a delayed 2012 review

salam and hello good people! how's everything. i guess i have been away for too long that i do not know how to actually write a post here haha.

ps: this entry will be rojak-ed with malay due to writer's block and bahasa inggeris saya sudah makin teruk. maaf! (the result of dah jarang baca english novel and jarang tgk cerita omputih. haih apa mau jadi ini macam?)

i know that i owed everyone a lot of stories, sorry for that, but let's just say that i've been away to search for myself (ecewahhh!). ever since i've been away, i keep asking myself, how can i help the ummah if i myself, is still in need of help? i wonder will people judge me as hypocrite when i don't actually practice what i preach? for example, i learn that wearing socks is a must since the legs are included in the aurah area for women, and i told my friends about it, but honestly saying, ever since i come back to Malaysia, i rarely wear handsocks, let alone the socks itself. i wear them only when i teringat. hypocrite, i know. this, i should change.

iman itu naik turun mcm ombak, banyakkan mengingati tuhan, maka naiklah iman seseorang itu, banyakkan lagha, maka turunlah iman seseorang itu. i do not agree when i read somewhere that her faith is not shaken eventhough she was mingling with her friends in the orang-putih way, who are we to say if our iman is at the safe stage? be humble, be rendah diri dengan Tuhan.(self reminder)

all in all, my new year resolution is to practice what i preach and to be a better muslimah than last year insyaAllah.

ok panjang mukadimah, let's go back to our topic. since that i have owed you alot of stories since i left, i've decided to make a review instead!

 2011-2012: final year dental student. the busiest year, the most stressful year in my 5 years of studying (sebab tu kurus! ahaks!)

july 2012: pre-graduation party!

 

 july 2012: housemates made a surprise pre-graduation party, with the topi and the cupcakes! aww moment :)

 

july 2012: another surprise from our juniors :)

august 2012: umrah ramadan. bliss. alhamdulillah :)

august 2012: family came to visit! :D

august 2012: graduation day, officially a dentist, alhamdulillah :)

 

 kak ngah got married on may, but i was having my final year exam that day, so i just attended the groom's side of walimah in september. alhamdulillah, another member in the family. :)

in september to october, i was busy with the registration and the pegawai pergigian interview. i am currently waiting for posting.

all in all, 2012 was a year to be grateful for. and of course it was the busiest yet stressful year as a final student. i am now have left egypt for good, the place where i gained a lots of ilm, and the place that taught me how to be independent and thankful at the same time. memorable place indeed.

Alhamdulillah Allah memanjangkan usia kita untuk merasai tahun 2013. how is it so far? i do hope that 2013 will make us a better muslim/muslimah insyaAllah. 

tahun baru, makin mendekati mati, iman kita? amalan kita? cukupkah? Allahu Allah..

the power of hidayah

subhanallah, how amazing it is to see someone who just know, and learn about islam, is a better muslim than us, who are born muslims.
we know that we cannot ramdomly touch men who are not our mahram, but what are we doing now?
really, don't you feel ashamed that Allah has given you a gift, to be born a muslim, but you're like wasting this gift for the dunya?i know i am. let's be a better muslim insyaAllah.

ps: having final exams at the moment. in need of everyone's prayers! may Allah ease :)



 totally love this channel. i've been following them since this video. :)

start your day with bismillah :)

in clinical year, we mostly go to the college to actually 'work'.
like work,but minus the salary.
you have to do everything your own, with the guidance of your lab/ clinic doctors.
it's actually fun! how you can go to college without getting bored of lectures, and lectures, and lectures. we do have lectures,still, and we do get bored of it, but the lectures are not as much as when we're in pre-clinical or non-clinical years.
more clinics= more fun!

until the requirements came...
oh the peer pressure! to complete a number of cases from each department is one thing, to actually FIND the patient is another thing, but when you found one, you'll be so thankful and you'll taste the sweetness of Allah's gift to you; when you realized that Allah asked you to be patient, and He'll reward you with the case best suits you :)

what i'm going to share is a very short story about my bridge patient.
i met her by coincidence in the clinic as she said she needs filling on the anterior teeth, and i checked her diagnostic sheet, she was indicated for bridge restoration on the upper canine to upper 2nd premolar, with missing upper 1st premolar.
made her filling on anterior teeth, and she agreed on making a bridge with me.
so the next day, while we were waiting for her xray from being processed, she asked me about how do i understand the Quran since my arabic knowledge was very little, i told her that there's translation, but she said, the translation doesn't really translate the Quran,in order to understand the Quran, you must learn arabic.

