Tuesday, October 05, 2010

i miss yu hua

stressed out.i couldn't find any edentulous patient yet,need patient for operative already, and i couldn't find any suitable house for 6.i'm tired.and dentistry needs money but i don't have any because bayan halah is so hard to get and i couldn't give the translate of bayan halah to jpa and jpa will not bank in the money if they didn't get the bayan halah.so yes,i am stressed and when i'm stress, not because of exam, i end up wasting my time in front of the laptop doing I DON'T KNOW WHAT.because my punching bag doesn't have internet connection so i don't know to who else i should whine.
and then, start the missing session.and i truly miss the carefree high school moments though. who doesn't, right? and this song below here,made me missing school friends very very much. i have heard once the highschool friends are the ones you will stick to like forever, because they are the ones who really accept you for YOU.and indeed,it's true. wherever i go, no matter how busy i get, i will always go back to them. to whine and to reminiscing the awesome schooling years. i know they're not into blogs and they won't be reading this. but i do love them. if you mess with any of them, then you're messing with me!

it's not the lyrics that made me miss them, it's because it's lee hom.my highschool idol, and it's in mandarin.and there was radio yu hua in our school,they played chinese songs everyday during recess.according to my brother,radio yu hua is not working anymore nowadays. i started to listen to chinese songs through there and yes,listening to chinese songs improve your chinese too!so, whenever i listen to chinese song,it will bring me back to the memory lane. where i had my first crush,a malay and the 2nd one,a chinese. and the 3rd,another chinese!and the moments where we bullied the form six students to drive us everywhere.
ahh the memories. it did ease the stress abit though. :)
and i actually cry listening to this song because i'm listening to it as i type this.
aiyoo why la so emotional?!

the school (after renovation here and there of course, it was in renovation during our time,so yeah,the noise.)


Friday, October 01, 2010


my class schedule.enough said.


al-fatihah to arwah mak ngah who has passed away last saturday.
i only know this after a week, after i asked my brother what is mak ngah's current condition since the last time i texted mak, mak said she's on the way visiting mak ngah who was at that time seriously ill.that was 3 days before she passed.
mak ngah suffered kidney failure disease for years, even before dad was diagnosed the same disease.
when dad passed away, she kept on asking, 'kenapa leh(dad) yang pergi dulu?' because she said she's been ill longer before dad was. she asked the same thing when my arwah achik(dad's brother) passed away due to heart attack 2 years back.i remembered her telling me,'mak ngah tak lama dah ni'..but we told her that ajal maut di tangan tuhan.you can live up to 100 years if God willing.

mak ngah was the one who gave me the idea of pursuing dentistry. i still remember at that time, we were at kak ina's open house and i was in form 3.mak ngah asked me about my ambition.i told her maybe i wanted to become a doctor or even a lecturer but haven't really think about it yet.then, mak ngah said,hey why don't you become a dentist?you have the chance of working office hour, and you still have the doctor title! i said, i don't know mak ngah,i'll think about it later. i went home, did a little research of how cool the dentist job will be, and the next morning, i told my mom that i wanna be a dentist and alhamdulillah i am now in my 4th year of studying dentistry. thank you mak ngah, for guiding me in choosing this path.

mak told me that mak ngah was ill during my holiday in malaysia. i told her that i wanted to visit mak ngah but mak said the family just visited mak nyah 2-3 days before i got back, she was still in stable condition.so,in the end, i didn't get the chance to visit her and i hoped to see her next year.but,God has a better plan for her, and she passed away last saturday.
mak ngah never fail to remind me of how much i look like my dad and always remind me not to forget dad even though he has passed.i am going to miss her stare because she loves to stare at me due to the dad look i inherited.and also her common 'ni la budak mesir ni!'

Al-fatihah to arwah mak ngah, may she be rest among those who deserved a place in jannah.ameen.