Malaysia to be a very peaceful democratic Islamic country and their hopes of their country to be like ours. seeing chaos like this doesn't help. really.

my stand in the current political chaos? i shall not tell. everyone has their own way of thinking, respect everyone's opinion and let's just leave it that way. we are only human, afterall. :)

the song that makes you feel home :)

2011-06-07T00:53:00.004+02:00

you know, when you're sooo away from home, anything regarding home tends to make your eyes teary.

well, i know sungai lui is an old song, but, today, i had a very rough day. the external Dr from Alexandria who asked me in the oral exam today lowered my self-confidence. the sentences of ' you came here to study, you're away from home, you should have no distractions, you should be perfect' with a VERY disappointed face, really really made me sad.what made me more sad is that that Dr was so nice she smiled all the way.

so i came home, crying, and suddenly my brother texted me, just in time to calm me down :) (eventhough what he said didn't really have anything to do with calming me down at all), it's just that, you know, the feeling of the person who accepts you for who you are, the person where you go to him/her and feel belonged. where you don't have to say what's bothering you but it's about the presence of that person will make you automatically okay :)

that person, normally for me, would be one of the family members. commonly, my mother. who nowadays, love to text me exam tips everytime i stressed out without telling her. probably the mother's instinct.

HENCE, the sungai lui song which made me feel like going home this instant! but i figure i just make it as a semangat song. :)

anyhow, what's done is done, tawakkaltu alallah. i have 4 more days for my next paper, so let's move on! BAKTANG LAH DIAGNOSIS AND RADIOLOGY!

homesick secara tiba-tiba. mommyyyyyyy!!!!! :'(

the i have to study but i end up writing a new entry post

2011-05-28T06:16:00.004+02:00

hello blogging world!

i have finished half of my exams.(yeah in egypt, we have 2 months of exam period.2 MONTHS!)

the exams was, hard, indeed. the *madah muntada were ok but i cried 1 day for my oral pathology practical exam because i forgot a lot of slides' names and loose alot of marks. but anyhoo, i have to compensate it with the written and the oral exams, which will be in... this upcoming 5th june (which is a week from now, and what are you doing hannah? go study lahhh byk lagi nihhh)

anyhow, during the whole month of practical and extended subjects exams, i do still have to finish my clinical requirements(read: prosthesis, operative) before the final exam ends.so i did finish them (had to jiggle with the packed exam schedule)

we have to make only 1 denture for this year. simple steps but i took alot of time to make it due to some reasons like, i got sick for 1 day, and the riot thingy delayed my treatment to this patient, and the fact that this is my 1st time doing it, so i was a bit slow in understanding the steps and make it correctly with the doctors' guidance( u know how heart wrenching it is to hear the doctors comments about your stupidly hideous work and the word REMAKE will be like GO KILL YOURSELF). but thank you ammu ahmad for being my 1st experiment! :)

we had to take our Malaysian friends as our patients due to the communication barrier. so SPECIAL thanks to RIDHWAN and KHAIRUDDIN for being my diagnosis and operative patients.memang terbaik la kan, kes yang aku dapat time exam operative dah la dalam cavitynya, buccal pit pon dalam, spot caries pon dalam sampai hampirrr kena buka class II (tp nasib baik la tak perlu), withh a macroglossia tongue, and and the same time tongue tie, AND the patient could not open his mouth too long. but Alhamdulillah, i think i did quite OK. :)

diagnosis lagi la tiba2 doctor tanya soalan yang tak ada dalam buku. yang mcm ha?? aku rasa mcm tak pernah belajar ponnn. bantai punya bantai, salahhhh!! confident itu penting ye rakan2. -.-". oh doctor tersebut doctor external, no wonder soalan pelik!

dah2, exam tak habis lagi, jangan nak cakap banyak.

but2, anyone knows me knows how much i loooveeee the script, right? so here goes my favourite song:

can anyone buy me the scrip's science and faith album? pleaseee pleaseeee preettyyy pleassseeeeee

*madah muntada: extended subjects: oral surgery,dental public health, prosthesis, and orthodontics. the marks for these four subjects will be brought up to next year, insyaAllah.
* ammu means uncle.

8 more subjects! Permudahkanlah segala urusan kami ya Allah, ameen :)

then and now, i still love you

2011-04-24T10:45:00.004+02:00

look at my hideous teeth back in 1995.( if you know which one is me)
this photo has been my favourite since forever! and my brother uploaded it on facebook, which leads to me showing everyone the picture of us all during our carefee kiddy years! haha

look at us now ( approx 3 years ago):

i know right, how fast the time flies :')

my finals will start on 3/5 and ends on 7/7. doakan yang terbaik bagi kami, terima kasih :)

robbuna yawafaa means good luck in arabic, so robbuna yawafaa to all who are taking any exams especially those living in Egypt. :)

the new egypt

2011-04-03T03:22:00.003+02:00

' welcome back malaysian students, welcome back to the new egypt'

it's been 2 weeks i left home. 2 weeks of the tertinggal passport incident.(NOT A PROUD INCIDENT! but thank you kak ngah for saving the day speeding back home to get it on time). i'd be lying if i say that i didn't get homesick. i do get homesick, like alot. because to me, the '2-weeks-became-1 and half-months holiday' a.k.a 'cuti darurat' was the best holiday ever. i tend to hang around my mom, kak ngah, and luqman quite often. we're like inseparable!(ok, yeah i am exaggerating haha) so thanks to the long holiday, i have learned how to live life modestly. thanks mak! :)

the after revolution egypt, is kinda like the same as the old egypt, but now, they have the freedom of speech. they can talk about anything now, they are free to curse husni mubarak, they are free to talk about ikhwanul muslimin, which they were so afraid to talk about the entire time. and they are so proud of their country that they love to sing the victory song loudly,everywhere.

i was at a carpet store to buy a carpet for my new room, got the one i eyed on, the price is kinda OK. but living here, you tend to bargain everything eventhough they're cheap enough. so, i was bargaining it with the shop owner (kinda like begging -.-"), and what he said (jokingly) was..

'you were not here helping us during the revolution, you ran back to your country! and now you're bargaining the carpet price, i should charge you more'

i just smiled with abit of guilt. did i get the price i wanted for the carpet? hell yeah! (feeling proud of self managed to buy a super cute carpet with super less price :D :D )

the prices of stuffs are now increased. some even doubled the price before. which is a bad news for me because i wanted to save money. but hey! look at the currency!
1USD= 5.95 EGP and RM1= 1.96 EGP! :D please stay until i finish studying, will you, dear currency? huhu.

the 1st week i was here, there were chaos in the faculty, asking this head department to step down, asking a better quality of education yada-yada. and we,malaysians did nothing. we were not allowed to do anything as the government told us to stay away from any harm or any chaos.( did you feel the lovee? haha) and for the first time in history, there were election for the student committee!awwwhhh, i am so proud of you, Egyptians :) at the end of the day, everybody loves the Malaysians (because we're too adorable.) because i do not know why, they keep smiling whenever they see us. weird huh?

the soldiers are everywhere. they are friendly :) the tanks are also everywhere (but the big tank near istad is gone before i managed to take a photo with it!major sadness!!!) but they didn't do any harm to us. the soldiers are prepared with gun 24/7. cool huh? hoho.

what i'm trying to say is, i kinda like the new Egypt. and i am waiting for more changes. a cleaner country,perhaps? or a more educated-not-annoying citizens? or maybe a better learning system in the university? All in all, i am with you, Egypt :)

ps:

there was an earthquake yesterday. didn't feel it though but it's kinda scary because for the entire 3 years i'm living here, this was the 1st one.

alright, got to go! got to sleep! tomorrow is patient's day :)

after more than 4 years

2011-03-12T08:01:00.003+02:00

i was in the car with mom when the radio tuned her childhood song, something related to merdeka, i never heard it before, but mom sang the entire song. amazed, i was. since she never sing songs other than sudirman and m. nasir in front of me. but then she waved her hand when it comes to the part where there's only music (i don't know what the part is called) she wave it again and again, and i realized i've seen someone waving his hand like mom did while listening to his favourite song, while driving. after awhile, mom asked me, do you remember who always do this?(while waving her hand), after a moment of thinking, i only realized that the wave, is my dad's wave. he loved to wave his hand whenever he listened to his favourite song, while driving.

and i asked myself, what just happened? did you just forgot how your late father react when he listen to his favourite song?
i blame myself over, and over again. i do not want to erase my dad from my memory. i want them to stay in my memory, my entire life.i want my future kids to know who their granpa was.

after that, mom took me to see mak yong. it's been awhile since i met mak yong, the last time i saw her was during kak yong's wedding which is like.. 2 years ago. it's kinda odd not to see your relative eventhough you live like 5 minutes away. so we went to see mak yong to invite her family to our kenduri tomorrow. so there she was sitting with pak yeop. pak yeop was a diplomat. he worked in LA like 20+ years back. i respect him very much when i was a kid. he's the one with loads of story to tell, he travelled to almost the whole world. he's retired now. and he's having Alzheimer. 4 years back, he still remember me, he still with his travel stories he didn't get bored to tell us. but now, he didn't recognise me. he didn't even know who Leh(my dad's nickname) was, he didn't recognise his own kids, and the most sad thing is, sometimes, he call his wife,ibu and he call his mom, as opah. it's pity to see him that way. he asked 'where do you live' about 10 times. he went upstairs saying he wanted to drink, but then he went straight down, asking me again where do i live. i do miss the full-of-stories pak yeop. all i can do now is to pray for his health, and keep telling him, i am your niece, anak Leh.

Today, my little brother went to Edu fair with his friends, to get inspired, he said. My little brother is not that little anymore, he's going to be 17 this may. and he's gonna learn how to drive soon, and then he'll be taking his SPM, and later, college. oh how fast the time flies. i feel like only yesterday we put him in the laundry basket when he was soooo kecil and so cute! now he has grown :')

and today, mak asked me to get rid some of arwah ayah's kain pelikats. i was abit emotional when i was forced to do that. i smelled the kain pelikat before i give it to my mom. daddy's smell is not there anymore.Being daddy's little girl, i miss having him taking me and round the entire bangi at night, and i miss his snore during sleep.

apa sebenarnya yang aku nak sampaikan?
i also don't know. maybe i'm writing this just for the sake of updating the blog, or maybe i just realised that things changed in these 4 years and how fast the time flies, or maybe i just miss my dad, or maybe i am having my emotional moment because i am going back to egypt this friday.

ps: my heart goes to those who are affected by the tsunami and earthquake in Japan, Russia,Phillipines and Indonesia. May Allah bless you.
This is the way God telling us to repent. May Allah give us enough time to repent, as we (especially me) have neglected him for so long. the time is near, and the world is getting old.

Our Lord! Let not our hearts deviate from the truth after You have guided us, and bestow upon us mercy from Your grace. Verily You are the Giver of bounties without measure. (3:8)

people that can make you ROFL

2011-02-11T15:30:00.003+02:00

oh gosh i love these 2 guys.
does orang utara really love to make jokes?
like seriously i think i'm falling for them.
super lawak and super comel gila!!!!!
i only share these 2 videos and just click their name to watch all of their videos in youtube!

no 1: inianwarhadi

who said being the good kid is not cool?
found him accidentally while bloghopping.(yes, i still bloghop)they said that his video is quite similar to maria elena, but the male version of her.

no 2: matlutfi90

i love him since his selamat hari ibu video he made last year, and he deleted the video like 2 days after he posted it for unknown reason. and now he's back!
again, who said being th good kid is not cool?

what i love about them is that they will insert some good points or current issues or any knowledge input into each videos.

kudos to anwarhadi and matlutfi for making me laugh :D :D !

ps: dah lama tak sebut kudos.haha

just watch. thought of sharing :)

2011-02-09T05:34:00.003+02:00

i love Egypt, because it's my 2nd home, and i've been living there for 3 years.

"we will not be silenced, whether you're a Christian, whether you're a Muslim, whether you're an atheist, you will demand your goddamn rights, and we will have our rights!"

keep it up, Egyptians! i salute you for your courage :)

scary january in Egypt

2011-01-27T03:12:00.006+02:00

photo credit: facebook

Twitter has been blocked in Egypt.

Facebook was blocked for a couple of hours in Egypt.

why?

they said the government is furious about the riot they've been doing since january 25th. January 25th, the police day public holiday in Egypt. because it's a public holiday, everyone decided to gather together and protest the 30 years of dictatorship of Hosni Mubarak, the President of A.R.E. the protest was inspired from a man who was beaten to death by a couple of police officers in Alexandria despite his calls for mercy,after he posted a video on the internet of officers sharing the spoils from a drug bust among themselves.(more story here) hence the facebook group name: we are all Khaled Said.

other than redeeming justice for the ill-treatment of Khaled Said, the riot is also inspired by the Tunisians in demanding their rights and freedom from their president's dictatorship. the result from Tunisia's protests? Ben Ali fled to Jeddah. they hate the prime minister and demanding an election, and there will be an election after 6 months. for now? state of emergency is declared.

what's going to happen in Egypt, i don't really know. from what i heard, the President's son and his family had fled to London, the police Head Quarters in Suez is burned down which made most of the Malaysian students changing thoughts of having their winter break anywhere, and we are advised to not to leave the house unless it is important, and we have to bring along our male friend at any time.

it's been 2 days. it's entering the 3rd day. they are really protesting. 4 people died in Cairo, 20 in Alexandria, they shut down the electricity in some small town(i couldn't remember which town), they used tear gas in Mansoura. if that's not enough to convince the world that this is serious, i don't know what will.

why do i care so much about this? because i'm afraid of what's worst to come. and i am persuading all of you out there to pray for us Malaysian students studying in Egypt, to be safe, and to pray that they will not harm us.

my experience:

it was 1.20 pm, and i was getting ready for my exam which will be held at 2pm, i decided to leave the house at 1.30 pm but i received a call from Nadia telling me there's a demonstration along the road in front of my house, she told me to take a cab and be extra careful since the independent her also walked to the university along with Pokmie. i got out of the house, suddenly a large group of people running toward me. hell yeah i was so afraid, even more afraid when i couldn't get a single cab and the police were everywhere! was about to burst into tears before i remembered Eza, and i called her so that we walk together to the exam( after couldn't get through for several times), and we hold hands along the way until we reach the most safest place in Mansoura, the University. scary? very! i hugged Nadia once i saw her, i swear i could cry if i hug her long enough.

mak:' boleh balik tak?'

me:' tak dgr ape2 pon lagi pasal flights, insyaAllah ok je kot'

yes, i am going home. i hope Egypt will stay as it is, at least untill i go home.

further infos:

facebook: http://www.facebook.com/elshaheeed.co.uk?v=wall

breaking news: http://www.ikhwanweb.com/breakingNews.php

http://news.yahoo.com/s/afp/20110127/wl_africa_afp/egyptpoliticsdemo_20110127012212;_ylt=AuXZk2lMD0vuTLjO_xImZ0Fn.3QA;_ylu=X3oDMTE2MWJ0MDZyBHBvcwMxBHNlYwN5bi1yLWItbGVmdARzbGsDZXYtZWd5cHRwcm90

UPDATED: death toll in Cairo strikes to 6 after rock-throwing between the police and demonstrators, yesterday(26/1)

UPDATED 27/1: facebook and twitter has been blocked and they're (1 million) going to gather in Tahrir, Cairo tomorrow to show their protest. people are advised to stay home.

ps: happy 5th birthday,bloggie!

ukhwah fillah, insyaAllah

2011-01-23T03:53:00.006+02:00

dear you who is leaving us,

we've been friends for almost 4 years. although it's not as long as your highschool friends, or your childhood friends, but by being away from the family, and living overseas, by this 4 years, you are like one of my siblings. i know when you're mad or happy, or even when you're euphoric. and i know what is sensitive to you. you and your korean drama is like inseparable , and your high class english, and how independent you are in doing everything by your own without other's help.

the first time i met you, was when nana haven't change her course yet. she introduced you to everyone and my first impression towards you was: ' budak ni boleh tahan jugak la high standard!' with your i am not plastic bag bag and the way you talk and walk. but i was wrong though. you are the most friendly person in our batch because you can get along with everyone, and with your priceless mumtaz kelantan accent you learned from our kelantanese friends, memang senang la kau rapat dengan semua orang!

remember the kaya you made during our 1st year(idadi)? and how sweet of you giving me a whole tupperware of it, which took me about a month or 2 to actually finish it. i still remember that, and i'm going to miss that too.

remember the first summer? the first time we're going back to egypt, where your mom met my mom and now became friends, everytime they meet, they'll talk about us. and now, everytime your mom sees me, she'll hug and kiss me and borak panjang. aku rasa if kau ada abang single memang dah ada sesi kenen2.haha :p

kita ni, kalau berjumpa, tak kisah lah baru jumpa semalam or petang tadi ke, mesti ada benda yang kita nak share, duduk lepak bergosip kadang2 sampai tak sedar dah 2 jam.and you are the one who always with stories.hihi.

so now you're leaving us, aku rasa kita tetap akan jarang jumpa although your house is just like 10 minutes away. we'll be busy with our studies, our lives, kadang-kadang nak tanya khabar pon tak sempat. but i just hope for 1 thing, that is, for you to never forget me as your friend, because i will never forget you, and because in dentistry, we're never apart, we are together, always.

gigians family. batch 07/08

thank you.

thank you for telling us you're leaving, so that we can say a proper goodbye.

thank you for the memories you planted in our heads.

thank you for being a part of gigian.

thank you for being one of the PMG

thank you for making our lives more colourful by your presence.

thank you for including us in your life journey.

thank you for being my friend.

i once said,

once you enter the gigi family, whatever you do, we'll support you. no matter who you are, we'll love you. wherever you go, we're always behind you. because you are one of us, and we're brothers and sisters, that's why. :)

loosing you, is like loosing a sister, if there's a time machine, i'll go back in time and change everything so that you will not leave us. but Allah has a better plan for you.

good luck in your future, in achieving your dreams, we'll pray the best for you,insyaAllah.

do pray for us also, for us to achieve our dreams.

you know, whatever you do, you always can come back to us, and we'll always be there for you.

i'm not a poetic type of a person, i do not know how to write a poem, because my english sucks, i know. but i love musics, and i have 1 song for you.