'insyaAllah' i answered. she made a deal with me that she'll teach me arabic like little kids and there's gonna be an exam for me. and i was like, how cute!
she gave me a little book of alif ba ta, and some pictures of animals and their arabic names.cute, right? haha.
so the next week, i had 2 patients. 1 for the bridge, and another 1 is for restoration. i was supposed to finish the bridge at 10.30 and immediately after that i have to start my restoration.
it was 10.30 and the doctors asked us to put temporary crown for the patient. i made the temporary crown myself, in order to put it on the patient's mouth, i need to remove any excess so that the temporary crown would be adapted nicely on the tooth i have reducted.little did i know it was very hard, and it was my first time. my restoration patient has been waiting outside. yup, the pressure to complete the temporary crown as fast as i can so that my restoration patient wouldn't have to wait too long.

it took me a long time to remove the excess, and my frustration is shown on my face, i was going to give up, but then she said, Dr, say bismillahirahmanirahim. in everything you do, you should start with bismillahirahmanirahim.
and i was like, yeahhh, i didn't start my day with bismillah, how should i go through my day with ease?

thank you madam aida, for reminding me. and since then, in every patient i treat, i will start with bismillah. and if there's something wrong in between the treatment, i 'll be thankful, as it is a test from Allah, for teaching me how to be patient, and to tell me that i have more to learn. and subhanAllah, Allah only test those He loves. so be thankful if you're in a difficult situation, you know Allah loves you :)

Wallahua'lam.

alright, i have to go back to books! we're having mid-term exam now. please make du'a for us, thank you!

ps: sorry if you don't understand any of my dental term! i'll explain soon, insyaAllah.

aku rela, kerana cinta

"Biarku tanggung rasa derita
Asalkan agama, selamat akhirnya
Yang membantah, hanya berfalsafah
Kerana bimbang suapan harian"

Telah ku rela nama dan diri menjadi sasaran
Kerana cinta, aku berkorban
Telah ku rela segala tohmahan bermaharajalela
Kerana cinta, aku terpaksa

Kerana cinta jua aku berbicara
Dengan nada insan terluka
Meluah rasa, meluah fakta, mencedera jiwa
Semuanya kerana cinta…

Biarku tanggung rasa derita..
Asalkan agama, selamat akhirnya..
Yang membantah, hanya berfalsafah..
Kerana bimbang suapan harian

Dengan menjual nama Tuhan..
Lalu kebenaran disingkirkan,
Demi hidangan belian pendustaan
Namun aku yang sengsara zahirnya

Redha telah pun penuhi jiwa
Dalam keletihan ini.. aku bahagia

Kerana..
Pada kebenaran itulah terasa nikmat syurga.

ps: great song isn't it? after you understand the lyrics, you would understand what i meant.

aku rela, sengsara kerana cinta pada agama, kerana cinta pada Tuhan, bukan kerana cinta pada dunia yg penuh dusta, kerana sesungguhnya pada kebenaran itulah terasa nikmat syurga.insyaAllah, ameen. :)

the 2011 review

hello good people!

happy new year for those who are already in 2012! 2 more hours for us in egypt to reach there, we're pretty much still enjoying 2011 hihi.

how is everyone? i know 2011 marked the extreme decrease of blog posts, sorry for that but, life is getting busier (i am supposed to study now, but it's new year eve!), and as you get older, some things are best to be kept untold ( ie: telling publicly the days of your life in a blog).

2011, is one of the most memorable year in my life, and these are the few reasons why:

1. my first experience of being a speaker in Tanta, giving talk about dentistry overall.


2. 25th january 2011, The revolution in Egypt. the extra 1 month holiday for us due to the chaos.yeay for that!

3. clinical year, treating patients is the most awesome feeling ever! (provided that you are not under stress)


4. the addition in the family, tasneem, the baby who made the entire family closer together :)



5. not to forget, the babysitting experience! priceless!