Well, you came and opened me
And now there's so much more I see
And so by the way I thank you

Whoa, and then for the times when we're apart
Well, then close your eyes and know
These words are comin' from my heart
And then if you can remember, oh

Keep smiling, keep shining
Knowing you can always count on me, for sure
That's what friends are for
In good times, in bad times
I'll be on your side forever more
Oh, that's what friends are for

"Seseorang kamu tidak benar-benar beriman sehingga dia mengasihi saudaranya sebagaimana dia
mengasihi dirinya sendiri
"(hadis 13 dalam hadis 40)

i love you dear, take care.

ukhwah fillah, insyaAllah

ukhwah ila jannah, insyaAllah :)

ps: i don't know if you mind me writing your name here, so i decided not to write it.

back to december

2011-01-17T21:27:00.002+02:00

this is just way too sad!

Taylor Swift - Back to December

I'm so glad you made time to see me
How's life, tell me how's your family
I haven't seen them in a while
You've been good, busier then ever
We small talk, work and the weather
Your guard is up and I know why

'Cause the last time you saw me
Is still burned in the back of your mind
You gave me roses and I left them there to die

So this is me swallowing my pride,
Standing in front of you saying I'm sorry for that night
And I'd go back to december all the time
It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you
Wishing that I'd realized what I had when you were mine
I'd go back to december, turn around and make it alright and
I go back to december all the time

These days I haven't been sleeping
Staying up playing back myself leaving
When your birthday passed and I didn't call
And I think about summer, all the beautiful times
I watched you laughing from the passenger side,
Realized I loved you in the fall
And then the cold came, the dark days when fear crept into my mind
You gave me all your love and all I gave you was goodbye

So this is me swallowing my pride,
Standing in front of you saying I'm sorry for that night
And I'd go back to december all the time
It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you
Wishing that I'd realized what I had when you were mine
I'd go back to december, turn around and change my own mind and
I go back to december all the time

I miss your tan skin, your sweet smile, so good to me, so right
And how you held me in your arms that September night,
The first time you ever saw me cry
Maybe this is wishful thinking
Probably mindless dreaming
If we loved again I swear I'd love you right

I'd go back in time and change it but I can't
So if the chain is on your door, I understand

But this is me swallowing my pride,
Standing in front of you saying I'm sorry for that night
And I'd go back to december
It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you
Wishing that I'd realized what I had when you were mine and
I go back to december, turn around and make it alright and
I go back to december, turn around and change my own mind and
I go back to december all the time

i like this song, not because it is a love song, and nor that song is for Taylor Lautner . i like it because it is about december. and i go back to december all the time. what is there in december, you may ask?

24th december 2006. the day dad passed away. yeah that's what's there in my december.

hello 2011 :)

2011-01-04T11:40:00.005+02:00

happy new year, everyone!

hopefully, this 2011 will bring us success and happiness all year long. ameen.

2010. what about 2010?
2010 keeps alot of my memories. i learned alot, from the people, and from the surroundings, and let's not forget, from God's tests too.

2010 embarks the establishment of the malaysian dental community in egypt. through it, i learned alot about 'directing an event'. i have directed( and co-directed) the Dentistry Malaysian Day and the Dental Workshop. yes, it consumed a lot of time and money, but the objectives of the events are well delivered, alhamdulillah :)

i did a backpacking travelling to the UK and Ireland in february (and have lost quite a number of money at the end of the year). it's like the first time travelling to the UK after dad bought us there during his sabbatical. and yeah, i did reminisced my first visit when i was there even though i was too little at that time.i dont know how, maybe God's power? through travelling, my sister made me go to an eye opener islamic event, which i thanked her alot. why? let me just keep it to myself :)

2010 made me learn more about life. and mom did tell me alot about how to live life, and how to make good decision in choosing your partner etc. i sometimes feel that mom just couldn't wait to let go of her daughter.haha. but no, mom said that i'm already 21, like it or not, i have to start thinking about it already. bukan menggatal ye? and, to choose a partner, mom advised me to choose yang baik agamanya, yang baik akhlaknya,pertuturannya, yang elok asal usulnya.

towards the end of the year,i gave a talk for the how to succeed program for beloved juniors and i went to tanta to give a talk to tanta's malaysian dentistry students. after 4 years living here, malaysian dentistry students has grown from only in mansoura, to several other places like al-azhar, alexandria and tanta. and the amount of dentistry students has increased from only 6 to i don't know, maybe 200? ramai kan? alhamdulillah :)

how to succeed: 22/10/2010

ways of wisdom(wow) : 31/12/2010

as my academic year for 2010/2011 starts on september 2010, i feel that i should write my experience toward the patients here. yes, i am now in the clinical year, alhamdulillah. 2 more years insyaAllah i am going to be a muslim dentist. the experience upon treating patients is just way awesome. nervous is a must for the first time, but now, alhamdulillah, Allah mudahkan, my work is eased. i will always remember my first patient, Naily, who were a stranger to me at first, she came just for a dental check-up, and my doctor said she needs filling, so that's what i did to her. nervousnye tuhan saja yang tahu, i kept apologizing by telling her that this is my first time and i am very sorry if i hurt you anywhere. Naily has become my friend, today, and she helped me alot in promoting my service :)

with one of my patient

all in all, i thank God for the year 2010. and the most important thing i learned from the year 2010, is maturity. :)

with some of tanta dentistry students and pengerusi pct: 31/1/2010

the year 2011. what do i hoped for the year 2011?

i'm hoping for a more mature me, a better muslimah, a better (and more rajin) student, and a better daughter. and oh, a better doctor too. it's fun sometimes when your patient call you by the doctor title.hee :D

but i do need your help in achieving my dreams here. that is, please pray together with me. thank you :)

2010 was a great year, 2011? hoping for a better year :)

1 litre of tears

2010-12-03T18:14:00.004+02:00

i love to watch sad movies whenever i'm sad or when not in a good mood. i use the sad movies as a platform for me to cry. because people ask me why am i crying, i'll tell them that the movie is just wayy too sad that i cried. betapa emo dan pathetic, i know.

i had a few rough weeks. way too many problems to face.way too much to study within so little time. need a hug, mom's hug. but it's unreachable, i know. but it has nothing to do regarding my post here.

a friend introduced me 1 litre of tears. she said: ' confirm kau nangis tgk cite ni sedih gile!'. after hearing that, i thought, naahhh, i won't cry. but i did cry...... in every episode -.-"

the drama is wayy too sad.

i know that i'm soo outdated that everyone else watched it like 3 years ago and i only watch it 2 days ago but, seriously, it's so sad that in 1 episode i actually pause it for awhile because i was crying too hard. and i woke up the next day with mata bengkak as if i just broke up with someone.

why did i cry so hard? because this drama is based on true story. and 1 litre of tears is based on a diary of a patient who suffered from spinocerebellar degeneration. where atrophy of the cerebellum occur, and slowly, the patient will loose the coordination of hands, feet, speech etc. from being able to walk, to being bedridden. sometimes, the patient may find it hard to breathe. and once she reach this phase, death may occur. it's an incurable cruel disease because a person with SCD retains full mental capacity, but progressively loose physical control.

it does remind me of my late father. although not the same disease, he suffered alot too from his kidney disease. and, eventhough i can get scolded if i say this, but i regret for not spending the precious time with him before he passed away. i didn't even get to say goodbye or even tell him how i love him so much, how i thank him for being the greatest dad, how thankful i am for having him as my father.

so please, everyone, cherish your loved ones before you loose them.

say 'i love you' before it's too late.

adha with love :)

2010-11-19T14:57:00.004+02:00

a week of adha break. a week of adha celebration.
it's something special in egypt. we celebrate aidiladha more than we celebrate aidilfitri. it's like THE EVENT of the year.
every year's adha means special to me,like during my 1st year, our imarah was reserved for the slaughtering session and the gotong royong potong sayur session was made in my home(and neighbours').during my 2nd year, i was in charge for cleaning the tulang lembu.and that was hell of one experience!coming home with the smell of a cow, rendam baju sehari suntuk pon tak hilang2 bau. the 3rd year, i was in the committee board. kerja extra teruk.like really2 teruk. and this year, i went low profile, i do only the sayur. but what makes this year's adha special is, the wedding of my classmate, zaim and his wife, kak una. barakallahulakuma :)

as pictures speak a thousand words, lets just let the pictures do the talking.

1st day of eid:

have a break, snap a picture.

spending the eid with these 2 troublesom housemates. :p

background: bloody road with hanging lembu. for the memories :)

2nd day of eid:

event: zaim and kak una's solemnization

venue: malaysian hall, cairo.

surprise zaim! we made a boria baju kurung just for your wedding :)

si pengantin was speechless for the surprise (or maybe he was just nervous?)

alhamdulillah. congrats newlyweds!

barakallahulakuma wa baraka alaikuma wajama'a bainakuma filkhair

3rd day or eid: as a pengiring pengantin :)

event: MAWAR( collaboration of adha and all 4 pairs of newlyweds celebrations)

venue: mansoura

with the bride :D

mansoura's dikir barat team: sri mansurah.

last but not least: a video

the reason why i love mansoura :)

will next year's adha as special as the previous years'? i hope so.as it will be my last adha in egypt, insyaAllah. oh tibe2 terharu.

SALAM AIDILADHA, everyone! salam perantauan from us.
semoga pengorbanan kita tahun ini diterima dan diberkati Allah. :)

for the first time

2010-11-18T08:33:00.004+02:00

current repeating the songs of: the script.
current favourite song of the script: a lot actually, but this is like the most into the right now mood song. :)

the script- for the first time.

She's all laid up in bed with a broken heart,
While I'm drinking jack all alone in my local bar,
And we don't know how,
How we got in to this mad situation,
Only doing things out frustration,
Trying to make it work but man these times are hard,

She needs me now but I can't seem to find a time,
I've got a new job now on the unemployment line,
And we don't know how,
How we got into this mess is it gods test,
Someone help us cause we're doing our best,
Trying to make it work but man these times are hard

But we're gonna start by
Drinking old cheap bottles of wine,
Sit talking up all night,
Saying things we haven't for a while
A while ya
We're smiling but we're close to tears,
Even after all these years,
We just now got the feeling that we're meeting for the first time

Oooooo
[Repeat]

She's in line at the door
With her head held high (high)
While I just lost my job but
Didn't lose my pride
But we both know how,
How we're gonna make it work when it hurts,
When you pick yourself up,
You get kicked to the dirt,
Trying to make it work but,
Man these times are hard,

But we're gonna start by,
Drinking old cheap bottles of wine,
Sit talking up all night,
Doing things we haven't for a while,
A while ya,
We're smiling but we're close to tears,
Even after all these years,
We just now got the feeling that we're meeting for the first time.

Oooooo
[Repeat]

Yeah...
Drinking old cheap bottles of wine,
Sit talking up all night,
Saying thing we haven't for a while,
We're smiling but we're close to tears,
Even after all these years,
We just now got the feeling that we're meeting, for the first time

(Ooooo...), yeahh for the first time,
(Ooooo...), oh for the first time,
Yeah for the first time,
(Just now got the feeling that we're meeting...
For the first time)

Oh these times are hard,
Yeah they're making us crazy
Don't give up on me baby

Oh these times are hard,
Yeah they're making us crazy
Don't give up on me baby

Oh these times are hard,
Yeah they're making us crazy
Don't give up on me baby

Oh these times are hard,
Yeah they're making us crazy
Don't give up on me baby

ps: salam adha everyone!photos n stories up next! :D

i miss yu hua

2010-10-05T06:01:00.005+02:00

stressed out.i couldn't find any edentulous patient yet,need patient for operative already, and i couldn't find any suitable house for 6.i'm tired.and dentistry needs money but i don't have any because bayan halah is so hard to get and i couldn't give the translate of bayan halah to jpa and jpa will not bank in the money if they didn't get the bayan halah.so yes,i am stressed and when i'm stress, not because of exam, i end up wasting my time in front of the laptop doing I DON'T KNOW WHAT.because my punching bag doesn't have internet connection so i don't know to who else i should whine.

and then, start the missing session.and i truly miss the carefree high school moments though. who doesn't, right? and this song below here,made me missing school friends very very much. i have heard once the highschool friends are the ones you will stick to like forever, because they are the ones who really accept you for YOU.and indeed,it's true. wherever i go, no matter how busy i get, i will always go back to them. to whine and to reminiscing the awesome schooling years. i know they're not into blogs and they won't be reading this. but i do love them. if you mess with any of them, then you're messing with me!

it's not the lyrics that made me miss them, it's because it's lee hom.my highschool idol, and it's in mandarin.and there was radio yu hua in our school,they played chinese songs everyday during recess.according to my brother,radio yu hua is not working anymore nowadays. i started to listen to chinese songs through there and yes,listening to chinese songs improve your chinese too!so, whenever i listen to chinese song,it will bring me back to the memory lane. where i had my first crush,a malay and the 2nd one,a chinese. and the 3rd,another chinese!and the moments where we bullied the form six students to drive us everywhere.
ahh the memories. it did ease the stress abit though. :)
and i actually cry listening to this song because i'm listening to it as i type this.
aiyoo why la so emotional?!

the school (after renovation here and there of course, it was in renovation during our time,so yeah,the noise.)

:')

hectic!

2010-10-01T20:53:00.002+02:00

my class schedule.enough said.

Al-Fatihah

2010-10-01T14:07:00.004+02:00

al-fatihah to arwah mak ngah who has passed away last saturday.
i only know this after a week, after i asked my brother what is mak ngah's current condition since the last time i texted mak, mak said she's on the way visiting mak ngah who was at that time seriously ill.that was 3 days before she passed.
mak ngah suffered kidney failure disease for years, even before dad was diagnosed the same disease.
when dad passed away, she kept on asking, 'kenapa leh(dad) yang pergi dulu?' because she said she's been ill longer before dad was. she asked the same thing when my arwah achik(dad's brother) passed away due to heart attack 2 years back.i remembered her telling me,'mak ngah tak lama dah ni'..but we told her that ajal maut di tangan tuhan.you can live up to 100 years if God willing.

mak ngah was the one who gave me the idea of pursuing dentistry. i still remember at that time, we were at kak ina's open house and i was in form 3.mak ngah asked me about my ambition.i told her maybe i wanted to become a doctor or even a lecturer but haven't really think about it yet.then, mak ngah said,hey why don't you become a dentist?you have the chance of working office hour, and you still have the doctor title! i said, i don't know mak ngah,i'll think about it later. i went home, did a little research of how cool the dentist job will be, and the next morning, i told my mom that i wanna be a dentist and alhamdulillah i am now in my 4th year of studying dentistry. thank you mak ngah, for guiding me in choosing this path.

mak told me that mak ngah was ill during my holiday in malaysia. i told her that i wanted to visit mak ngah but mak said the family just visited mak nyah 2-3 days before i got back, she was still in stable condition.so,in the end, i didn't get the chance to visit her and i hoped to see her next year.but,God has a better plan for her, and she passed away last saturday.
mak ngah never fail to remind me of how much i look like my dad and always remind me not to forget dad even though he has passed.i am going to miss her stare because she loves to stare at me due to the dad look i inherited.and also her common 'ni la budak mesir ni!'

Al-fatihah to arwah mak ngah, may she be rest among those who deserved a place in jannah.ameen.

raya oh yeah.

2010-09-15T15:00:00.008+03:00

raya oh yeah.
raya di perantauan oh yeah.
nak tahu tak? bila raya di perantauan sambil dengar lagu INI rasa mcm nak menangis je?
hampir la menangis.tak menangis pon! *tabah*

how do i spend my raya?
erm..

1.cooked for raya..*proud!!* :)

2.solat raya with more or less 40 malay students in mansoura.

i love these kakak2 comel,so they deserve a place here :D

3.open houses! :D

mansoura girls team :)

the geng gigi rongak.ngahaha

4.rumah terbuka perubatan in cairo..super bosan.(jujur betul) -.-"

5.and we went to city stars to watch movie in baju kurung after the rumah terbuka.

internet was not ok the 1st day of eid so i bought a 50L.E of recharge card which lasted for 7 minutes when i called home and tak sempat to actually apologize to dear mak. -.-"
so i texted her saying i'm so sorry for being a bad daughter blablabla, and immediately after she replied, tears started to fall. adoi.
that's what you get when you celebrate your eid away from family.you get more emotional.(because i never cry during the apologizing session back home) -.-"

now,back to school!
i have 6 schooling days.
13 subjects,which i don't really remember the names.
okok, let's try, i have operative dentistry, crown and bridge, prosthesis, oral pathology, oral surgery, general surgery, internal medicine, pedodontic, endodontic, diagnosis, x-ray, dental public health, and orthodontic.(ok i peeked my schedule)
REALLY REALLY REALLY hope that i can bawa these whole 13 subjects this year.ameen.

mak said:' aktiviti selain study kena tinggalkan.just study, makan, solat n tidur.'

lasttt but not least..

again, the song..

andddd...

SELAMAT HARI RAYA, MAAF ZAHIR BATIN! :D
(please please don't laugh at my tudung, i'm wearing it just for the sake of my mom.huhu)

2010-09-08T15:58:00.003+02:00

at first, i like this iklan because it shows bangi.puncak bangi la..but still, it's bangi!!

then suddenly, a friend ym-ed me to take a look at this iklan and he said ' ada muka yang kau sayang dlm ni'

i was like 'siapa yang aku sayang? atok tu?'

then he said:' manede.makcik tu.rupa dia sebijik mak kau.kat bangi plak tu.'

then only i realized, yeah.. adalah sikit rupa mak.. tp makcik ni muka panjang sikit..and thanks to the friend,i am now homesick, not in the mood of doing anything. mommy, i miss home, i miss you, i miss adik n sisters. i miss helping you out few days before raya from mopping the floor to changing the curtain, from making sure windows are squeky clean to vacuuming the carpets. i wonder who did every of that during my absence.i hope you didn't do it your own.

this is the iklan i talked about..

to sir, with love

2010-09-07T12:46:00.003+02:00

i did the glee marathon 2 days ago..

ayah loved this song, he used to sing it in the car while driving :(

Those schoolgirl days, of telling tales and biting nails are gone,
But in my mind,
I know they will still live on and on,
But how do you thank someone, who has taken you from crayons to perfume?
It isn't easy, but I'll try,

If you wanted the sky I would write across the sky in letters,
That would soar a thousand feet high,
To Sir, with Love

The time has come,
For closing books and long last looks must end,
And as I leave,
I know that I am leaving my best friend,
A friend who taught me right from wrong,
And weak from strong,
That's a lot to learn,
What, what can I give you in return?

If you wanted the moon I would try to make a start,
But I, would rather you let me give my heart,
To Sir, with Love

this is the original version..

siapa ada cerita ni?mahu!!!

an update.

2010-08-25T23:39:00.001+02:00

it's been awhile since REALLY post anything here.(the youtube videos doesn't count -.-") so here i am, 2 more days to get myself back to reality. :(

i'm a bit moody these days due to the fact that i have to go back..and i have to celebrate eid there..yelah, siapa nak raya without family,right? am not so lucky like last year, this year i didn't have enough money to come home for eid.which means, i'll be like totally alone because all of them are coming home for eid. but to think that the eid break is just 1 week, i decided to toughen up and err..just try to enjoy it? arghhhh~~!!!! why la egypt is being so mean to me? :(

the summer vacation so far, was the most boring one.ngahaha. went to just a couple of meet-ups, balik kampung twice, accompanied mak here and there (which is fun, but a bit tiring), and the rest of the holidays, i just stayed home, reading.. and oh! yeah la,went to some tafsir classes and terawih. i was supposed to do an attachment at a private clinic, but it turns out that nobody is going to meet the dentist during the fasting month,so there goes my chance.

of the 21st birthday.
my 21st birthday was on the 1st of ramadan, this year. thanks everyone for the wishes.appreciated it a lot :)
had a little celebration at home with family, and of we go straight to the surau to perform out terawih prayer.
what is it like to be 21? erm.. everything seems to be the same, but i can vote now!yippie! :D (haven't lah actually.. haven't daftar yet.)
and once you're 21, you have to face the grown up questions like..' u have a bf already or not?' and some statements like.. ' u have to have a bf now if not u wont get married' -.-" all you got to do is, smile, tell them that you're just 21.too young to get married.haven't enjoy enough being single, and just shove them off by telling them that your sister is not married yet so, being the obedient little sister, you just want to wait in the line.ngehehehe. :D

of ramadan.
the ramadan so far is one of the greatest.because ramadan is the time we(the family) eat together.if no ramadan, no eating together.we eat at separate time.so yeah, when everybody's home, and gather together, with or without arguing, it feels great! but too bad i will not be home during eid, because mak was hoping for the whole family together during eid.takpe mak, insyaAllah next year, i'll be home.. but have to look at the takwim first lah. didn't bother for any baju raya this year. i didn't have the celebration feel.huhu.

of bonding with mak.
tighter bond i must say! i haven't feel so close to mom before.ngee :D
but, she always talk about marriage and life la.oh so boring.huhu.

of shopping.
DIDN'T SHOP!!not in the shopping mood.probably because the absence of the raya mood.huhu.plus, i don't have money pon.if i have some,i would buy a ticket for raya!sedih sedih.dear jpa,faster bank-in the money please.not gonna happen!since they didn't get my results yet..and only after they get it, they'll bank-in the money like..after about 1 month. -.-"
so keep on dreaming,hannah.wish for a miracle to happen. -.-"

bags are 95% packed.so, goodbye malaysia.see you in february! :( :(

ps: siapa nak raya dengan saya di mansoura?

dear eliot,

2010-08-05T13:20:00.003+03:00

99 balloons

got nothing to say.it's just that...i don't know how to describe it.just watch it.then you'll get it.it moves me everytime i watch it.and i did watch it a lot~!

the chosen one

2010-08-02T16:14:00.004+03:00

this song has been my favourite for quite a while.It gives me goosebumps everytime i hear it. and the lyrics were soo good that i nearly cry. Inspired by the Prophet Muhammad(PBUH), the video shows Muhammad(PBUH)'s teaching of life.

be good to people even though they treat you bad. that's the main point in this video. From what i heard, this video is made in respond to the attacks on Prophet Muhammad (PBUH) through cartoons etc. To show everyone Prophet Muhammad (PBUH)'s true character and his way of life.

try to read the heartfelt lyrics and listen to the sing. i am sure it's gonna give you goosebumps.

In a time of darkness and greed
It is your light that we need
You came to teach us how to live
Muhammad Ya Rasool Allah

You were so caring and kind
Your soul was full of light
You are the best of mankind
Muhammad Khaira Khalqillah
Sallu ‘ala Rasulillah, Habib Al Mustafa
Peace be upon The Messenger
The Chosen One

From luxury you turned away
And all night you would pray
Truthful in every word you say
Muhammad Ya Rasul Allah

Your face was brighter than the sun
Your beauty equaled by none
You are Allah’s Chosen One
Muhammad Khaira Khalqillah
Sallu ‘ala Rasulillah, Habib Al Mustafa
Peace be upon The Messenger
The Chosen One

I will try to follow your way
And do my best to live my life
As you taught me
I pray to be close to you
On that day and see you smile
When you see me
Sallu ‘ala Rasulillah, Habibil Mustafa
Peace be upon The Messenger
The Chosen One

Sallu ‘ala Rasulillah, Habibi Mustafa
Peace be upon The Messenger
The Chosen One

i hope to go to another Maher Zain's concert to feel what i felt before,in his last visit to cairo.

kalau..

2010-07-30T15:46:00.004+03:00

kalau aku lupa telefon mak tanya khabar, aku harap kau ingatkan, kau tak biarkan
kalau aku kurang ajar pada mak, aku harap kau marah aku, kalau tampar boleh buat aku sedar, aku sanggup.
kalau aku lupa ziarah kubur ayah, aku harap kau ingatkan, kau bawa aku ke kubur ayah
kalau aku lupa diri, aku harap kau sedarkan aku, tak ikut aku lupa diri.
kalau aku lupa baca tahlil arwah setiap minggu,aku harap kau sedarkan, mengetuai aku membaca sekali.
kalau mak aku sakit, aku harap kau akan suruh aku jaga mak aku, dan tak melarang aku utk menjaganya.
kalau adik beradik aku ada masalah, aku harap kau bantu aku utk selesaikannya.
kalau aku ada masalah dengan adik beradik aku, aku harap kau damaikan.
kalau aku melengahkan waktu solat, aku harap kau marahkankan aku.
kalau aku lupa tuhan, aku harap kau sedarkan aku.
kalau aku membazir, aku harap kau nasihatkan aku, jangan ikut aku jadi boros.

i don't want a perfect guy..
yang aku harap seorang lelaki itu memenuhi ciri-ciri di atas.
aku sayang famili aku.aku harap dia faham.
terasa dengan apa yang mak ckp siang tadi. aku harap besar nanti,bila dah kerja,dah kahwin, aku tak jadi macam ape yang mak aku taknak aku jadi.

*ada sebab tersendiri sebenarnya entri ni..bukan sebab aku dah nak kahwin ye rakan2.huhu

Aizdean

2010-07-25T06:47:00.003+03:00

i was watching majalah 3 last night.they covered about the penjara pudu.which made me interested to the topic,and yeah i fell a tiny bit sad that the penjara pudu is now gone.and is being replaced with some condos.who the hell wants to live in a condo that is used to be the place where the prisoners being hang to death?taknak lahh!!gila ke?

anyhow,what past is past and the condo is under construction now.so i'm just praying for the best.

the thing that i want to share with you is what is covered by majalah 3 after the penjara pudu..it's about this guy right here..

ever heard of him? well he's aizdean.malay name: mohd aizuddin. a malay singer in japan.singing j-pop.and is curently famous in japan.cakap jepun macam air..tak percaya?let's see the next video..

take that!berhabuk bahasa jepun!

this is an interview video during his short visit to malaysia.

and this link will let you know more about him.a bit confuse here.most of the interviews and majalah 3 said that he's an electronic engineer in a company in japan..but nst said he's a chemical engineer.which is which eh?

his facebook links!!! :

well yeah, i did my research!ngahaha...kinda like him though.but i think he's been living in japan for too long until his malay sounds like a japanese malay.nevermind about that but didn't he ever wanted to come back and serve for his country?huhu...

and plus, he needs braces.yup.yup.yup!

oh btw, i'm currently in Malaysia for about a month! ;)

kenapa aku tengok world cup?

2010-07-12T00:33:00.005+03:00

kalau nak tahu, aku ni agak dah lama gak lah tengok world cup.boleh katekan sejak kecil.tapi apa sebenarnya alasan aku tengok worldcup?

mungkin sebab mereka-mereka ni?

philipp lahm!!boyfriend no 1 :D:D:D:D:D

oh 2 lelaki hebat ini! :) :) :)

oh boyfriend no 2 yang dah menang golden boot!woot woot!

aku suka tengok worldcup sebab boleh tengok ramai lelaki-lelaki hot!ngeh ngeh

haha tak lah..sebenarnye..

aku tengok bola sebab time kecil-kecil dulu arwah ayah rajin tengok bola. dia sokong england. dulu arwah ayah ajak kitorg satu family tengok england main. semua pon stay up lah teman ayah. kecuali mak.mak tidur. bangun kejap-kejap tengok score pastu sambung tidur. sebab mak kata, if dia tengok bola, memang team yang dia sokong akan kalah. -.-"

itu kisah time kecil. bila dah besar, aku kenal germany. masa form 5, satu kelas tengok bola. seronok! ade geng.ade si peminat klose. si peminat podolski. si peminat philipp lahm (oh itu aku.satu kelas tahu,thanks) lepastu kena buli dengan budak-budak lelaki. diorang kata orang perempuan tak reti sebenarnya tengok bola.tengok bola sebab it's the in thing. -.-"
tapi kelas aku punya semangat bola dahsyat jugak lah! papan kenyataan kelas-kelas lain warna-warni, comel-comel, rama- rama, bunga-bunga bagai. papan kenyataan kitorang, ha amek kau. poster-poster bola.kalah satu team, koyak satu poster. germany kalah, berkabung lah pelajar-pelajar perempuan.and, time tu, arwah ayah dah tak berapa tengok bola, adik kecil lagi, jadi kitorang,kawan-kawan ni, call each other kejutkan bangun, habis game, terus pergi sekolah. memories doh..memories.

tahun ni, aku macam tak berapa nak ada geng tengok bola.sedih je. housemates ada exam lagi, nak tengok dengan the boys memang esok kena cop 'minah lepak dengan lelaki' la esok. huhu. tapi aku tetap pergi tengok juga. sorang pon jadilah. puas hati. ade sekali je tengok ramai-ramai geng gigi, sambil makan cupcakes yang kitorang buat siang tu. feel la juga. tapi masa 3rd placing, tengok dekat kedai arab. bengong orang arab tu, macam tak pernah tengok perempuan tengok bola. standard ah woh tengok bola jerit2. tapi sebenarnya orang arab tengok bola kat kedai-kedai ni memang senyap2 je. bosan betul.

tapi aku tengok worldcup sahaja ye rakan-rakan? aku takde la nak tengok epl ke ape ke.hanya worldcup dan eurocup semata-mata. huhu.

1st cupcakes trial
if u can read it, it says GERMANY.

agak-agak, 4 tahun lagi, rajin lagi ke aku tengok world cup ni? if aku dah kahwin nanti, aku harap husband aku jenis tengok bola woh! tapi bila worldcup aku tanak tengok dengan dia lah. saya keluar jalan2 tengok dengan kawan-kawan perempuan tau,bang? hahahahahahahahahahahahaha(terasa geli)

apa-apa pon, congrats spain for the win! walaupun aku ngantuk-ngantuk je tengok final semalam sebab tak goal-goal. tapi it was a good game, indeed! tapi, hati aku tetap bersama lelaki-lelaki di atas. ngeh ngeh.

terima kasih ayah, kerana mengajar saya menonton worldcup. it made me missing you, actually. the memories of us hanging with you watching sports will remain, insyaAllah :)

special award hikhik mata gedik2

2010-07-08T19:27:00.006+03:00

hey hey peeps it's been ages since the last time i was like crazy doing this kinda stuff. ie: special award lahh survey lahh etc. and kak mel gave me this award and it brings back memories.so,utk kak mel, kita buat eh?tapi sebenarnya flattered juga dapat award ni.thanks kak mel! :)

1. Anda mesti memberi pujian kepada pemberi 'award' ini.

ngeh ngeh kak mel.ohh kak mel.haha.kak mel ni comel,serious!hehe.and she's a doctor now so siape2 nak masuk meminang make sure cukup duit woh nak meminang doktor ni!!hehe. i know kak mel because she's kak ngah's friend.like bestfriend kot in UNIMAS.macam takkan lah kak ngah balik semenanjung without mentioning her name kan?and guess what kak mel, you're my bestfriend's senior in KMNS!(ok,takde kaitan dengan saye pon huhu)tapi, ibu2 kami cute!kan,kak mel?hehe.

2. Sila beri 'award' kepada 10 bloggers yang lain.

can i just give it to 1 or 2? ok la 4 je.hehe.
- niksu rashid (oh yeahhh kamu dah lame tak buat bende2 mcm ni kan?)
- izzati ramly ( please note that i just miss both of you.hehe)
- intan dadramaqueen (ini mama saye ye rakan2 :D)
- faridah

3. Anda mesti beritahu kepada 10 blogger ni.
okie dokie.no problemo. ;)

4. Bagaimana anda boleh di gelar 'blog' yang 'Best and Great'?
she said that she just love me yada-ing.but there's nothing in this blog so i don't really know why actually.hehe.

ok nak tengok cerita.sambung esok.

btw, i am officially single people.SINGLE! dah jangan kau tanya lagi status aku.

you've got a friend in me :')

2010-07-03T14:10:00.005+03:00

siapa membesar dengan tengok cerita toy story please raise your hand~!! *angkat tinggi2, jengket2 kaki*

ho yeah i grew up watching toy story. and i re-watch it again and again without getting bored.heck,who the hell get bored when it comes to toy story?it's like i grow up with this andy kid. toy story 2 has been my favourite childhood movie since forever. no any other animated movies can beat toy story. *ok, sangat fanatic pula*

anyhow, yesterday was the hang out day with gigians and we decided to go to cairo because the last time we went to cairo was like....4 months ago! and we heard there's stock clearance sale in some branded stores so we end up shhooopppiiinnnggg totally nothing. -.-"
nothing caught my eyes lah. plus, mommy told me not to spend money on something not important since there's not much left in my savings and i have to save some for my effing expensive flight ticket which makes me totallyyyyyyy broke. -.-"

so we went to watch toy story since it was the first reason why we wanted to go to cairo like cannot tahan already.huhu. and it was the best toy story ever! i went emotional at the end.aku tengok cerita jiwang pon tak menangis teruk macam semalam tau?huhu..and then i suddenly realize..i cried over a cartoon -.-"

spot us!hehehe..

ok don't wanna elaborate much..nanti orang marah baling tomato semua.ciskek lah.
there's a match tonight! i hope germany wins. i put my trust on you, dear germany.

for those who haven't watch toy story 3, i suggest you to watch it.tak mahal pon..only 35 LE with 3D specs yang tahan lama..not made from paper..tak percaya? see the picture below:

masih tak percaya spec 3D ni best?hoho

andy sangat kacak :)
philipp lahm, i love you.

hello back people!

2010-07-01T20:24:00.004+03:00

the finals is officially over! yup2, it's official. :)
now i can sleep again. i forgot when was the last time i had my beauty sleep sebab the schedule was like really super packed! tapi alhamdulillah, dah lepas.

dah usaha, dah exam, skarang cuma boleh berdoa. and prayer is a very powerful weapon. you just have to believe in HIM and insyaAllah, He'll answer your prayer.ameen :)

i have not buy a ticket home yet. ticket mahalll!!! am trying to get the cheapest one. buy whatever it is, this time, i will book a ticket after the date of the result.takut wohhh!!exam was like 50:50. plus,i sucked my prosthesis practical, so that double the worry. do pray for me, people! thank you :)

i've never been this homesick before. sampai tahap yang macam jumpa orang eh rupa dia mcm uncle xxx! eh this surrounding is like my home in malaysia..eh, this road is quite similar to the road back home. eh, i think i saw my mom! oh rindu.rindu! plus, kak yong is on the way home now, kak ngah is now home, making the house almost perfect. i do hope that i can pass the year without any resit to make the house complete. *ok time type ni tibe2 rase mcm nak menangis.ah, mengade kau!*

and there's one time, i was at home revising, and i heard this one car honking( well no la actually, people here honk like almost every second, but this one car's the most stood up one) and i was like hey, mak dah balik!! ok, pathetic.

ok, enough of the homesick moment. been with it for about a month now..i want to introduce you to my new favourite band..

say you don't want it by one night only..(there's emma watson~!)

saya tiba-tiba ada masalah hati..mungkin ke cairo esok akan membantu..mungkinn..

sorry :(

2010-05-25T13:16:00.003+03:00

the Nile river.
a view from mubarak public library, mansoura.

i don't know how to say this but i did REALLY BAD for my prosthesis practical exam and regretting it until now.haih. and mom seems to be angry with me telling her that i didn't do well. i am so so so so so so so so so so so so so sorry,mom.i really am. i don't know how much i get for the prosthesis practical exam but all i know is i need to push myself to study hard and do EXTREMELY WELL for the written. it's like..if i didn't do the written VERY well, then it's like a suicidal act.

i will try my best for the written,mom. i promise u this.and i will go back home and spend the whole 2 months of summer vacation with you.and i definitely will able to do the attachment at Dr Norhin's clinic.insyaAllah.insyaAllah.insyaAllah.

words cannot describe how sorry i am.but mom, i am sorry.janganlah marah lg,mak. :(

back to hiatus.

hey hey there's a doctor in the family! (part 2)

2010-05-13T15:37:00.005+03:00

cool gila family Mohd Salleh Sahimi ni. 2 doctors in a year!

congrats dear kak ngah for she is now officially a doctor.
it really worth all the hard works and all arwah ayah's money,right?
i am so proud of you.both of you, kak yong and kak ngah.
macam kagum gila la kan..i really hope to become a doctor too insyaAllah.
now it's time for you to pray for me.hoho :p

called mak just now, she was superbly happy! :)

anyway, congrats again, Dr. Sarah Mohd Salleh Sahimi. selamat mengharungi liku2 hidup seorang Doktor.hoho :)

p/s:
mak msg, kata: thanks for calling. gile comel!. mak saya comel.sila jeles. hohoho.
found the semangat to study. thank you mom. :)

shift your paradigm

2010-05-09T16:41:00.006+03:00

i was touched when i watch this the 1st time when we had our solat hajat mega and Apang showed this to us.

and it did open my eyes when i watch it again after i learn about the ISK (Ini Sejarah Kita) with kak Hanisah.and i hope that it will touch your heart too,insyaAllah :)

thank you so much kak yong, for pushing me to learn about the ISK, where i learn about the responsibilities of a muslim and made me go to the Shahadatul Haq (SH) when i was in Ireland a couple of months back.

and thank you kak hanisah for finding us and letting us know that there's a sharing group also in egypt and the way they approach us is wayy different than other circles here and thank you for finding me when i need this sharing group the most.

and thank YOU, GOD. for planning this for me.for us. and to open our eyes.

terharu.sangat-sangat terharu.terima kasih,Tuhan. :')

aku tak pandai describe dengan kata-kata.tapi aku harap, kamu dapat rasa apa yang aku rasa. :)

will be hiatus for a month insyaAllah.
saya minta maaf kalau ada salah silap.
semoga semua mendoakan kejayaan saya tahun ini(sbb tahun ni sangat-sangat susah!!)

aku stress.