6. passed the finals, and now in the final year, alhamdulillah :)


7. as i told you, some things are better to be kept untold. haha :p


my 2012 new year resolution? well, i prefer not to make any but i do hope, and i hope you'll pray with me that i will:

1. become a better muslim, a better daughter, a better friend, a better student, a better dentist.
2. pass the finals with good grades, and graduate on time.
3. live, and go through the ups and downs of life, without losing hope.
4. control my anger, and living a patience life.

ameen ya rabbal 'a la meen.

may this year, be a better year than the previous years. ameen :)


30 minutes to the new year, so, happy new year everyone!
and a reminder, a step to the new year, a step closer to death, may we return in imaan.

loads of love,
hannahsahimi
31 december 2011, 2331 hours.

on hiatus

patience is needed for me to update anything here as the internet speed is wayy too sloww.
hence the reason the blog is on hiatus. will be back soon. probably in 2 to 4 weeks.


and, have a nice vacations dear students of the universities in Egypt! enjoy the remaining 2 to 3 days of holidays!

a boring update.

hello the readers of my boring blog! (if exist.)

new semester, new hope. it's the final year! 10 months only hannah!just 10 months, insyaAllah.

abit awkward though jotting things here since i left the blog for more than a month. it's quite true though the more you grow up, the more secrets you keep, the less you tell the whole world about it in the blog.

but i'm super bored due to unfinished jet lag i'm having, and it's super early to do anything or go anywhere right now. kedai paling awal bukak pon 10am, so you do the math.

i didn't write anything on this blog the whole time i was in Malaysia. was super busy eating stuffs and make myself fat.haha.

no, kidding. the whole time i was in Malaysia, i was busy babysitting Tasneem,my niece, keeping my mom company to everywhere she wanted to go, meet-ups, and oh! i went to school and met my school teachers! they still remember me as the 'budak bising and nakal' in the class though.memalukan -.-"

overall, i think my 2011 summer vaca in Malaysia is the best one i ever had, with specific reasons :)

of final year.
bismillah. the scary final year. just attended the 1st week of classes and here comes the pressure! more clinical requirements to do this year. yeah, we feel more like a dentist but the stress is overrated! even talking about it now makes me wanna scream.so let us talk about something else.

you know, when you're living alone, with super dirty house, you tend to get homesick everyday. i have never been this homesick before, i even cry myself to bed. -.-" but i got myself busy with cleaning up the entire house. and once the house is already clean, and i'm satisfied with it, i'm alot happier! but then i become bored, because i have nothing else to do.

anyhow, i hope this year will be a good year for everyone,insyaAllah, ameen :)

call me a spoiled brat but, 'mommy, i am super missing you!'

(not so) wordless wednesday

super homesick :(

break fast: egyptian delicacies

how amazing, i'm blogging a new entry, again!

we had our iftar last friday at our classmate's house. it was the first time they had foreigners in their house so they were so happy, especially Norhaan.

Norhaan felt sad that we couldn't join our batchmates for iftar jamaie because we'll be either on the aeroplane or we'll be in Malaysia at that time, so she discussed it with her mother and the family decided to invite us to come to their house for a simple iftar.

and simple iftar is not that simple at all! we had tonnes of food! and Norhaan told me that her mother wanted to cook more egyptian delicacies so that we could taste everything but then Norhaan stopped her by saying the Malaysians are small, they can't consume alot.

true, indeed.

Norhaan's house is so beautiful and her family is so friendly. it's sad how we couldn't really make a conversation with her parents due to our lack of arabic skills. but they were so happy that Norhaan's mama cooked us 2 plates of food each and let me tell you what she served:
1. 5 pieces of mahsyi : fried rice stuffed into vegetables eg: cabbages, cucumber. (my fav)
2. 2 cuts of bashamel: it's just like macaroni and cheese
3. 4 pieces kofta: minced meat, rolled like a sausage, roasted.
4. 1/4 of roasted chicken.
5. 7 pieces of dates and kismis inside a glass of water. (DELICIOUS!)

mahsyi and bashamel

kofta and firakh

all of these for each of us. it's a pity when i couldn't finish them all because i have a small stomach but i tried my best to finish them all until i was so bloated i couldn't move.

after maghrib prayer, we had some desserts. the desserts time is my favourite as Norhaan's mother served all of my favourite egyptian desserts! but again, i couldn't finish them up because i was too full.

desserts: balah syams and hunaifah

the dining etiquettes here is that you have to finish up what served for you and if you didn't finish them up, you are considered to be rude to the host and he/she will not be happy but sorry Norhaan and family! we wished we could have larger stomach to eat every delicious meal in front of us, seriously!


thanks for the hospitality Norhaan and family! you've made us love Egypt more! :)

Wordless Wednesday

rindu.