2010-05-08T23:56:00.003+03:00

ye lah semua orang dah bosan aku ckp aku stress.weh tapi itu kenyataan!!aku tak tipu aku stress!
sebab2 aku stress:

1. aku tak faham kenapa otak aku ni susah sangat nak ingat pharmacology. aku rasa mcm loser gila bila dr tanya,aku ternganga..pastu bila dr bg jawapan, aku baru teringat. apekah??

2. the fact that kelas aku belum habis sepenuhnya. sebab ape aku stress sebab kelas belum habis?sebab once aku keluar rumah,aku balik, aku penat, aku rest2..sebab panas kot skarang..pastu aku tido sebab pening panas..pastu hilang dah masa belajar aku.

3. cuaca panas.mood pon mengada.

4. practial exam tak bleh bla nak susah2 semuanya.yang tak boleh bla kena inject katak atau tikus!menangis la aku nanti.
texted mak about it,dan mak aku secara comelnye bertanye: kenapa? katak ade gigi ke?
aku gelak,sebab mak aku comel.sile jeles.

5. takde study week.sebab..refer sebab 2.

6. gap antara paper yg takboleh bla sekejap.pastu, pukul 2-5. memang mengantuk la nanti.ade subject oral exam pukul 5 start.em..you do the math.

7. taktau dah nak kasi sebab apa.aku rasa dah cukup dah tu.

so, korang nak kasi aku hadiah apa kalau aku pass tahun ni dgn warna berterbangan(flying colours)?

mak, i miss you :(

Gotto envy them!

2010-05-07T22:49:00.005+03:00

meet the Jayesslee. they are twins with the nationality of korean australian.
found them when i was just loitering around the facebook, and couln't help to watch other videos too..

what's not to envy?
they are just too perfect!adoi.

GIGI DIORG CANTIK WEIH TAK TIPU JELES GILE NIH!!!

speaking of which,i have to do my lab work now!ok buhbye~!

terasa dekat dgn tuhan

2010-05-02T21:47:00.003+03:00

it's finally out!
here's my favourite song..
inshaAllah by Maher Zain.

suka.terharu.terasa dekat dgn tuhan.words cannot describe the feelings,man. :')

hey kids!

2010-04-26T12:22:00.003+02:00

it is so cute that i feel like i wanna share it with all.maybe even some of the adults didn't even know these stuff kan.hehe.

brush your teeth at least twice a day kids!(yes,and adult)
or else you'll have to meet your friendly friend the dentist.huhu

hey hey there's a doctor in the family!

2010-04-24T23:56:00.003+02:00

hey hey we have a doctor now in the family!!

this post is to congratulate Dr Hajar Salleh for getting double honors in medicine and surgery. ho yeah the whole family is so proud of you,kak yong!

huish dah habis dahhh...tak sabarnye nak habis jugak!! 2 more years bebeh..2 more years..insyaAllah..

ok back to my practical work...i have loads of them..
due date:
tuesday for both prosthesis evaluation and operative requirements.
thurday for the crown and bridge requirements.

kelas masih berjalan while the exam is just around the corner..cepat la habis wahai kelas..in desperately need study leave!

busy bee

2010-04-17T21:56:00.006+02:00

a busy bee with extra pinch of sucky internet = no blog update.

just a review of what i've (or, we've) done lately..

Dentistry Photoshoot.
yup. did that. the whole malaysian dentistry students all together! with the boys (forced to) wearing baju melayu and the girls with their baju kurung. feels abit like raya.well the purpose was actually for the dentistry malaysian day(that's another story).big thanks to Taqi for being the photographer of the day! ;)
*hanya meletak gambar yang comel2 sahaja*

ok,bukan ini yang kami beri pada university

3rd year,2009/10.

batch 07/08.

When Maher Zain came to Cairo.
i immediately text my friend to buy the ticket!and it worth every pound!with the orchestra at the back and i have to proudly tell you this,maher zain actually invited ar-raid(malaysian nasheed group here) to be his backup singer and aiman was one of them!!!and he is why we got to meet mr maher zain himself backstage after the concert.lucky me huh?haha.
yang bestnye..
he knew ramai orang malaysia datang, and went like..
'i know that there are many my malaysian fans here tonight,thank you for coming!'
comel ke tak comel?haha.
*mak texted me:' dgr cite awak pergi concert?'
siape la bgtau mak ni??nasib baik konsert nasyid.huhu*

all the best in your career, mr maher zain! m.zain: please make du'a for me.

the Day.THE MALAYSIAN DAY.
amek kau capital letter!the plan was wayy back before the winter break.tapi dr ni ngade2 nak tgk itu ini.postponed a week.postponed to another week.another week.finally on the 7th of april 2010,we made it happen.fuhhh!!!puas hati. THANKs everyone for the hardwork throughout the entire dentistry malaysian day ;)

was the director of the event ;)

with the vice dean and everyone else

main dish of the day: sate made by faiz.alhamdulillah cukup :)

news:
i am in the finals mood.
practical exams will be starting on 7th may.
written exams will be starting on 8th june and everything will end on the 29th june.
insyaAllah will go back to dearie hometown mid july tapi ticket belum beli lagi.tunggu result dulu baru beli.
will be busy starting this day.huhu takut ni finals ni.tak mahu pisang berbuah 2 kali,nak balik malaysia cepat2!doakan yang terbaik,please :)

life is like an hourglass glued to the table

2010-04-06T01:08:00.003+02:00

gotta love this:

2 AM and she calls me 'cause I'm still awake,
can you help me unravel my latest mistake,
I don't love him, winter just wasn't my season
Yeah we walk through the doors, so accusing their eyes
Like they have any right at all to critisize,
hypocrites, you're all here for the very same reason

'Cause you can't jump the track,we're like cars on a cable
and life's like an hourglass, glued to the table
No one can find the rewind button girl,
So cradle your head in you hands
And breathe, just breathe,
Woah breathe, just breathe

May he turn 21 on the base at Fort Bliss
Just today he sat down to the flask in his fist,
Ain't been sober, since maybe October of last year.
Here in town you can tell he's been down for a while,
But my God it's so beautiful when the boy smiles,
Wanna hold him, maybe I'll just sing about it.

Cause you can't jump the track, we're like cars on a cable,
And life's like an hourglass, glued to the table.
No one can find the rewind button boys,
So cradle your head in your hands,
And breathe, just breathe,
Woah breathe, just breahte

There's a light at each end of this tunnel, you shout
But you're just as far in as you'll ever be out
These mistakes you've made, you'll just make them again
If you only try turning around.

2 AM and I'm still awake, writing a song
If I get it all down on paper, its no longer
inside of me, threatening the life they belong to
And i feel like I'm naked in front of the crowd
Cause these words are my diary, screaming out loud
And I know that you'll use them, however you want to

Cause you can't jump the track, we're like cars on a cable,
And life's like an hourglass, glued to the table
No one can find the rewind button now
Sing it if you understand.
and breathe, just breathe
woah breathe, just breathe,
oh breathe, just breathe

breathe(2am) by anna nalick

err hello?

2010-03-22T23:18:00.004+02:00

HI!!

sesi membersihkan sawang-sawang blog.

hello people,it's been awhile.been busy with some stuff.ada je masa terluang sikit tapi nk cerita everyday life sangat-sangat bosan.(wahh saya dah matang,ho yeahh)
ok back to sesi membersihkan sawang-sawang blog. just a quick review of what happened during my blog post absent.

dental workshop was a success,alhamdulillah.
the dental workshop's aim was to teach the students anything regarding the practical work that they'll face the next year.macam predentistry students belajar macamane nak carve gigi.and the 1st year students belajar macamane nak buat crown,buat tooth preparation and complete denture.syok kan? semestinya idea datang daripada tuan pengarah,acap!!woot woot.
we had 2 sessions of dental workshop.means,2 fridays, because the only cuti we have is friday,nak buat 2 hari berturut is very impossible(ok ok stop whining)
thanks to all program committee members for making the workshop a success.kesian korang penat2 eh?but it totally worth it right?heehee.

pengarah di tengah2.takleh do aku letak gambar kau sorang.biar la orang lain nk tumpang glamer jugak.huhu
the 1st day: as an instructor.hehe seronok.

the 2nd day, as an assistant instructor for kak meen

i missed almost everything this year.i missed the cultural day,the talent show,the dinner,the family day.humph.blame my course for that.
i decided not to go to the annual dinner because,
i do not have the money for it,let alone for the dress.
i need the money i have to buy dentistry tools yang boleh tahan mahal juga harganya.

but but,i am going to maher zain's concert in cairo this thursday!weehoo!

erm, am actually having a writer's block (-.-") so,i don't really know what else to write huhu.

the dentistry malaysian day is coming up. but the date is yet to be known. i'm handling quite a big part of it but yes, the job comes along with stress foc. humph. the vice dean nak tgk ni,tgk tu before the actual event, dia puas hati, barulah boleh organize. sabar hannah sabar~huhu.
i just hope that the dentistry malaysian day will run smoothly and will not interfere with our studies,insyaAllah.

talking about studies, i still have alot to cover.yeahhh, the common student's everyday talk.but seriously, the final will start on 22nd may and ends on 30th june.practical belum tahu lagi.could be next month!speaking of which, i havent practice setting teeth for prosthesis yet!huhu freaky.freaky.freaky.

back to books peeps.will not update the blog sangat frequently,sadly.
the internet connection pon not being too friendly nowadays.

DENTAL WORKSHOP: A DAY IN THE FUTURE

2010-03-03T11:58:00.004+02:00

people kept asking why am i soo busy..
this is the reason:

dental workshop:a day in the future. for the juniors.to show how much we love you!haha :p
datang jgn tak datang!! :D
you'll have fun insyaAllah.
for the tentative, please click here.

till then!adios!

ok the holiday post!

2010-02-23T23:16:00.009+02:00

it's going to be a full with pictures and a bit diary-ish post..so bare with me. :D

1st day
boarded a turkish airlines flight to istanbul. and this is a must say,turkish air is worse than egypt air.thanks! it's like air asia, only more expensive.egypt air, i heart you. (omg,what did you just say hannah?haha egypt air boleh 40 kg okay?seronok)
slept for almost the entire 4 hours in istanbul airport. And, istanbul airport is big, but more or less macam pasar jual ikan.. serabut gila masa check in.urghh tak suka..but that's another story.
and so, from istanbul we boarded another turkish airlines flight straight to DUBLIN!ho yeah..
where nadia lost her bag. haha. so like yeah, met kak yong there, hugged!rinduuuu..yada-yada. settled down at her house,yang best.dapur yang best.jeles.benci

and then at night, we went to jalan-jalan at the dublin city centre,because dear nadia has nothing to wear the next day because her bag is still at cairo. perfect kan?haha. akmal as the tourist guide.showed us here and there. kedai dah tutup pon..and it was only 7. kedai kat mesir buka sampai lewat malam ok?(haha tiba2 bangge :p)

dublin!

2nd day.
next destination: london.
ryan air is abang to air asia. but we don't really mind because the journey was about 1 hour or so.settled down at the london malaysian hall.best! better than the cairo malaysian hall la yang pastinya.then, off we go loitering around london!

nampak sgt la kan korang tau aku pergi mane.haha :p

oxford street at night.

day 3.
ripley's tak bukak lagi when we got there. super sedih. teruskan perjalanan menjelajah london.and then off we go to bristol.met haziq and afiq.went to the clifton suspension bridge where afiq told a long story about it.penciptanya si brunel. tinggi bridge tak sama.si brunel tak cukup duit.sebab tu bridge tu pendek je.and si brunel tak cukup budget untuk beli bahan,so digantikan dengan ape entah.tak ingat dah.

trafalgar square.

buckingham palace

the clifton suspension bridge

day 5.
terus 5th day sebab nothing much happened on the 4th day.hehe.
so on the 5th day, kami merajinkan diri ke kelas di rcsi!! ho yeah. we followed akmal, ok jalan ke rcsi from kak yong's house was like so tiring.envied the super comfy lecture hall.envied the english lecture.envied the way they study.urgh benci orang-orang yang belajar di rcsi.thanks.
after that, we visited kak yong's college, trinity college dublin, and went to the famous library yang ada the book of kells, which is believed to be the oldest book ever. and the long room tapi tapi!! no photographs allowed.sedih sedih.
and then, we went to Powerscourt,bray by dart. the scenery in powerscout is super amazing!it is believed that it was owned by some lord hundred years back and the lord died (obviously) and something happened here which i cannot remember..and yeah the powerscout is now for people to come and enjoy the scenery.tapi serious besarrrr!! and there's waterfall but we didn't get the chance to go there because it was closed.

trinity college dublin.

powerscourt

this is bray

day 6
was planning to go to the Malihide castle or Glendalough. i really wanted to go to Glendalough because it was the place where p/s: i love you filmed. but we went to the Grafton street instead to buy some souvenirs. spent the entire day looking for souvenirs and had dinner at the kebabish original with kak yong. ziarah-ed some kak yong's friends. made new friends. chatted and laughed until mid night.

sian bdk ni kena buli.haha :p

day 7

went to galway for a program kak yong asked me to join. shahadatul haq. an awesome program i must say. i enjoyed every bit(eh tipu) most of it.the talk about the shahadatul haq was really an eye opener.and this,i will tell, in the next post, insyaAllah. :)

galway :)

ain,the new friend. salam ukhwah ;)

day 8
still in galway and went back to dublin later in the afternoon.

day 9
ok tiba masa untuk kembali ke reality. :(

thanks kak yong, for everything! especially the shahadatul haq program. me love my sister so much! :)

more photos?see here :D

backpacking was fun! but for girls macam mahal sikit lah kan sebab tempat tinggal agak mahal sebab kitorang taknak amek dorm backpackers sebab nak solat n stuff a bit susah. and kitorang like jalan macam sukati je nak jalan mane sebab entah..malas lah ade group tour etc! tp survive je and duit pon tak banyak habis.sebab bawak segala macam maggie n segala 3 in 1.ho yeahh!

overall, saye kurang belanja dan ada duit extra yang agak banyak la jugak! :) (cehhh bangge pulak..huhu :p)

p.s:
thanks kak yong, kak fatimah, kak yana, kak siha, kak sheeda, kak amy for the hospitality.
thanks akmal, for the tickets, and for teman-ing us shopping.haha
thanks haziq for the sardines.haha :p
thank you ireland for giving me sooo much experiences, both good and bad.haha

till we meet again!insyaAllah, biiznillah. :)

back to reality :(

2010-02-17T11:34:00.004+02:00

@ Buckingham palace, and it was raining.gile sejuk.

the journey was super fun.
gained loads of experience.
but still waiting the pictures from cik nadia..
ehem..cik nadia,sila pulang dari cairo sepantas kilat ye?
huhu..

nx post will be about the whole journey to the UK and IRELAND insyaAllah :)
ok back to article.

hello winter break!

2010-02-04T16:36:00.003+02:00

chicken ramen.wagamama.citystars.cairo.19/11/09.

tadi exam pharmacology.tak berapa best.
reminder to self: pulun your hardest for your finals,hannah. taknak pisang berbuah dua kali, please.

haih.the sadness over the pharmacology paper has not fade away yet.but the good news is that the winter break is here and i am going to somewhere near~ :D

but i have tonnes of works to be done.dentist articles,paper work,ideas ideas!!! i need ideas for the Malaysian day!!..urgh..kenape semuanya dateline nak dekat-dekat?haih..eh tak tak..tak baik mengeluh.huhu.
so i guess i'll be bringing my works along during the holiday. sedih. :(

tapi sayang,tahun ni tak dapat pergi maarad kutub 'international bookfair'(ceh padahal last year pergi 3 kali dah tak muak2 ke?huhu)
sorry my dear adik2 gigi, kak hannah cannot bring you there as i promised. and yes,i feel bad. tapi maarad kalini buat awal sangat.dan habis pon awal. :(
jom buli senior lain~hehe.

packing tak lagi!!
stuff to buy tak lagii!!
kemas bilik belum lagi!!
ha tu la hannah,buat kerja bertolo-tolo lagi..kan dah serabut!

DUBLIN anyone?hehe..
happy holidays~!

random

2010-02-02T03:13:00.004+02:00

a friend tagged me on facebook.aww look how small and how innocent i was back then.
skarang besar gajah!
6F/2001/SJK (C) YU HUA,KAJANG :)

this was taken 3 weeks back.when i didn't call or text my mom for 3 weeks,and when i click the link of the blog, the CALL YOUR MOM immediately appeared.it's like a sign.haha

and then i called my mom the next day :)

(click to enlarge)
i was browsing the commonwealth website.and this appeared.
i am home > malaysia. :)

and i miss every single person in this picture!
kena belajar bagus2,boleh jumpa mereka lama-lama :D
courtesy of kak ngah :)

ok now,back to books.
exam in 2 days.wish me luck people!

adoi.

2010-02-01T03:07:00.004+02:00

Hannah dah besar.
dulu,apa-apa yang tak kena,mesti tulis pada blog.tapi bila dah besar,i tend to write it down and not publish it.it's not the matter of pengecut,it's the matter of dah besar.benda-benda ni semua remeh je,the feelings will be gone by tomorrow.

but can i be a kid for just this time?
hari ini,ada benda yang tak kena,dah try macam2 utk lupakan.ganti tidur yang panjang,menangis,mengadu tapi the feeling is still there.sampai tak boleh study,tak boleh jadi ni.so i think i need to write this down.

sometimes,life is just unfair.tapi tak baik cakap macamtu.
as a student,we should complete our work,betul?
definisi complete our work: membuat kerja dengan hasil tangan sendiri.bukan hantar lab dan goyang kaki di rumah sambil study.while orang lain?bertungkus lumus menyiapkan kerja sebab kena hantar esok.markah penuh:10 markah.tapi kerjanya amat teruk.1 hari suntuk membuat kerja.kerja apa?menyiapkan complete denture yang sudah 3 bulan buat tak siap2 lagi.1 hari suntuk buat 5 steps yang orang lain makan masa 3 hari buat.bukannya tak mahu siapkan awal,cumanya.flask yang diperlukan tiada yang vacant.semuanya orang dah sewa.terpaksa tunggu turn.bila dah sampai turn,esok terus kena hantar.nak beli tak mampu.mahal.duit pon dah macam air sekarang ni.

kitorang terpaksa korbankan masa study walaupun tahu esoknya Dr mesti akan buat oral exam.hapah pon aku tak ingat,even dah 3 kali ulang topic yang sama.kau?goyang kaki dengan seronoknya di rumah,sebab tanggungjawab kau dah selesai,iaitu:hantar lab,suruh technician yang siapkan.

kadang2 betul jugak,kenapa kita perlu buat semua ni?exam practical tak termasuk pon flasking semua ni.exam practical nanti final hanya susun gigi.tapi,bilamasa cadangan hantar ke lab dibuka,aku terus teringat mak.mak kata,belajar betul2.sefaham aku,mak aku suruh belajar betul2,jangan menipu,jangan ambil jalan mudah.belajar ni,memang la susah,mana ada yang mudah,betul tak?

tapi tak apa lah,kau punya wang,upah technician untuk siapkan.siap mengorat2 supaya pakcik tu siapkan cepat.tapi pakcik cakap tak boleh secepat itu.fine lah.mungkin la kau tak yakin boleh siap 1 hari kalau kau buat sendiri kan?tapi alhamdulillah,kitorang berjaya buat dalam satu hari,dengan tak tidur,dengan tak makan sampai perut masuk angin,pagi-pagi terus rasa mcm nak mengamuk sebab tak tidur,rasa macam nak muntah sebab angin banyak sangat dalam badan.lagi-lagi time ni time winter,tapi tak boleh pakai tebal2,nanti habis la baju kena kotor sebab kerja flasking amat kotor sekali.bak kata orang,sememeh gila.

time evaluation tadi,aku terasa agak bodoh la,sebab aku blank,mungkin sebab tak tidur,tapi Dr kata,your denture is good.tapi oral,ada juga yang aku boleh jawab,tapi kebanyakan aku blank.aku tak tau la aku dapat 6.5 atau 7.5 over 10.tapi aku redha je lah,kawan aku pon blank.sebab,dia pon tak tidur jugak.and then it's your turn to face the Dr.,Dr tanya,mana denture,kau kata tak siap lagi,Dr tanya,kenapa tak bawak even tak siap lagi?aku tak tau kau jawab ape.kot ye pon kalau kau baik sangat,apa kata kau ckp terus terang kat die, Dr,saya hantar kat lab,tengah tunggu la ni dia siapkan.lepastu pujuk Dr tu,boleh tak hantar lambat,sanggup cari Dr lain,supaya membolehkan hantar lambat.kalau macamtu,aku pon nak juga!ingat fair ke macamtu?mungkin la aku jahat sebab aku tak puas hati,tapi nama pon manusia,mestilah ada perasaan tu kan?

that's why i said,sometimes,life is just unfair,finelah aku tak ada kuasa memujuk mengorat ni,aku tak reti memujuk and get full marks.

aku rasa,kita perlu jujur dalam menimba ilmu.mungkinlah kau pentingkan theory lagi daripada practical.pada aku,dua-dua penting.and processing a denture should be fun.lagi-lagi kalau buat ramai2.aku tak rasa fun tu semalam.aku rasa sakit hati.nanti kau akan cakap',siapa suruh kau tak hantar je kat lab?ni skarang dah sakit2 hati' jawapan aku,aku ingat mak aku.aku ingat cita-cita aku.walaupun aku agak suck jugak lah dalam practical.theory pon sama sebenarnya.

entahlah,fair atau tak,you'll be the judge.mungkin ada hikmah disebaliknya.tapi yang penting,perasaan aku sekarang ada sampai tahap,taknak tengok muka kau.sakit badan kot buat semua ni.mengangkut flask je dah 10 kilo.curing semua tu,if buat kat rumah,segala periuk belanga digunakan.mengangkut flask tu kesana-kemari,mengetatkan flask tu je dah rasa macam nak bersalin.hanya student dentist yang memahami kot segala macam yang aku cerita ni.

ni la flask yang aku sebut-sebut tadi.kena masuk dalam air yang mendidih.di sini dimana,segala periuk belaga dikeluarkan.

aku rasa aku sangat jahat.

rindu zaman sekolah.boleh balik rumah terus mengadu pada mak.
i need my mommy :'(

happy birthday!

2010-01-27T01:45:00.004+02:00

hello blog,
i never wish you this but..happy 4th birthday dear blog~
we've been through a whole lot!
and i hope that the blog will remain like..until i die.

okay,eventhough this has nothing to do with the birthday post but i still wanna show it because i just love the song,and the series(drama?)
proposal of daisakusen.(cerita yang sangat sweet dan comel,thanks.yamapi comel,thanks.haha) which took me almost 1 year to finish the whole series plus the special episode.due to the business,thanks.not because it is a boring typical drama.(gila defend cerita ni!astaga.)
and this song is called, chiisana koi no uta (heck,i don't even know the meaning,but i just love it,thanks.)

*apa la masalah kau dengan () ni hannah~

nota kaki:kalau blog ini seorang anak,dah boleh menulis membaca dah dia ni..dah boleh hantar pergi pre-school.hehe.

bye.got crown assignments to do..PLUS pharmacology in 10 days..AND freaking effing prosthesis.i need my mommy. :(

the wedding i adore.

2010-01-24T22:32:00.004+02:00

take a look at this.

the wedding reception of Anwar Ibrahim's son,Muhammad Ihsan and Syaheeda.
Gosh i hope for a wedding like this to be mine!
simple white garden wedding.totally to be adored!
kena kumpul duit dari sekarang!!!ok hannah,stop exaggerating .(eh tapi diri sendiri tak sedar umur dah masuk 21.haha)
but i am so sure that my mom will not allow a grand wedding because for her the simpler, the better.but mak,this wedding LOOKS simple also count kan?heehee.

speaking of weddings,i hereby to congratulates those who are planning on getting married during the upcoming winter break!especially to kak quya, our ex-neighbour.
but yeah,i cannot attend any of the weddings because i will not be in egypt during the winter break(and no.neither am i going to be in malaysia.huhu)
my doa is for all of you in gaining happiness in the upcoming new lives as husbands and wives.May Allah bless you with barakah your entire life,insyaAllah. :)

nak ikut :((

2010-01-21T15:00:00.003+02:00

the family is going to Kuching to meet kak ngah tomorrow.

the family=(family + cousins + aunties)

and i am soo homesick now :(

nak ikuttttt ~ :(

but i have pharmacology exam on the 4th,so i guess, i have to study during the 2 weeks gap?because pharmacology is soooooooo giving me a headache!

and on the extra note, prosthesis evaluation is also gonna be in the same week.

yeah,my life is just great.and i am soo not complaining.seriously!

so yeah,
ya Allah, berikanlah aku kekuatan,ketabahan,serta ketekunan untuk mengharunginya.
insyaAllah..amin :)

my sister's keeper.

2010-01-15T10:18:00.007+02:00

well,the mid year exam is about 90% finished. i still have pharmacology but the date is yet to be known.so i was like..spending the whole night sleeping for celebrating my separa merdeka yesternight,and when i woke up,everyone else is sleeping and it's only 3a.m and my eyes wouldn't want to be shut so i browse around my laptop,searching for some good movies to re-watch it,and i suddenly found this movie,which i havent watch it yet.

NOTE: this is not a movie review!

and so,i watched it....

you know when it's 3 am and nobody's watching you and the silence is like stimulating you to the mood of the story,and yes indeed it is a sad one,and yes i admit i cried the entire 60% of the movie.maybe,just maybe the story is just soo family,and that triggers me la kot?

But some of you may have seen the movie,so yeah i'm the loser who is soo outdated in this thing.huhu.

so,it's a good movie to watch ALONE. i don't know how to describe it but when a movie succeeded to make me cry,it's definitely a good one.hoho..tapi ye lah,hannah is so fragile lately. :p

so, go go go!go watch it if you haven't watch it yet.

my 1st baby :D

2010-01-06T16:21:00.002+02:00

okok i know the blog is in hiatus until i finish my mid year exam but i HAVE to show you this!!!!

ladies and gentlemen,
i am proudly to present you: my 1st ever denture!! :')

sangat-sangat-sangat puas hati!
it worth all the piles of tears,all midnight oil,and yeah of course, all the money spent.
terharu ianya menjadi :')

MOMMY MOMMY, i made my 1st denture..see it see it :D

ok,back to hiatus.
goodbye peeps!

mid year fever.

2009-12-28T19:43:00.003+02:00

as all of you may or may not know..
my mid year exam is like..in 12 more days!
so i am here to announce that the blog is currently in hiatus.

nak study bagus2 weyh,tak mahu sejarah berulang 2 kali.especially the 0.5 marks.

so to those who are having an exam now or dalam masa terdekat, ALL THE BEST!

walaupun buruk gile tapi saye suka gambar ni hahaha :p

p/s: ALL THE BEST mansourians.May Allah be with you. :)

to a special person,

2009-12-24T13:28:00.003+02:00

this is a special post..

i woke up with an sms waiting to be read,and it was from luqman.

so here it goes....

to our youngest brother,Luqman Mohd Salleh Sahimi, NRIC..94xxxx-xx-xxxx, congratulations to you for your PMR!

inshaAllah,this will happen again for your SPM.we are soo proud of you! :)

strive hard,
your beloved kak lang :D

bertunang?

2009-12-17T22:36:00.003+02:00

tunang.
the syndrome that's attacking the teenangers nowadays. i bet that everyone has someone close that is engaged.i am not here to say that i am against this thing, or neither am i supporting it.

from my point of view, engage in islam is something good. and Allah will give you pahala when you're engaged. but engagement doesn't mean that you have the ticket to go out with your fiance without being accompanied by you're mahram, it also doesn't mean that you can contact your fiance freely.

from a book (aku terima nikahnya) that my friend read to me, the author said that when he was engaged, he seldomly contact his fiance. he doesn't even know her birthday, and he rarely meet her. And that is the way an islamic engagement is about. Because,by engagement, it is still haram for a man and a woman to be together, or even think about his/her fiance.

engagement should be attended by the family members only.and everything is discussed among them,without the attendance of the lelaki,and the ceremony should be as subtle as possible.but nowadays, the lelaki himself came knocking the door and the engagement ceremony is one hell of a small wedding ceremony with the lelaki and perempuan sit together hoping for the blessing from the people who came.

and nowadays, those who are engaged, act as if they were married. they didn't meet but they do contact each other 24/7. and once they didn't call, they will miss each other, which is again, haram to miss anybody that is not halal to you.

the question is, IF the intention of getting engaged is something islamic, or some may say dating is haram but getting engaged is something you can get pahala with, but IF the action after the engagement is not that islamic afterall. what makes you different than those who are dating someone that is haram to him/her? MAYBE you didn't hold his/her hands but there's still those who are dating but prevent themselves from holding hands,right?hurm..

and the Prophet Muhammad (PBUH) once said:

rahsiakan pertunangan, sebarkan perkahwinan.

it doesn't mean that you should deny if anybody ask you if you were engaged, but i think that it means that you should keep it silent,but if anybody came to you and ask you the question, tell him that 'yes, i am engaged.' but i don't think that you should tell him the name of your fiance, because the fiance is not the husband yet.and by engagement, it is not as if the fiance is 100% will be your husband.

i have a friend that is engaged, but when everybody asked her,she denied.then 3 months later,BOOM,came the news of her getting married. and once she's married,she said that she's been engaged for about 6 months prior the wedding.after hearing that, i kept thinking that is it ok to tell lies?oh tak berdosa la kalau menipu aku dah bertunang? these religious people are sometimes,WEIRD. and don't tell me that it's a white lie because i know there is no such thing as a white lie. secetek2 ilmu agama aku,aku tahu kewujudan tipu sunat itu ada atau sebaliknya.

But the Prophet did say that rahsiakan pertunangan,which means, you don't have to make the ceremony as large as your wedding,or should i say it as a pre-wedding?

so i am writing this for everyone to spare a while, and ponder. and those who are planning to engaged, think carefully. and ask yourself your intention of getting engaged, is it for Allah? if it is, then follow the halal-haram rules that Allah has set for you.

i am not writing this because i think that i am soo religious,
neither am i planning on getting engaged whatsoever,
i am writing this because i think i should let people know my thoughts regarding this,
and i hope that i will become as i wished for my engagement. InsyaAllah :)

sesi membersihkan sawang-sawang blog.

2009-12-13T22:49:00.003+02:00

see?dentist takde la menakutkan kan? (Operative practical class, nov 2009)
fine,ye aku buat kat dummy jaw je dulu.huhu

1st of all...

DAH ADA INTERNET!!

so,hello mommy!

2nd of all...

alot had happened throughout the whole 2 months i've been settling down here. masam muka sana,masam muka sini,and what's the solution for it?nothing.
i have nothing against this new society but for me it's worth nothing if there's 2 medic societies at the same place.and i prefer to say that i support both of them but i must say that i put my trust on the society that has been here for like..3 years and is recognized by everybody,not in Mansoura only.
and i have the urge to say that the new society is somehow..bias?or shall i say..the society is only for a certain batch, conducted by only their cliques or somewhat.but i will support everything you're doing,seriously.

enough about that..
this is something else.
we have our own organization! :)
alhamdulillah,finally,it's worth to wait.so now,everything regarding dentistry will be more organised,insyaAllah. :)
and about the increasing tuition fees for the new students. the university doubled up the tuition fees, leading to the sum of the whole 5 years of studying dentistry is around RM140,000 which is very expensive compared to the tuition fees the seniors get,which is about RM75,OOO only.Maybe it is for the facilities they provided.but my dear,it's ok to double up the fees for the medic students as the facilities provided are more sufficient compared to the one that is provided for the dentistry students.

RM140,000- lectures in arabic, need to pay alot more for the extra classes they're attending,lab tools,books, everything is form your own pocket money.hurm,talking about tak agak2 nak naikkan harga!hence,most of the students either quit or moved to another univesity with facilities are triple thumbs up!
RM60,000- lectures in english, have their own lab,their own library,their own kuliah.how lucky.
tapi malaysian lecture room lah,malaysian leisure room lah,malaysian library lah..everything stated malaysian.bosan gila hidup!kata study overseas?kena la study mcm duduk dekat overseas,right?kena layan mcm raja pulak,gedik lah!geli.
and i met 1 snobbish junior oneday..

blogowneryangcomel: study apa kat sini(mesir)?
snobbishjunior: dentistry kat _____(insert any name of university here)
blogowneryangcomel: oh junior kita la ni!!
snobbishjunior: lah kejap je pon..(because they were studying in mansoura before moving there)

blogowneryangcomel terasa terguris hati. sampai hati snobbishjunior berkata begitu.
blogowneryangcomel berkata dlm hati: habis tu, senior2 fourth year,fifth year dekat ___(anywhere but mansoura) tu bukan senior aku la?ciskek.
respect la sikit kot,at least aku lagi tua.huh.

enough about that,i want to write about the fun eid adha that i've celebrated but my eyes are begging me to get some rest.so i will write it(or post the pictures) later.

oh oh the 3rdly,
me going somewhere this winter break...
kita tunggu dan lihat.hohoho.

nice kan gambar ni?(roxy square, nov 09)

ok i put 2 pictures of eidadha first.
this is the picture of some AJK of the eidadha celebration organised by the GMMSC. and i must say it is fun to get involved from head to toe to this program. mcm best je kalau buat lagi tahun depan :) (mansoura univ, 28 nov 2009)

kami yang ditinggalkan oleh housemates yang pergi berjalan2. :(
(mansoura univ,adha pcm, 30 nov 2009)

helllooo people!

2009-11-08T19:53:00.002+02:00

it's the beginning of winter!goodbye hot weather, you will be missed.
egypt is,as usual,congested with malay students.
school is tiring,having more practical classes than lectures,loads of requirements to do,loads of fun yet loads of stress.

enough of school,i will tell you all about it when i have my own internet(currently using roomate's broadband.huhu) and i am blogging while doing some research about the crown and bridge.talking about taking chances!haha

emosi bermain dengan saya tahun ini.maybe it is due to the stress.this too,will be talked in much more detail,once i get my own internet.

so that's it.i'm off.i have research to do,remember?hoho.just stopping by to tell everybody that i am still breathing here and yes mom,i am doing fine,there's nothing to worry.totally.

nota kaki:
did i tell you that i have no weekends?'welcome' to mansoura,people!haih.
thanks kak hanis,for lending me your broadband :)
tak sabar tunggu cuti raya haji yang panjaaaaaaannnnngggggggg!!!!
cuti winter ni nak pergi mana ye?hoho

the world is angry.

2009-10-05T05:00:00.004+02:00

i once heard that once there's continuous earthquakes,it's like one of the big the signs of we're about to reach the end of the world.

there's more.
the tsunami attacked Samoa,and the typhoon in Philippines.

and some people are just so full of themselves and doesn't want to help those who are in need.making excuses like the Indonesians wanted to kill the malaysian students,why should we help them?
since when our parents taught us that if people treat us bad,we have to treat them equally bad also?

stop blaming others because
Daripada Abu Hurairah ra bahawasanya Rasulullah saw. Bersabda: Jika ada seseorang berkata: Orang ramai (sekarang ini) sudah rosak, maka orang yang berkata itu sendiri yang paling rosak di antara mereka"

there's a saying that we have to help each other no matter how bad that person is,whoever he is,even if he's your enemy.

i'm not trying to be religious but all i'm saying is,stop being childish.the world is angry,he's getting old and we soon will die.everybody will die, no one is excluded.what's the point of being so arrogant?

treat people nicely,people!we have not much time left.
and go pray.
it's a reminder for you and a reminder for me as well.

footnote:
and oh,i'm leaving tomorrow.goodbye malaysia :'(
and i don't want to leave home,it's too comfy to leave.
but yeah,comfortable is just temporary.
and i have a new resolution this year;i will study the smartest and the hardest!yeahhh!!
ok so tonight,i'll be sleeping with dear mommy haha jangan jealous!

THANK YOU GOD!!!