Ramadan 2011

“O ye who believe! Fasting is prescribed to you as it was prescribed to those before you, that ye may (learn) self-restraint.” (2:183)

Alhamdulillah, Ramadan has come to visit us again, this year. All thanks to Him who has prolonged our lives till this day to fast and greet the holy month.

as you know, i celebrate this holy month in the land of Egypt. eventhough it's only for 10 days (because i will be coming home this 10th august), i still consider it as a new experience because i have never celebrate the 1st day of Ramadan away from home since second year. This year, we have summer training, hence the reason why we're not with our family (yet!)

Ramadan in Egypt is differ than in Malaysia. The holy month is more welcome here than back home. They will wake you up for sahur either by gendang or by sounds or by azan, They will call for break fast 5 minutes earlier than maghrib, the people are much more friendlier, and you can see them with tiny Al-Quran and they'll recite them whenever they're free, be it while waiting for the bus, while waiting for the class to start etc, and the taxis are often fill with Al-Quran recitation. They'll lit the fanus (an Egyptian tanglung) in welcoming the holy month. if you see fanus is everywhere, it means it's ramadan! or that Ramadan is near.

Taraweeh here, we have so many choices on which Masjid to go to as in every street there will be at least 1 Masjid. Mostly they'll do an 8 rakaat prayer, and right after that, the whole town will become quite.And shops will only be opened after Taraweeh. cool huh?

i went to an event yesterday and a ustaz was giving a talk about ramadan, he said that for islamic studies students, they were given holidays from the 15th of Syaaban till 15th of Syawal only for ibadah, and for the students to go to the villages and teach the villagers regarding Islam mainly.

i was so excited that i bought loads of Ramadan groceries in intention of preparing for Ramadan that i forgot that Ramadan is not about food, it's about the month of patience, the month of repentance, the month of jihad, the month where you seek for Allah and He will multiply the reward for every good deeds that you've done in this holy month. for me, i call this month as a self reflecting month as it is the month where i recall back the whole year, what i have done, what i have wasted, and try my best to change and being istiqamah about it.

in every Ramadan, i will set some targets that and try to achieve them. this Ramadan's target? you will not know. but one thing for sure is that i want to be able to celebrate the next ramadan, insyaAllah.

Do not waste your ramadan by fasting blindly, who knows if this ramadan will be your last? Treat this Ramadan as it's your last so you will not waste it and regret about it later, insyaAllah.

Ramadan Kareem, everyone! may you'll be blessed this Ramadan and the upcoming year.

The Prophet (peace be upon him) said: "Fasting is a shield -- one who fasts does not use obscenities or act in an ignorant manner. If someone argues with you or insults you, say: 'I am fasting, I am fasting'." [Sahîh al-Bukhârî (1795)]

the new addition in the family

meet Tasneem, the new addition in the family.
Alhamdulillah, all thanks to Him, dated 11th July 2011, Tasneem was born. :)
Tasneem is my sister's daughter, so that makes me an official Aunt or as they say, mak lang, mak for mother or aunty, and lang for being the third children in the family, so mak lang = the third auntie. but mak insisted her to call me khala (auntie in arabic)

my feelings? excited of course! she's my first niece! hehe. i hope that i will pass this year successfully and i can go back home and meet Tasneem, si kecil!

some pictures the family sent to me or posted in the facebook. :)



what a peaceful sleep you're having there, Tasneem, mak lang haven't sleep that peaceful for quite a while now. welcome to the world, si kecil. wait for mak lang to come home and we'll meet insyaAllah :)

accept differences

i like tomyam, and not everyone like tomyam, maybe you prefer curry instead of tomyam. but tomyam and curry are both Malaysian foods. i never get emotional when i heard someone else doesn't like tomyam. and i just eat curry if my housemates cooked curry. without argue.

i like dentistry. i talk about dentistry since forever. i get angry when people say, ' dentistry, it's an easy course. or dentistry, not a critical course'. you like engineering. your ambition in becoming an engineer has grown into you since you could ever remember. you get angry when people say, 'engineering, too many people, hard to get job once you graduate.' but we are still friends aren't we? we appreciate others opinion.