2009-10-03T13:44:00.002+02:00

previously,
i was soooooooooo worried when i read cida's text:
korg!result da kua!!zaim mintak rakam julus (student number).

i was having a tachycardia moment and my conversation with luqman before i receive the text, was left silent.

then i went to my room to get ready because i promised my friend to accompany her to her reunion dinner.and when i stepped into the car i immediately jumped of joy because cida sent me another message telling me that everybody passed!

what a relief i must say!congrats gigi-ans who worked their butts off during the tensed 2 weeks of dhur thani (resit).i think i'm about to cry now.huhu.

great job gigi-ans,great job.congrats and let's kick some asses this semester!
and thank YOU,God!for answering our prayer :)

it's jayyid,by the way,same as last year. :)
and oh,i'll be going back to egypt this Tuesday.how fast time flies.how i wish the summer break is like forever!

<3<3

2009-09-27T10:14:00.001+02:00

love this nasheed.
got to share it with everyone! :)
it's Asma Allah by the famous Sami Yusuf :)

raya 09

2009-09-23T16:33:00.006+02:00

this year's raya :one of the saddest.

my nenek passed away the last day of ramadan.we got a call from cikde after we got back from tarawih and we immediately went back to kampung that night and yes, it was a sad night.But to think that nenek has suffered alot, i decided to just redha with her passing away.

from HIM we came,to HIM we return.
Al-Fatihah to arwah nenek.may nenek be placed along with those who deserved a place in jannah.

1st syawal,
we prayed the sunat eidulfitri at surau annur in bangi and visited arwah ayah's kubur.
it's been 3 syawals without him.dad,we miss you. :(
then we just spent the day sleeping because everybody was having super lack of sleep the previous day.

2nd syawal,
balik kampung for tahlil arwah.
and return back to bangi,spent the rest of the day..doing nothing?

3rd syawal,
went to pak andak's house,called random houses but sadly people are still at their kampung.
cooked laksa sarawak!(a bit salty,but i think i did a pretty good job :))
cikde and anjang came so we served them the laksa sarawak haha.

4th syawal,
well actually i think i just celebrate raya today because there were lots of people came and we actually berombongan went to abang amir's house in seremban.
and abang amir told us the story of him undergoing chemotherapy and so on. which made me realise how valuable this life is and how we must have the strength to keep on living life no matter how many obstacles we have to face.

conclusion of this year's raya:
it was a sad raya,
and we didn't actually celebrating it.
and the older you get,the lesser the money you receive.
but with the reason of fisabilillah,people tend to give you extra money hehe.

p/s: boys with baju raya are cute,but only when they dressed up decently. :)

no matter how,raikanlah aidilfitri dengan penuh bersederhana.
bulan syawal memang 30 hari,tapi itu tidak bermaksud kita boleh bersuka ria sepanjang 30 hari tersebut.berpada-padalah.
seronok,seronok juga tapi ingatan terhadap Tuhan itu perlu juga ada.

wallahua'lam

Al-Fatihah kepada mereka yang telah mendahului kita.

salam perantau.

2009-09-18T06:54:00.003+02:00

Hanim sent a photo of us to utusan for salam perantauan.

andd..Utusan approved it!

but OMG huduhnye saye.

the best part is that kak Hanis also sent our raya haji photo to utusan for salam perantauan and still waiting for approval..

and IF Utusan approves it,mann mencapubnye kami.haha.

so i guess i'll cover my face the entire day of eid.

and i have to prepare myself hearing the orang kampung saying:
'eh,kau ada kat sini?apsal aku nampak kau kat surat khabar?'

huhu..

well at least i've spent 3 weeks fasting in egypt kan?..enough said.

selamat hari raya peeps,be nice. :)

or click here

hello malaysia 09 part 2.

2009-09-16T10:06:00.003+02:00

nak tahu tak?

my flight last night was superbly fun.
it was like a rombongan balik malaysia.
the flight was full with Malaysians,especially students from Mansoura(my batch,of course)..
and due to that i was like overexcited and talked..non-stop,from the car to the airport to the plane.

i was too talkative until Din said: Hannah,slow sikit volume.and Ridh was like perhatian kepada hannah sahimi,sila rendahkan suara anda..thrice.malu.haih.

i don't mind if i have to sit with anybody but i was a bit segan-ish when i have to sit with an ustaz,the very religious one i must say and it automatically switched my mood 360 degree.yup2.and Din was like it's ok i will save you from him..but no effort wan Din?haiyooo..

luckily Amin talked to the steward and tadaaa~Amin saved the day,and i got to escape from the ustaz and sit beside Amin.yippie!
but then the steward keep on coming to me asking me am i still studying ke and keep smiling at me like every freaking time he saw me.haih too friendly pulak.

the steward left when we arrived Mumbai for our 45 minutes transit but then came another annoying steward disturbing.sabar je la when he accused us not fasting when we actually did and he said he saw Amin eating when all he do was sleeping.kan dah dpt bengong dgn kitorg.huhu

but maybe he's just trying to be friendly.i don't blame him for that.hee :D

the journey is even memorable when cute little balqis joined us along with her mama and papa.balqis really became the center of attention.

and there's no more story because all i did in the flight was sleeping and sleeping pengsan that i didn't realize Ee came to us wanted to chat but he decided not to when he saw us sleeping.aww~

except thatttt..
Amin eagerly waked me up and tersengih panjang gile for this:

'hannah hannah,tgk tu..cool kan?cool kan?'
and i was like oiii u're bothering my sleep laa..tp dlm hati je la..layan je la kerenah budak ni.haih.

so now i am home and it's 3.40 am and i am jet lagged.so i decided to wait for sahur and will go to sleep after subuh.

i will fly back to egypt on the 6th of october as the dentistry class starts by then.huhu.

notakaki:
there're rumors about Tanta University is extending their cuti for another month due to the H1N1 that's attacking there.
Mansoura University tak nak extend cuti juga ke?hehehe
tp tak baik mendoakan yg tidak baik--bak kata cida jaya.

till then,selamat hari raya,maaf zahir batin,ampun maaf dari hujung kaki ke hujung rambut.semoga raya ini menjadi raya yang terhebat buat semua.tapi ingat,raya,raya juga tapi suruhan tuhan tetap perlu dipatuhi.selamat pulang kampung,berhati-hati ketika memandu,hargailah nyawa yang tersayang. :)

adios!

excited?

2009-09-13T17:45:00.004+02:00

i don't know which one i should be excited over..

coming home for raya,tomorrow
orr...
the exam is actually over.

yeay,i'm coming home tomorrow..
yeay,exam is over..
(sila baca dgn nada mendatar)

how did i do for my exam?
let's just say that i did alhamdulillah..
dhur tani was...harder than the final
i felt like crying while answering the dhur tani physiology paper.
and seeing friends' happy faces after the exam..makes me feel minority.
am i the only one who feel the exam that we sit just now,harder than the final?
i'm happy for them,i really am.
i just feel like....a loser..

as for anatomy, i am satisfied with it but who knows...
rezeki itu di tangan Allah,dan kita hanya boleh berdoa untuk mendapatkannya.
usaha,sudah.kini tinggal tawakal.

i think i made a good choice deciding to come home for raya as i am really homesick and the house is empty because everybody has left.

i really need a shoulder to cry on..may i borrow yours?

footnote: dhur tani : resit.

i'm leaving!

2009-08-24T14:14:00.003+02:00

well well...tomorrow is tuesday and i've packed my bags.
not gonna bring so much though,since i'm coming home for raya. (oh manjanya hannah.urgh!)
i hate people calling me manja,so i listed down my reasons of coming home for raya.haha(taknak mengaku lagi XD)

1stly, i cannot change my ticket because there's no seats avail. So,i end up buying a return ticket. (with my own money,thanks!)

2ndly, there's totally nobody in Mansoura during raya which means,i'll be totally alone and that is the saddest part.i dont mind living alone at home,but raya alone means major sadness!

3rdly...ok there's only 2 reasons.haha...ok fine!i am mak's little girl.puas hati?haha :p

so i'll be leaving for 3 weeks, giving 200% attention for my exam,with no internet( because i'm not paying for the August's internet fee ), no entertainment, no fun.haha.

so wish me luck guys!i REALLY REALLY REALLYYYY need them.
pray for me in your prayer.orang kata, insyaAllah makbul doa di masa bulan ramadan.

as for all of you, have a blast ramadan.see you in 3 weeks!( start conteng calender.haha )

footnote: goodbye imam tarawih yang kacak dan bacaannya mashaAllah sedapnye.. huhu.

ahlan ya ramadannn!

2009-08-22T05:06:00.001+02:00

Ramadan is here and on tuesday,i will return to the land that i fond of!(haha it's soo fake,i know).With that,i will celebrate the ninth month of the islamic calender in Egypt.

ingat lagi waktu standard 1,where there was this 1 time,the teacher(i forgot the name,i'm sorry lao shi) was soo furious when she found out mineral bottles were on the desks and she immediately ask the chinese students to respect us(the malays) during the holy month by placing their mineral bottles on the floor,where we(the malays) cannot see them and won't curi minum.

and then she made a really cute(in my point) rule where the students are only allowed to drink facing the walls,not facing the fasting friends.(cute right,my teacher?i know.haha)

and you know,chinese school,the canteen are always open,even during the fasting month,the malays are minority what..cannot do anything about it.so yeah,the canteen were open and the standard 3 me and some friends who fast like 'separuh hari' went to the canteen,act as if we were chinese(bengong nak act mcm chinese tapi pakai baju kurung and tudung ,like what the hell kan?but i was 9 years old,so it's forgiven haha)ok back to the story,you know i didn't go to the canteen for just suka-suka watching people eating and drinking the whole 20 minutes of break(where the hell did i get the money?i have no idea!cause my mom never give me a penny for me to belanja,except if the teacher needed them),i bought myself some food too!and apparently my disguise works!haha.but then,jeng jeng jeng..bumped into the sister's friend,a malay,and the sister's friend was like hey hannah!and i pretended i didn't recognise him and then he told my sister that i makan,and my sister told my mom and my mom asked me if it is true(with a very angry tone,yup!) and i said nooo wayyyy!!!i want to collect money for my fasting days!!(because my late father once promised us,when we were young,it's sorta like the way he teaches us fasting by giving us RM1 per day for the fasting day)and i was like..suka hati je tuduh-tuduh orang tak puasa!!and my mom was like..you cannot break fast with us,young lady, because you already did! and i was like..i swear to God i will never ever break my fast before maghrib,ever again because i will not allowed to have dinner with the family,and,dad will deduct the money. :(

that was primary school.when i enter secondary school,this funny thing happened.
my form 4 addmaths teacher(i will not reveal his name,but he's a chinese) was just finished teaching and he sat on the chair and starts picking his nose.and i was like..
'ehh cikgu korek hidung!!cikgu tak puasa ke??'

'oh puasa tak bleh korek hidung ah?'

'mana boleh la cikgu..tak boleh korek telinga jugak!'

and he was like..'ohhh...ok go sit down.'

and after awhile,he called me back.

'hannah,puasa boleh telan air liur tak?'

' -.-", mesti la boleh cikguu kalau tak mcmane mau hidup?'

'ohhh itu macam ah?'

so yeah,now you know why i choose not to reveal my teacher's name.haha.
you know i love you right,cikgu?but please remember my university's name..'mansoura la cikgu,bukan al ajha(al azhar)'

In Egypt,yeah i did spend a whole fasting month in egypt when i was in my 1st year (a.k.a pre-dentistry year,in case u get confused)And there was this 1 time, my friend and i went to the shop to buy some juices,and we picked here and there,some of this,and some of that,and the cashier was counting and counting and then suddenly when we stepped out of the shop,there was this one big egyptian,laughing at us saying..

'tak puasa!tak puasa!!hahaha'(ok diorg guna bahasa arab la..)
malu gila kot dia menjerit kat tengah jalan!maka berlarilah kami menaiki tangga untuk kembali ke rumah kami.And as you know,in egypt,we the malay girls are advised not to perform tarawikh in the mosque (because of some unexplained reason),must do it at home,which i ponteng tarawikh once in a while,and that once in a while became,seldom then it became always ponteng tarawikh.haha

eh hannah,why you sooo jujur wan?
what's you problem?it's the fasting month,so need to be a good girl lah haiyoo.
-.-"

whatever it is,i will never take my hands off when i see whoever tak puasa when they have reached puberty and have no reasons on why they tak puasa.(dah besar panjang suara garau if belum reach puberty,taktau la)
i once scolded a junior ordering juice from a chinese guy.and i scolded him real hard till he told his friends and his friends told the rest of the juniors that i'm the most fierce senior ever and my name remains as the fierce senior ever till now in that school.(don't believe?ask my brother lah)buruk ok bile orang kate..'oh kak han tu garang gile'..and they never even met me!cis!

okok enough babbling,the point of me writing this post is actually about wishing my non-existing readers,
selamat berpuasa.

andai ada terkasar bahasa,tersilap kata,terguris hati,terasa pancreas,saya mohon maaf.semoga dengan kemaafan itu,kita dapat mengharungi ibadah puasa ini dengan tenang,insyaAllah.

jadikanlah bulan ramadan ini seperti bulan ramadan yang terakhir buat anda,kerana,kita tidak pasti samada kita dapat menyambut ramdan lagi pada tahun hadapan.

Ahlan ya Ramadan!bulan yang mulia,bulan yang penuh keberkatan,bulan yang penuh rahmat.

selamat beribadah,selamat beramal. :)

funny thing

2009-08-20T16:25:00.002+03:00

i didn't know that bluetooth in chinese is actually 蓝牙(lan ya:lan,means blue;ya,means tooth)!
talking about how OUTDATED i am!

if 蓝牙 is bluetooth in chinese, what is bluetooth in malay?gigibiru?

stressed is desserts spelled backward.

2009-08-19T07:01:00.003+03:00

i am stressed..
over..
2 more physiology topics that i hardly had a time to read,let alone memorizing the whole book!

my half book of anatomy calling and begging me to be memorized,which,again,where can i find the timeeee??

i have 6 days left before getting my ass to egypt,the country of happiness,which means,exams are just around the corner and i really really really need more time man!

the fact that i could never ever flunk this test because it may lead to major sadness and the nagging mom will nag like..nonstop.

just the thought of me going back,really increase the stress level.oh 'great'

even babies can get stressed too..
'being a baby is the most stressful job,you know?'

errr..can somebody teach me how to stress in such well mannered way?

facebook addict,no more.

2009-08-13T20:06:00.003+03:00

yup,you got that right! i deactivated my facebook.
the reasons:
the internet in my home is wayy too fast compared to the internet that i have in egypt.
this thing is too addictive lah!!
i really need to focus on my studies, 19 more days left, it's like a wake up call.huhu

no worries,i'll activate it back somewhere in the mid september. :D

it's time to pulunnnnnn!!

ttyl~

the birthday post

2009-08-12T10:24:00.001+03:00

thank you! thank you! thank you!

as you can read,yup,me coming home for raya. :D

see how addictive facebook can be to one's life?

my birthday was yesterday.
and i spent 25% of it having tummy cramp, another 25% of it sleeping because i was not feeling so well,another 25% of it,studying blood.totally not my favourite.and another 25% of it,i celebrated with mak and luqman.

overall,the day was spent quite okay.and yes,i am really satisfied with a simple celebration like this.couldn't wish for any better.

you see,i didn't realize that facebook is giving a big impact in one's life until today,most of the wishes came from it.i didn't receive this much of birthday wishes when i was an active user of friendster and myspace.so i would like to say that facebook really did a good job in..erm..addicting the users?or in other words,connecting people.haha.

but that is nothing to compare to the surprise phone call that i received at 0040 hours from syazwan,ean and ekhwan.you know i love you guys like..forever right?hehe.
yet,i have this wierd habit of remembering whose the 1st to wish me and whose the last,so congratulations to syiran amir and ibrahim for being the 1st and the last to wish me happy birthday.

but thennn, celebration with family is still the best among all.even though it is just the three of us,it is still,a special celebration,for me.
thanks mom for treating me pizzahut,and to abang fareed,for treating me johny's.

andd thank you for those who texted and called,i really appreciate all the wishes and the doa,and hoping that it will come true.

*update!!*
thanks juga kepada mereka ini..

special thanks to this girl,who,wished me 'happy birthday' thrice! :D

and to kak ngah for making a special post for my birthday :D

and yes,i deleted 2 of my previous entries,because, as what people say, i have to move on and stop whining,and the phrase of 'Allah tak akan menguji sekiranya hambaNya tidak dapat mengharunginya' motivates me from day to day. I appreciate kak alak,kak ngah, kak hanis and KAK nadia for giving me motivation talks,i am blessed to have them in my life. screw the egyptians for whatever they've done to me,what's done is done.it may be unfair,tetapi kesabaran itu perlu and i'm sticking to the thought that maybe God put me in this condition to train me the meaning of patience,and maybe God wants me to learn more about physiology and anatomy, and maybe God wants me to not only chase the world,but also to chase the hereafter,and just maybe, my intention to study is just wrong,and i have to correct it back.(bukan hanya sebab mahu pass exam).tanpa ujian,kita tak akan belajar,aite? (see the matured 20 year old me soooo optimist wan!haha :p)

enough of babbling,it will just spoil everything!.

stepping to the big two O life..and it's wonderful!yup,i am a prouuudddd 20 year old!takde kedut lagi kan? :p

remaja sampai umur 22 kan?hehe :D

my 2 favourite boys!! after kaer azami of course.haha

2009-08-04T05:59:00.002+03:00

presenting taufik batisah and hardy mirza.
oh gosh,i love them.
mak,i know i told you i dont want to marry anyone outside the country,but i will marry him if he's taufik batisah or hardy mirza. :D

BUTTT...
kaer azami is still the 1st option lah.hoho

hari segala macam perasaan.