so why when politics come into a discussion, we got angry with those who didn't share the same opinion as we do, and become enemies?

i respect and my salute goes to those who are aware of their country's politics , either you're with the government, or against them. it shows how intellectual you are, rather than those who are so ignorance, and would prefer hang out at the mamak or update with the celebrities gossips and think that the world revolves around them.

i live in Egypt, the country who recently fight for a revolution.i witnessed how the country changed. i befriend with the Egyptians, so maybe my political opinion for my country is from the influence of the country i live in.
you, on the other hand, may be live in the US, and when it comes to your country's politics, your political opinion may differ than mine, by the influence of the country you live in.

it's sad to see how best friends became just friends, when sisters ignoring each other, when couples fight, and when the person you have faith in getting together, crush your heart that instant due to different political opinion.

my advice is, don't get too emotional or too personal when it comes to things like this. the internet, i must say is a very informative yet dangerous place. think wise people, that's all i can say.

do you think we like it when our Egyptian friends ask us is Malaysia becoming like Egypt? we don't. many Egyptians respect Malaysia to be a very peaceful democratic Islamic country and their hopes of their country to be like ours. seeing chaos like this doesn't help. really.

my stand in the current political chaos? i shall not tell. everyone has their own way of thinking, respect everyone's opinion and let's just leave it that way. we are only human, afterall. :)

the song that makes you feel home :)

you know, when you're sooo away from home, anything regarding home tends to make your eyes teary.

well, i know sungai lui is an old song, but, today, i had a very rough day. the external Dr from Alexandria who asked me in the oral exam today lowered my self-confidence. the sentences of ' you came here to study, you're away from home, you should have no distractions, you should be perfect' with a VERY disappointed face, really really made me sad.what made me more sad is that that Dr was so nice she smiled all the way.

so i came home, crying, and suddenly my brother texted me, just in time to calm me down :) (eventhough what he said didn't really have anything to do with calming me down at all), it's just that, you know, the feeling of the person who accepts you for who you are, the person where you go to him/her and feel belonged. where you don't have to say what's bothering you but it's about the presence of that person will make you automatically okay :)

that person, normally for me, would be one of the family members. commonly, my mother. who nowadays, love to text me exam tips everytime i stressed out without telling her. probably the mother's instinct.

HENCE, the sungai lui song which made me feel like going home this instant! but i figure i just make it as a semangat song. :)

anyhow, what's done is done, tawakkaltu alallah. i have 4 more days for my next paper, so let's move on! BAKTANG LAH DIAGNOSIS AND RADIOLOGY!

homesick secara tiba-tiba. mommyyyyyyy!!!!! :'(

the i have to study but i end up writing a new entry post

hello blogging world!

i have finished half of my exams.(yeah in egypt, we have 2 months of exam period.2 MONTHS!)

the exams was, hard, indeed. the *madah muntada were ok but i cried 1 day for my oral pathology practical exam because i forgot a lot of slides' names and loose alot of marks. but anyhoo, i have to compensate it with the written and the oral exams, which will be in... this upcoming 5th june (which is a week from now, and what are you doing hannah? go study lahhh byk lagi nihhh)

anyhow, during the whole month of practical and extended subjects exams, i do still have to finish my clinical requirements(read: prosthesis, operative) before the final exam ends.so i did finish them (had to jiggle with the packed exam schedule)


we have to make only 1 denture for this year. simple steps but i took alot of time to make it due to some reasons like, i got sick for 1 day, and the riot thingy delayed my treatment to this patient, and the fact that this is my 1st time doing it, so i was a bit slow in understanding the steps and make it correctly with the doctors' guidance( u know how heart wrenching it is to hear the doctors comments about your stupidly hideous work and the word REMAKE will be like GO KILL YOURSELF). but thank you ammu ahmad for being my 1st experiment! :)

we had to take our Malaysian friends as our patients due to the communication barrier. so SPECIAL thanks to RIDHWAN and KHAIRUDDIN for being my diagnosis and operative patients.memang terbaik la kan, kes yang aku dapat time exam operative dah la dalam cavitynya, buccal pit pon dalam, spot caries pon dalam sampai hampirrr kena buka class II (tp nasib baik la tak perlu), withh a macroglossia tongue, and and the same time tongue tie, AND the patient could not open his mouth too long. but Alhamdulillah, i think i did quite OK. :)

diagnosis lagi la tiba2 doctor tanya soalan yang tak ada dalam buku. yang mcm ha?? aku rasa mcm tak pernah belajar ponnn. bantai punya bantai, salahhhh!! confident itu penting ye rakan2. -.-". oh doctor tersebut doctor external, no wonder soalan pelik!

dah2, exam tak habis lagi, jangan nak cakap banyak.

but2, anyone knows me knows how much i loooveeee the script, right? so here goes my favourite song:



can anyone buy me the scrip's science and faith album? pleaseee pleaseeee preettyyy pleassseeeeee

*madah muntada: extended subjects: oral surgery,dental public health, prosthesis, and orthodontics. the marks for these four subjects will be brought up to next year, insyaAllah.
* ammu means uncle.

8 more subjects! Permudahkanlah segala urusan kami ya Allah, ameen :)

then and now, i still love you

look at my hideous teeth back in 1995.( if you know which one is me)
this photo has been my favourite since forever! and my brother uploaded it on facebook, which leads to me showing everyone the picture of us all during our carefee kiddy years! haha

look at us now ( approx 3 years ago):


i know right, how fast the time flies :')

my finals will start on 3/5 and ends on 7/7. doakan yang terbaik bagi kami, terima kasih :)

robbuna yawafaa means good luck in arabic, so robbuna yawafaa to all who are taking any exams especially those living in Egypt. :)

the new egypt

' welcome back malaysian students, welcome back to the new egypt'

it's been 2 weeks i left home. 2 weeks of the tertinggal passport incident.(NOT A PROUD INCIDENT! but thank you kak ngah for saving the day speeding back home to get it on time). i'd be lying if i say that i didn't get homesick. i do get homesick, like alot. because to me, the '2-weeks-became-1 and half-months holiday' a.k.a 'cuti darurat' was the best holiday ever. i tend to hang around my mom, kak ngah, and luqman quite often. we're like inseparable!(ok, yeah i am exaggerating haha) so thanks to the long holiday, i have learned how to live life modestly. thanks mak! :)






the after revolution egypt, is kinda like the same as the old egypt, but now, they have the freedom of speech. they can talk about anything now, they are free to curse husni mubarak, they are free to talk about ikhwanul muslimin, which they were so afraid to talk about the entire time. and they are so proud of their country that they love to sing the victory song loudly,everywhere.

i was at a carpet store to buy a carpet for my new room, got the one i eyed on, the price is kinda OK. but living here, you tend to bargain everything eventhough they're cheap enough. so, i was bargaining it with the shop owner (kinda like begging -.-"), and what he said (jokingly) was..

'you were not here helping us during the revolution, you ran back to your country! and now you're bargaining the carpet price, i should charge you more'

i just smiled with abit of guilt. did i get the price i wanted for the carpet? hell yeah! (feeling proud of self managed to buy a super cute carpet with super less price :D :D )

the prices of stuffs are now increased. some even doubled the price before. which is a bad news for me because i wanted to save money. but hey! look at the currency!
1USD= 5.95 EGP and RM1= 1.96 EGP! :D please stay until i finish studying, will you, dear currency? huhu.

the 1st week i was here, there were chaos in the faculty, asking this head department to step down, asking a better quality of education yada-yada. and we,malaysians did nothing. we were not allowed to do anything as the government told us to stay away from any harm or any chaos.( did you feel the lovee? haha) and for the first time in history, there were election for the student committee!awwwhhh, i am so proud of you, Egyptians :) at the end of the day, everybody loves the Malaysians (because we're too adorable.) because i do not know why, they keep smiling whenever they see us. weird huh?

the soldiers are everywhere. they are friendly :) the tanks are also everywhere (but the big tank near istad is gone before i managed to take a photo with it!major sadness!!!) but they didn't do any harm to us. the soldiers are prepared with gun 24/7. cool huh? hoho.

what i'm trying to say is, i kinda like the new Egypt. and i am waiting for more changes. a cleaner country,perhaps? or a more educated-not-annoying citizens? or maybe a better learning system in the university? All in all, i am with you, Egypt :)

ps:

there was an earthquake yesterday. didn't feel it though but it's kinda scary because for the entire 3 years i'm living here, this was the 1st one.