2009-08-02T11:25:00.005+03:00

pagi.
sedih,nenek dikatakan sakit.sudah 2 hari.mak decided to balik kampung.so we went back to kampung immediately after subuh.
called the ambulance,took nenek to the hospital,chased the ambulance,and accompanied nenek in the emergency department,where they gave her glucose and sodium chloride.they said she's gonna be ok,so we went back home because i promised acap that i'd come to his sister's wedding.

petang.
bertambah sedih.when i reached kl sentral and i realized that i didnt bring any money except the money that i bought ktm ticket to kl sentral.
bertambah tambah sedih. when faridah said she might be late or she might not come because the train was wayyy toooo congested!
bertambah tambah tambah sedih when the superheroin ara said she couldnt come and rescue me because of her dad.leaving me,stranded in kl sentral,with no food,no atm card,no money..and the clumsy me didn't even bring along my stupid ic.which means,i cannot go to shah alam, nor to UKM,because i didnt bring a single penny.[mode kebencian terhadap diri sendiri]

maghrib.
relieved. after 2 hours at kl sentral.another superheroin came to the rescue!faridah made it!and we went straight to shah alam.

malam.
happy.because i met some of my mesir mates :)
and what makes me happier, superhero ibrahim said he can drive me home.yeay!
later that night,
touched.by a gentleman.haha.he who must not be named looked smarter than usual last night. :)

tengah malam.
superhero ibrahim with his supercar(not acually that super la,i just wrote super because a superhero needs to have a supercar..haha) sent me home safely. thanks superhero :)

the superhero ibrahim and superheroin faridah :D

yup.a fraction of the mesir mates :)

acap's sister is like sooo pretty.jeles lah.haih.

nota kaki:
dah lama tak buat entry mcm diary mcmni.haha.
gentleman made me cair.aww~ haha
kakak acap sgt cun!
acap anak orang kaya.haha.amek kau!

mak, can i have a wedding that grand?huuu~

photo courtesy of : acap ishak.

gadoh

2009-07-28T14:03:00.002+03:00

kepada sesiapa yang rasa negara ini hanya untuk melayu,
kepada sesiapa yang rasa kaum melayu,cina dan india, tidak boleh hidup bersama,
kepada sesiapa yang menyampah sangat dengan kaum lain,
kepada sesiapa yang memandang rendah kaum lain,
kepada melayu yang konon alim tapi bila jumpa cina terus pandang atas bawah,
kepada yang suka judge a book by it's cover,
kepada yang tak reti bersyukur hidup di negara ini,
kepada yang belum tonton cerita ini,
kepada semua,tontonlah cerita ini.
buka mata,buka minda, dan fikir, tak boleh ke kita hidup tanpa membezakan kaum?
kita ni,satu bangsa,bangsa malaysia.

aku dan kamu,apa bezanya?
warna kulitkah?bahasa pertuturankah?agamakah?
budaya?keturunan?apa?
jika ya,kami rela dibutakan mata,
dari hidup dalam kegelapan.

azman: aku nak tolong bangsa aku.
ann: melayu?
azman: bangsa malaysia.

saya bangga saya anak malaysia,saya bangsa malaysia,saya bangga saya berkawan dengan semua kaum,saya bangga saya bukan seperti mereka yang hanya pandai berkata dan menasihati orang bahawanya agama kita tidak suka kita membeza-bezakan kaum walhal beliau yang berkata demikian, terus mencebik apabila bersemuka dengan orang berlainan kaum.

silalah buang perkataan racism daripada kamus hidup anda.

saya suka..

2009-07-26T12:19:00.002+03:00

saya sukaaa drama ini!!!

itu je.haha.tolong la tgk,sangat best :D

a note to dad.

2009-07-26T07:15:00.002+03:00

daddy,
i had a dream..
my dream was about you..
came home from your work..
wearing your favourite long sleeve whitish blue shirt..
and you were smiling to me..

i ran to you..
and cried: 'ayah,kenapa lama sangat baru balik?'

daddy,i miss you.

i really really want to show you this picture eventhough i already post about it last year!haha

2009-07-23T14:01:00.003+03:00

i know i knoww
i've already post about the nasi durian thing last yearr..(please refer here )

i still want to show you how it actually looks like,just because i just looovvveeee this meal sooo much.yeay me :D

so the nasi durian is actually look like this.

picture 1.
the white rice,2 slices of durian,some sugar and some coconut milk/milk(in this case,i used milk,because the santan that i bought was actually too thick)

picture 2.
just mix everything up and it will look like this!tadaa~

okok i know it looked a bit..geli, bad or whatever you may call it,but it tastes nice.it's like a mouth full of yummy lemak high cholesterol stuff.
i really really recommend EVERYBODY who eats durian TRY at least ONCE this nasi durian!

but you may suffer migraine after you had it due to the overdosage of cholesterol.haha.so just try it,Don't have it like..daily!or else you can get obesed or extreme migraine.

i have a big brother now!! :D

2009-07-14T19:48:00.006+03:00

regarding the title, i would like to congratulate the newlyweds,my dearest eldest sister hajar and the new brother in law, fareed.

the ceremony was A BLAST!
maybe i only felt that way because it was the first time i involve in everything regarding the ceremony and and..it was the first wedding in Mohd Salleh Sahimi's family.

the wedding was held at the Dewan Surau Annur near my house.yeap,a surau.probably thinking how to hold a wedding in a surau.well,ladies and gentlemen,the surau is actually the biggest surau i've ever seen.2 floors,both wide and superbly huuuggeee.and the 1st floor is open to public during weekends.whoever wants to rent it,can do so,they will clean it up after that.and yes,we wear shoes in the dewan,like i said,they will clean it up.huhu.

a week before the wedding, we were busy for about everything,the majlis tahlil,the packaging the doorgift(which what mom said,luckily i'm home,at least i can help packaging the door gift) yup,packaging almost 300 by my own is really a' sweet' memory.but luckily mom and cikde did help making it up for a total of more than 1000 doorgifts.

what's in the doorgift,you asked?
for the adult,inside those little boxes,there's some tamar,a triangular dodol and the egypt chocolated brought to you by yours truly all the way from there.huhu
for the kids, they get toofees from iran.
the doorgift is then coincidencly themed 'arab style' huhu.

so the day before the wedding, mom's side of family came.too many of them,berkampung.some sleep on the floor,some on the sofas.everywhere!and i love the scenario.the super loud kecoh kepoh family that i have. :D
what makes me love the family more is when one van of them came all the way from singapore.aww~arent they sweet. :)

so after the long nite of berinai and endless layaning everybody, answering the same questions over and over like...
'where are you studying now?'
'how's the weather there?'
'how long will you finish?'
'what course are you taking?'

dannn yang paling tak boleh bla..
'when is your turn?'
ROFL. i'm just 20 for God's sake! adoi laaa..

okok back to the story,so after the long night,the day has come!!
AND people were kecoh-ing right after subuh,tension la,shouting la,the perfect,the whole perfectly all emotions were there.

after we get ready,me and luqman took the chance to escape from the noise to the surau to make sure everything is ready.hehe :D

And everything is set and done.thanks to the caterer, the cousins who helped and the surau committee itself.

the wali was luqman,the 15 year old hero of the family,mann i am so proud of him :)
and the akad nikah went well. alhamdulillah.

thus, i now have a big brother.yeay! the sporting one summore.yeay kali kedua!

courtesy of : kak fati

thanks to those who came memeriahkan majlis.and to those who didn't get the doorgift,we're so sorry but there's tonnes of them in the house.please come and take it if u want it.haha :p

terima kasih juga kepada mereka ini kerana datang dari jauh. :)

last but not least,congratulations again kak yong and abg fareed!(or should i call you yeop?haha :p)

more photos on facebook :)

jet lag punya cerita

2009-07-07T12:14:00.003+03:00

mother: tengahari baru bangun?

saya: jet lag.

mother:jet lag apenye dah nak dekat 2 minggu dah balik? tak habis-habis jet lag.
(intonasi: garang; expresi: tak boleh bla punya geram)

saya: teehee.. :D

pengajaran untuk diri sendiri: sudah2 la tu,pergi tidur awal starting today!

goodbye nescafe,mommy scold me for staying up :(

si adik penyanyi.

2009-07-05T13:07:00.002+03:00

This morning..
i woke up early, terus membantu membuat door gift for kak yong's wedding.
andd..
mom suddenly came to us and said:
' mak nak call mak faizal tahir..nak jemput'

and we were like..'call la call la!!' super excitedly..
and my sister was like..'anas mak..anas!!..'

me and luqman were beside mak when she call the mother of faizal tahir..
hoping that she'll come..

but sadly..
mom:' tak boleh datang, dia nak pergi convo anas kat UK.'

oh mannn....masing2 muka sedih.haha

well mak and faizal tahir's mom are actually friends when they were in UK berjuta tahun dahulu,that's why she's invited.huhu

how i wish anas could come..huhu

i like this one better.haha :p

hee :D

okiedokie,off back to books!enjoy the videos :)

ketentuan tuhan.

2009-07-03T11:04:00.003+03:00

what went wrong?
i studied like hell.
i locked myself in the room.
i went to the library every day.
i didn't care about onlining.
i didn't go outside Mansoura for about 4 months.
i didn't even get out of the house unless for classes and more classes.
i went to classes,extra classes too.
i did good in oral exam.
i did well in practical exam.
i was confident enough with my written exam.

the 2 subjects that i think i could score.
the 2 subjects that i didn't end up crying when i reach home after exam
the 2 subjects that i flunked.

but i thank GOD that i failed only 2 papers,because there is one more chance for me to get into the next year.if i fail 3,no chances of resitting papers,repeat year is the only solution.Alhamdulillah.

only 2 malaysian students passed with flying colours.other?well,we'll meet again this august.striving hard to pass the year.

i'm sorry,mom.i really don't know what went wrong.And i thank you for understand.Mom didn't scold me,she just ask me to study extra harder.bak kata mak, 'kau hafal semua buku tu,jangan even miss 1 word'. InsyaAllah..InsyaAllah...biiznillah.

bak kata orang,hidup di mesir,banyak cabarannya.
bak kata orang,hidup memang penuh dugaan.
bak kata orang,itu semua ujian Allah.
bak kata orang,kalau Allah uji,maksudnya Allah sayang kita.
bak kata orang,kalau Allah uji,maksudnya DIA tahu kita boleh mengharunginya.
mungkin ini ujian Allah,supaya kita sentiasa mengingatiNYA.
so stop crying,Hannah.there's still hope. :)

too bad i cant celebrate raya together with mom this year,have to go back early.sobs.

the plan,is to study here untill the exam is 1 week ahead,then i will go back.and thank you mom,for giving the permission.

the 3 months holiday has shortened to 1 month and half holiday.jadilah tu.huhu

hello thick books,we meet again!

by the wayyyy..
we were in the car on the way visitting the tokcik,who is the atok tiri of mine,and we were discussing about this:

kalau atok tiri salam cucu tiri,batal wuduk tak?

what say you?

the place called HOME.

2009-07-01T16:40:00.004+03:00

i am home!
home as in the house of mine,not the one i'm renting, not the one with small living room with overcrowded stuff and super hot temperature either in or outside the house.

how hot you ask?
egypt is now super hot that you'll be sweating like a pig even though you just went out for 5 minutes with 40+ degree celcius, and the fan is only like.. half inch from the face which pretty much made your mood swings whenever the fan's making trouble.

for the two weeks of merdeka, we did a photography session and an annual dinner together

dentist photography session
venue: gama'ah mansoura (Mansoura University,Egypt)
photographer: Taqi(syukran awwi taqi!)

the dentist batch 07/08 dinner.
venue: ramada hotel.

with a super duper fast egypt air(ok, i'm exageratting), i took a 12 hour flight straight to home sweet home.and dear mak made a surprise for me with the new room.yeay!my mom is just too sweet,i know.. :D

they made me fill the health declaration form for a precautionary step of the H1N1.and what made my jantung berdebar is when they give me the card stated ' this person may be exposed to the influenza A (H1N1)' and they told me to give the card to a doctor if i catch any flu.creepy..especially when it was the first time i fly alone,and the nurses treated me as if i really got infected with the H1N1.

changes since i left home for approx 8 months:
luqman has grown taller,and i'm missing the short him.haha
everything in the house has changed,it felt like eric leong came to the house and made some decorations..haha
yours truly has gained weight but lesser than last year due to the stress of studying.well that's the alasan that i gave to whoever ask me 'kenape dah berisi?' haha.
yours truly has gotten tanned,due to the super duper hot weather in egypt.

did i tell you that my eldest sister is getting married?*super excited!*

merdeka :)

2009-06-18T19:50:00.006+03:00

saya sudah merdeka..

after more than 2 months of exams, i am finally free!

and here are a couple of videos to show how relieved we were.

ok i'm akward in videos.that's why nadia is the one introducing me.huhu

and this is nadia, and that is nile river.

say hello to endless movies to catch and novels to read :)

but i got myself super bored because i was the only one who had finished the final exam in the house.
so i went to fifek's last night and i find myself in love with this little thing..

meet tinkerbell a.k.a gedek a.k.a mokku.

fifek and i did some music videos marathon the whole night since she said i was sooo outdated.hey,blame the location of my house which is farrr away from the community, and the internet which made you pay like sky high genih but the quality of it was like... double thumbs down!

1 week the internet is ok..
the next week,totally no internet..
end of the month..laju gila la pula internet ni..

which made us think twice when we say.. 'taknak amek la internet bulan depan'.

but i didn't subscribe the internet for this month due to:
1. no money la,have to save some for the souvenirs.
2. the JPA money is just not enough.
3. mommy wants her money back for this year's tuition fees.
4. have to save due to no 4.
5. yeah refering to no 1, i am going back to Malaysia this year :)
6. let's just say i am totally saving the money till i didn't touch nasi for 2 weeks already because we didn't cook already due to the business of the housemates,and buying nasi from either GMN or NUSANTARA is just too pricey. i prefer to have bread.(man,it sounds too pathetic)

thus,i would like to thank the dear housemates for letting me using their internet. :)

sankiu sankiu sankiu.

Well orang tua tua said setiap kegembiraan pasti ada kesedihan.

if you happened to read the newspaper, or even watch the news,you would probably hear about a cairo medicine student who had passed away over an horrible car accident.
i did not know him but the news about him passing away really saddened the whole egypt.
as far as i read in others blogs he was a great man and a man who is deserved a place in jannah.
may Allah blesses his soul.

Al-Fatihah to Muhammad Ammar Zulkifli.

the episode that brings back memories.

2009-06-02T21:31:00.008+03:00

ayah:' i'm going to spend RM10,000 to get a kidney transplant in China.'

me:' buat apa?baik bagi hannah je 10 ribu ringgit tu.

that was me back when i was in form 3.i didn't get it why dad insisted on getting a kidney transplant in China.kenapa mesti China, my idea of China at that time was a non hygienic, and totally unsafe for anything related to medicine, or surgery whatsoever. so i didn't allow him to go.in fact,i refused to go with him when he asked me to accompany him there.

my father was indeed sad after i told him that it's better to give me that 10 thousand ringgit than getting a transplant in China.and i didn't care less of my father's feeling. the rebel me care nothing but myself. everything has to be done MY way, I decide everything and everyone has to listen to me.

yesterday, i watched an episode of grey's anatomy. the episode where they had a major project of 6 kidney transplant surgeries in 1 time.
the episode was about a father willing to give 10 thousand dollars to his son for being a his donor. and for the money,the son said ok,he will do it,and he kept asking his father about 'when do i get to get the money?' 'is there really 10 thousand dollars,dad? because i wont do this if it's not about the money.'
while watching it,i cried, because it kind of reflect the 5 years back of me. where i did not allow my father to spend 10 thousand ringgits for a transplant in China. what a spoil, selfish , rude, non supportive daughter was i?

In the grey's anatomy episode, after the father suddenly received a seizure, and was informed he has not much time left, the son realized that he was rude toward his father, and he went to his father,crying apologizing.but i didn't get the chance to do that, i was too slow to realize what i did was actually wrong.

i should have been supportive, i should tell my father to go on with the surgery, i should give my kidney to my father. but no, i was too ego to do that.
the thought of..
'alah, takda apa2 punya tu..'
'there's still time'
'ayah will be fine,there's nothing to worry'
keeps running around my head.

i keep on thinking of the what ifs.
what if i didn't stop my father, would he be here with us now?
what if dad really did the transplant,would he be staying with us a little longer?

i did nothing but disappoint him.and regret is the only thing i love doing nowadays.

i wish that i had more time with my father, more time to say :'daddy,i am so sorry for making you sad,i am so sorry that there are few times, i screamed at you, i am so sorry for hurting you, i am so sorry for being such a rude daughter, i am so sorry,dad..soo sorry.'

but the chances of me saying so to my father has been taken away. yes, i regret that i didn't cherish him while he was alive but all i can do now is just praying that he'll be resting among those who ensured a place in heaven, and may God forgive his wrongdoings.

i pray to God that HE forgive all my sins toward my father as i didn't get the chance to hold his hands and say, 'ayah,hannah mintak ampun maaf zahir dan batin.'

it's been 2 and a half years daddy, i miss you.
to Arwah ayahanda Mohd Salleh Sahimi bin Mohamed, Al-FATIHAH.

In Egypt, 2nd Year :)

2009-05-09T18:12:00.003+03:00

last year, they made a hindustan video,
this year, they made this..
looking forward for next year's video. :)

kisah mula dulu kala..
saat kita baru jumpa..
namun kini tahun 2..
kita dah bersama..

tawa jiwa ubat duka..
ingt kenangan kita bina..
lagu ini khasku gubah
untukmu oh semua..

kisah mula dulu kala..
saat kita baru jumpa..
namun kini 2 tahun ..
kita semua dah bersama
rasa itu tak terkira
fikiran ku mahu gila
pabila bulan purnama

lagu ini khas ku gubah
bukan malu kan siapa
tp ia dlm jiwa bila kenang kisah lama
bagai cara aku gubah cipta lagu
utk mu oh semua...

maafkn khilaf ini
Jika hak tak dipenuhi
Tika kita ditahun 2

kini ku mulai gusar
dptkah bersama lagi...
jumpa lagi ditahun tiga

fi awallin ana arif masri kullu kuaywis
ba`din hina ana syuf masri kullu fi musykilah
ana taalin fi sobah, huwa biulli bukhroh
au ba`din nussu sa`ah

fi awalin ana musyhibbu masri awi awi
ba`din ana sakin hina ana ariffu masri
ana kalim arabi,ana kul~toqmiah
ana uhubbi masri..