alright, got to go! got to sleep! tomorrow is patient's day :)

after more than 4 years

i was in the car with mom when the radio tuned her childhood song, something related to merdeka, i never heard it before, but mom sang the entire song. amazed, i was. since she never sing songs other than sudirman and m. nasir in front of me. but then she waved her hand when it comes to the part where there's only music (i don't know what the part is called) she wave it again and again, and i realized i've seen someone waving his hand like mom did while listening to his favourite song, while driving. after awhile, mom asked me, do you remember who always do this?(while waving her hand), after a moment of thinking, i only realized that the wave, is my dad's wave. he loved to wave his hand whenever he listened to his favourite song, while driving.

and i asked myself, what just happened? did you just forgot how your late father react when he listen to his favourite song?
i blame myself over, and over again. i do not want to erase my dad from my memory. i want them to stay in my memory, my entire life.i want my future kids to know who their granpa was.


after that, mom took me to see mak yong. it's been awhile since i met mak yong, the last time i saw her was during kak yong's wedding which is like.. 2 years ago. it's kinda odd not to see your relative eventhough you live like 5 minutes away. so we went to see mak yong to invite her family to our kenduri tomorrow. so there she was sitting with pak yeop. pak yeop was a diplomat. he worked in LA like 20+ years back. i respect him very much when i was a kid. he's the one with loads of story to tell, he travelled to almost the whole world. he's retired now. and he's having Alzheimer. 4 years back, he still remember me, he still with his travel stories he didn't get bored to tell us. but now, he didn't recognise me. he didn't even know who Leh(my dad's nickname) was, he didn't recognise his own kids, and the most sad thing is, sometimes, he call his wife,ibu and he call his mom, as opah. it's pity to see him that way. he asked 'where do you live' about 10 times. he went upstairs saying he wanted to drink, but then he went straight down, asking me again where do i live. i do miss the full-of-stories pak yeop. all i can do now is to pray for his health, and keep telling him, i am your niece, anak Leh.

Today, my little brother went to Edu fair with his friends, to get inspired, he said. My little brother is not that little anymore, he's going to be 17 this may. and he's gonna learn how to drive soon, and then he'll be taking his SPM, and later, college. oh how fast the time flies. i feel like only yesterday we put him in the laundry basket when he was soooo kecil and so cute! now he has grown :')

and today, mak asked me to get rid some of arwah ayah's kain pelikats. i was abit emotional when i was forced to do that. i smelled the kain pelikat before i give it to my mom. daddy's smell is not there anymore.Being daddy's little girl, i miss having him taking me and round the entire bangi at night, and i miss his snore during sleep.

apa sebenarnya yang aku nak sampaikan?
i also don't know. maybe i'm writing this just for the sake of updating the blog, or maybe i just realised that things changed in these 4 years and how fast the time flies, or maybe i just miss my dad, or maybe i am having my emotional moment because i am going back to egypt this friday.

ps: my heart goes to those who are affected by the tsunami and earthquake in Japan, Russia,Phillipines and Indonesia. May Allah bless you.
This is the way God telling us to repent. May Allah give us enough time to repent, as we (especially me) have neglected him for so long. the time is near, and the world is getting old.


Our Lord! Let not our hearts deviate from the truth after You have guided us, and bestow upon us mercy from Your grace. Verily You are the Giver of bounties without measure. (3:8)

people that can make you ROFL

oh gosh i love these 2 guys.
does orang utara really love to make jokes?
like seriously i think i'm falling for them.
super lawak and super comel gila!!!!!
i only share these 2 videos and just click their name to watch all of their videos in youtube!

no 1: inianwarhadi


who said being the good kid is not cool?
found him accidentally while bloghopping.(yes, i still bloghop)they said that his video is quite similar to maria elena, but the male version of her.

no 2: matlutfi90


i love him since his selamat hari ibu video he made last year, and he deleted the video like 2 days after he posted it for unknown reason. and now he's back!
again, who said being th good kid is not cool?

what i love about them is that they will insert some good points or current issues or any knowledge input into each videos.

kudos to anwarhadi and matlutfi for making me laugh :D :D !

ps: dah lama tak sebut kudos.haha

just watch. thought of sharing :)

i love Egypt, because it's my 2nd home, and i've been living there for 3 years.

"we will not be silenced, whether you're a Christian, whether you're a Muslim, whether you're an atheist, you will demand your goddamn rights, and we will have our rights!"

keep it up, Egyptians! i salute you for your courage :)