2 tahun dimesir..
sannah tanni fi masri..
in egypt second year

comment: saya rasa lagu yang mereka gubah ini comel.
Biiznillah,kita akan berjaya bersama-sama :)
sekian. :)

;)

2009-04-17T16:36:00.000+02:00

you know the finals is just around the corner when..

the watermelons start to show up.

the weather getting hotter.

the people getting more selfish.

the stress faces appear almost every day.

the heater and winter coats already packed and left in the closet.

more and more pages of a certain book deleted.

the blog getting deserted.

the entry of a blog is in point form.

the airline companies compete to get more malaysian customers.

main question of a certain discussion is ..' balik tak tahun ni?balik naik apa?'

the people getting more homesick.

the ym list has lesser online friends.

the anatomy museum is getting more crowded with people.

the dentistry students carve gigi every day.

the extra classes are finished.

most of the classes are finished.

the medicine students are having study leave.(while the dentistry students still have classes every day.)

more and more people getting worried about wether or not they'll pass the year with flying colours.

the lights are switched on 24/7.

the eyebags are getting more prominent.

the moms are getting worried.

the room is getting more untidy.

and the people starts to talk in their sleeps,about anything related to their studies.

my practical final exams start this sunday,
my written final exams start this coming may,
and everything will end in the mid june.

thus the soon to be deserted blog.

luck is more than what i needed now.huhu.
good luck,people!

penghakiman

2009-03-27T11:44:00.000+02:00

a friend of mine bumped into this one guy who once upon a time ago was one of the guys i liked because of his cool attitude.
one day this year,this guy suddenly got the hidayah and changed and became one of the religious men.
he wears kopiah everyday,he prays everyday.
but he didn't talk to girls anymore, and what annoys me more is that he dislikes 'not-the-type' girls.by not the type,i meant the ones wear baju kurung or jubah anywhere they go.i dare to say that he hates those type of girls(the not-the-type girls,and i'm one of them lah)
he rolled his eyes whenever he sees me,which is very contra from himself last year,the very friendly guy who waved and said hello to everybody and not judging them by the way the dressed whatsoever.
and i thought that i was the only one he rolled eyes on.

untill one day my friend that bumped into him came to my house and told us about the story of her bumping into a senior (read: my friend is one of the juniors and she doesn't wear tudung) and he asked her why she dressed up that way (not wearing tudung and wearing trousers instead of baju kurung/jubah whatever)
and she told us that he said this sentence angrily:

'lain kali kalau saya jumpa awak macam ni lagi, awak akan malu!'

pffffttttt!!

Last year,we had sc(read: smart circle,some kind of usrah.usrah,is like where you gather with your friends and discuss about the life in islam) under a medic senior.the senior told us that she wanted to be the head of our sc is because of 2 reasons:
1. because nobody wants to hold us because we were one of the blok c students where blok c students were rumored as the 'budak-budak social'(because last year,blok c was for both boys and girls but most of them have gf/bf under the same blok)
2. because she believes that we are actually not that bad.
thanks to her, we actually felt like we were belonged.
she also told us that the one who actually refused to hold us and volunteered to hold students from blok b instead have problems with them(blok b students) where they didn't even open the door for her when she came to their house.

'akak rasa bersyukur sangat akak pegang korang,at least korang buka pintu untuk akak, jemput akak makan, solat sama-sama'

touched,no?

this year,our sc is under a dirasat(orang yang belajar agama) senior,because medic seniors only hold the 1st year juniors.and we had an sc session last friday,kak da invited us to come to her house for some makan-makan.as i was choosing the clothes i should wear,my roomate suddenly said that she wants the kakak to accept us as what we are,so,she said she won't wear the baju that what the kakak wants to see,but the baju that she's comfortable to wear.
thus,she didn't wear baju kurung as i did.(because i was afraid of having problems with people staring at me as if i'm an alien or something,but they didn't alienate my roomate,so it's a good thing,right?)

my main point of telling these is that,even a very religous people still have this 'judging the book by it's cover' thing going on.
yea,i didn't attend the religous classes which were held every morning,does that mean that i'm a bad person?
my class starts in the morning everyday for God's sake.are you asking me to skip class just to attend the religious class?

like what mommy said,it's good to learn more religious stuff but remember the main reason you came.
that is why i'm still joining the sc.i still can learn through it.

a friend told me that she once went to the kelas agama, and being a friendly senior, she went on shaking hands and got into the junior's halaqah.she told them that she rarely attend the class and one of the juniors suddenly said,

'oh patutla, memang ada rupa jarang datang kelas ni'

ok fine, you attend the class every morning,being soooo loyal to the ustaz, but may i ask you did the class told you to judge people?
the ustaz himself didnt say anything about it,why should you?

kalau warak macamana pon, rupa alim macamana pon, berpakaian alim macamana pon, adakah itu membolehkan anda untuk mengata orang?membolehkan anda untuk marah orang?membolehkan anda untuk memandang serong terhadap orang?

berlagaklah!silakan berlagak!
pasal itu pon nak berlagak,baik tak payah.
kamu superior sangat ke nak berlagak?
hebat lah tu?

apelah yang saya tahu,saya tak pergi kelas agama setiap hari, nampak saya pon kamu terus menjeling.
jahat sangat ke kami ni?

tak perlu kot nak menjeling,aku tak main menjeling-jeling macam siti nurhaliza.

tak perlu kot nak tegur cara marah-marah, menyampah gile ok?

fine lah,aku memang gelak kuat..
since small lagi aku memang gelak kuat.
what's wrong with me having fun?
i'm living life,
i'm enjoying it.
i'm trying to make my youth life as memorable as possible.
it's not that i didn't pray or anything.
it's not like i kill anybody.
lain lah kalau aku buat kesalahan yang tak boleh diterima akal.

so let me be myself,
and please don't judge people.

a picture

2009-03-22T17:53:00.000+02:00

this is the initial instruction:-
1. Go to your photo folder in your computer.
2. Go to 6th folder of photos.
3. Go to 6th picture in that folder.
4. Put the picture on your blog and description of it.
5. Invite 6 friends to join the challenge.
6. Link them in your blog and let them know that they have been challenged.

l to r : shariati,husna,syafiqah,and syazwan

actually this is the 7th picture.the 6th is not actually a picture.this was taken at my house.a night before i fly back here.4th october 2008. the friends(the friends of 13 years) came to the house for 2 reasons.1, for seeing me before my flight and 2, it was raya!.

we had so much fun time together in our schooling years.oh i miss the schooling years.(no kak alak, university life is not included in schooling years).i miss the lepak-lepak at the big YU HUA sign during recess (the sign is gone now,diganti dengan pokok hijau.haha padan muka juniors! :p). i miss ponteng sekolah during assembly and go breakfast roti canai lepas tu terkantoi dengan kadet polis and suddenly pengetua panggil dan cuak nak mampus sebab mak ingat saya budak skema yang baik suddenly pengetua ugut nak bagitau mak.(but pengetua tak bgtau pon,sebab saya berjaya ~~mengorat~~ memujuk pengetua tersebut).rindu buat bising dalam kelas,rindu gelak besar-besar tanpa orang kisah sampai miss joyce menjenguk kelas,
'hannah,i can hear you laughing from the basketball court!'.

rindu konon-konon tengok syazwan main basketball bila tournament tapi sebenarnya tengok coach sekolah jalan 3(kot?) menjerit-jerit,
'pegang bola!sayang bola!'

lalu mengikut menjerit 'pegang bola,sayang bola' saja je nak ambil attention coach kacak tersebut(tapi tak berhasil,couch tu terlalu concentrate pada game.too bad).~~rindu ramai-ramai tengok koleksi porn dalam handphone ean dalam kelas.haha~~.rindu membuli shariati untuk menjadi driver kami ke mana-mana.rindu bergaduh besar dengan orang kerana satu kelas akan menyebelahi saya sebab saya sangat disayangi.(sila muntah darah sekarang!)
rindu berbahasa cina juge :(
oh so much memories we had together.we've been together since when?standard 1 lah damnit!
now that i'm looking at this picture,i miss them badly. :(

i tag: nobody.suka hati lah kalau rajin nak buat.hoho

PERUBATAN sport's day.

2009-03-14T10:58:00.005+02:00

a delayed post.

bertarikh 6 MAC 2009,bertempat di stadium MANSOURA UNIVERSITY.(istad gamaah)

Mansoura menjadi tempat berkumpul rakyat Malaysia dari seluruh pelusuk Mesir.(bangga!!)The first time such event held outside cairo.

i joined the basketball team Mansoura B, but i was just one of the extras. andd...we didn't win for the basketball game.3rd place is good enough whatt..huhu

i also participated the win,lose or draw game for sukaneka,wakil Mansoura.alah yang game yang macam teka-teka perkataan tanpa berkata-kata tu,you can either draw or act for your teamates to answer.yeah that one.kami menang woo!1st place!woot!woot!(pats self on the back)haha.

tapi hamper yang dimenangi tidak disentuh lagi.

Overall,
Mansoura team for both ikhwah and akhawat, won the juara keseluruhan!(bangga lagi sekali..)
This year's sport's day was much more fun than last year's family day.lagi seronok berjuta kali.
but i have to agree on the bias emcee and the lembap-gile food.
and the nasyid was great.tak sia-sia aku mendengar korang practice kat bawah rumah aku everyday.

semangat kesukanan :)

photos are from:
xety and kak naneng :)

please don't stop the music.

2009-03-02T11:24:00.006+02:00

Music reflects you. Music shows your personality. At least, that’s what they say.

The genre of a song shows the attitude of the listener. From a song that you listen, you tend to talk or act like it.

Some people love rock, while others prefer indie.

Some love pop, while others prefer Britpop.

Some love the 80’s, while others prefer the 50’s.

Some love alternative rock, while others prefer rap.

Some love punk, while others prefer nasyid.

One of my housemates told me,

‘dulu aku dengar lagu metal, perangai aku kurang ajar gila.’

If listening to metal songs make you kurang ajar,then what would a rap song do to you? Becoming a criminal or high in potential of committing suicide ? I don’t listen to any of those.

An indie music lover tend to becoming an independent person. They love to express their feeling towards the world, the society, the politics and so. Indie genre is a unique genre. They may be rock, they maybe pop or so. What I love about indie genre is that the songs are not the everybody-know-and-oh-so-popular songs. Indie songs rarely air in national radio stations. XFM(used to be xfresh.fm) is the only one radio station in Malaysia that airs the indie genre music and supports 100% Malaysian music(at least that is what they used to be once upon a time ago when I was one of the fanatics of xfresh.fm. what happened to them now eh? I just know that they changed name and the deejays. that’s it. The possibility of me listening to XFM here with a sucky internet speed is like..0%).

Ballads are okay. Not my favourite but I still can live with it. Ballad lovers have this jiwang side of them. Ballads are more to love songs. Which are not my type of lagu teman study. Mengantuk weih dengar lagu jiwang.hoho(no offence taken ok?hee). It’s not that I hate this genre. I listen to them while browsing the internet whaatttt…or..when I feel jiwang(which rarely happen! thank you very much)

I don’t actually know the differences between pop rock and rock. And between pop rock and pop. From what I discovered, those who love ballads, love pop juga kot? (suka hati aku je buat teori sendiri. Correct me if I’m wrong.hehe). one time, I like this song so much, I found out it’s a pop rock song. Next time, I like another song which is more likely the song I used to like before, but then it appears to be a rock song. Confuse weih confuse!!

I listen to almost every genre. And I will favour one genre to another according to the mood, according to the situation, according to week, etc.

1 week, I will listen to only Chinese songs and will love lee hom head to toe the whole week. Will go youtube stalking him. Will adore him so much that even my roommate, I think, can puke blood of hearing too much of me adoring lee hom’s story. From lee hom, I will go to gary chao, guang liang, jay chao, FIR, SHE etc etc. After getting bored with the asyik ulang-ulang of Chinese songs, I will change to the sweet songs, to some indies, to some rocks, to some 90’s.

There’s OST week for me, malay songs week, top chart week etc, etc. this is what happened when there’s no interesting radio stations I can listen to, or the web radio stations are just useless for me with this sucky internet.

I listen to songs according to my mood. Whenever I can’t study and the exam is like tomorrow. I prefer to listen to the keluar anak tekak or those semangat songs. My favourites would me over you by chris daughtry, gemuruh by faizal tahir, situasi by bunkface, stay the same by joey mcintyre , long before rock and roll by Mando Diao.

I can’t study without music. My brain will go down to the memory lane or some wonderland if there’s no music accompanying me. But the songs should be in a very low volume. If you can hear every single word of a song through my headphone, do not disturb me, because I won’t be in the mood of talking for the ‘weih kenapa apa yang aku belajar ni tak masuk-masuk otakkkkk???’ syndrome.

My roommate and I had this lagu pagi-pagi (used to,last year). They were avenged sevenfold’s seize the day and hanson’s I will come to you. There’s no lagu pagi-pagi this year as my classes start real early, and there’s no time to listen to some songs because I tend to wake up late these days. Half more hour and the class will start, makan pun sikit je. Yes, saya tak mandi kalau lambat ke kelas. Hee. There, I said it. Hohoho.

I have trouble sleeping nowadays. My eyes are still blinking even though it’s already 3 am, and even though the day I had was a very tiring one. I think I’m becoming an insomniac. I have to force myself to get some noon sleep (no,not nap)some more. That too, a very troublesome one. I have to put on some soothing songs, with a very slow volume, and poof, I will sleep soundly. I won’t be able to have my noon sleep without them. Menyusahkan, I know. I also hope this insomnia thingy can go away faster. shoh shooohhh!!!

When I walk alone, I listen to my mp3. When I travel, I have to bring along my mp3. When I get bored of the boring-hard-to-understand lectures, I will plug my ears with songs. Whenever I get stressed, I scream out the effing loud songs that I was listening. When I drive, it’s a must to have music along. When the mood is not with me too, I listen to music. Basically, I have to have music along my entire life. Hoho.

No music = not Hannah.

But kept listening to the same songs over and over again, with no fresh new songs, will also make you puke blood. With the low speed internet that is so slow that you can’t even open facebook or so, mimpi je la to download the new songs. Dengar through imeem pun you have to be very patient to keep refreshing the page because the internet kept disconnected every 5 minutes. (tak cukup pathetic ke?haiz)

So if the music reflects you. What does it reflect me? I listen to every kind, so do I have everything? I can be a kurang ajar and very soft hearted at once? Definitely..maybe.

Some of my housemates couldn’t accept the songs I listen. They say that the indie songs that came out from the laptop are weird songs.

‘lagu-lagu kau pelik-pelik lah Hannah.’

Or even.

‘aku tak suka lagu-lagu kau.tukarlah’

Oh terasa siottt.. I love bunkface, I listen to yuna, fond of nitrus etc.they are, for me the talented ones. My songs are not suitable for you, then stop hanging around in my room. Music is art. Some people may say that an art is ugly, some may say it’s nice.No, I didn’t listen to the songs you listen that much, but I never underestimate your taste of music, right? I sometimes, sing it along with you too. Hmph.

I listen to muse, I like switchfoot and one republic, and I loooovveee the fray. Still not suitable for you? Sue me then.

Some say that music is like food. Music feeds your emotional needs. Some say that music is like your soul mate.

However you describe the music, whatever genre of songs you listen, enjoy the music your own way, and please respect other’s favourites too. :)

songs while typing this post:
bunkface - revolusi
gary cao - 3 7 21.
bsb - the call
hoobastank - the reason
kelly clarkson - my life would suck without you.
jonas brothers - inseparable.
hujan - bila aku sudah tiada.
jet - look what you've done.
butterfingers - cuai.
the pierces - secrets.

oh yea,when i go online too,i listen to music.

and!...
i listen to music too when i carve gigi.and this is because dr mennah asked us to.

'just carve the tooth when you feel like it,maybe with your music on.'

you know i love you,dr mennah ;)

switching self to study mode.see ya! :)

selamat hari kasih sayang

2009-02-16T16:36:00.002+02:00

semester baru dah start.selamat hari kasih sayang.
exam minggu depan.selamat hari kasih sayang.

ini jadual baru kelas saya.tak faham?tak mengapa.yang penting saya ada 4 hari kelas start pukul 8 pagi(wahhh happynye saya *nada sesarkastik mungkin*)
and to make my life more happier, 3 hari kelas habis pukul 4 petang(melonjak-lonjak 'kegembiraan')

dan,ini belum campur kelas-kelas tambahan lagi yang mana saya terpaksa drop satu subject untuk kelas tambahan saya kerana saya dah tak larat nak balik malam-malam buta tiap-tiap malam,dan dengan harapan saya akan dapat belajar subject biochemistry itu tanpa sebarang masalah.

tapi,berita yang betul-betul gembira(buat saya sahaja,dan mungkin rakan-rakan gigi yang lain),kami mempunyai 2 hari cuti dalam seminggu.compared to 1 day per week last semester,kami rasa sangat-sangat bersyukur. :)

semangat semester baru!!!! mari baca..errr...baca magazine di kuliah?contoh terbaik daripada orang arab!haha

*jangan orang ni baca dan sue saya sudah la..hoho*(eh,orang arab reti ke baca bahasa melayu?Ahmed is excluded)

saya ada exam minggu depan dan a week after that.God loves me,i know.
mari berkasih sayang dengan buku tebal-tebal.
(serious terfikir mahu merebus buku dan minum.hoho)

selamat hari kasih sayang!have a blast valentine's day.
saya nak bear besar dan coklat sekotak.siapa rela kasi,dapat pahala.haha :p

p/s: sepatutnya entry ini bertarikh 14.2 tapi internet rumah ni bodoh.sekian.

yada yada~

start your day with bismillah :)

aku rela, kerana cinta

the 2011 review

on hiatus

a boring update.

(not so) wordless wednesday

break fast: egyptian delicacies

Wordless Wednesday

Ramadan 2011

“O ye who believe! Fasting is prescribed to you as it was prescribed to those before you, that ye may (learn) self-restraint.” (2:183)

the new addition in the family

accept differences

the song that makes you feel home :)

the i have to study but i end up writing a new entry post

then and now, i still love you

the new egypt

after more than 4 years

people that can make you ROFL

just watch. thought of sharing :)

scary january in Egypt

ukhwah fillah, insyaAllah

back to december

hello 2011 :)

1 litre of tears

adha with love :)

for the first time

i miss yu hua

hectic!

Al-Fatihah

raya oh yeah.

to sir, with love

an update.

dear eliot,

the chosen one

kalau..

Aizdean

kenapa aku tengok world cup?

special award hikhik *mata gedik2*

you've got a friend in me :')

hello back people!

sorry :(

hey hey there's a doctor in the family! (part 2)

shift your paradigm

aku stress.

Gotto envy them!

terasa dekat dgn tuhan

hey kids!

hey hey there's a doctor in the family!

busy bee

life is like an hourglass glued to the table

err hello?

DENTAL WORKSHOP: A DAY IN THE FUTURE

ok the holiday post!

back to reality :(

hello winter break!

random

adoi.

happy birthday!

the wedding i adore.

nak ikut :((

my sister's keeper.

my 1st baby :D

mid year fever.

to a special person,

bertunang?

sesi membersihkan sawang-sawang blog.

helllooo people!

the world is angry.

THANK YOU GOD!!!

<3<3

raya 09

salam perantau.

hello malaysia 09 part 2.

excited?

i'm leaving!

ahlan ya ramadannn!

funny thing

stressed is desserts spelled backward.

facebook addict,no more.

special award hikhik mata gedik2