look at my hideous teeth back in 1995.( if you know which one is me) this photo has been my favourite since forever! and my brother uploaded it on facebook, which leads to me showing everyone the picture of us all during our carefee kiddy years! haha
look at us now ( approx 3 years ago):
i know right, how fast the time flies :')
my finals will start on 3/5 and ends on 7/7. doakan yang terbaik bagi kami, terima kasih :)
robbuna yawafaa means good luck in arabic, so robbuna yawafaa to all who are taking any exams especially those living in Egypt. :)
' welcome back malaysian students, welcome back to the new egypt'
it's been 2 weeks i left home. 2 weeks of the tertinggal passport incident.(NOT A PROUD INCIDENT! but thank you kak ngah for saving the day speeding back home to get it on time). i'd be lying if i say that i didn't get homesick. i do get homesick, like alot. because to me, the '2-weeks-became-1 and half-months holiday' a.k.a 'cuti darurat' was the best holiday ever. i tend to hang around my mom, kak ngah, and luqman quite often. we're like inseparable!(ok, yeah i am exaggerating haha) so thanks to the long holiday, i have learned how to live life modestly. thanks mak! :)
the after revolution egypt, is kinda like the same as the old egypt, but now, they have the freedom of speech. they can talk about anything now, they are free to curse husni mubarak, they are free to talk about ikhwanul muslimin, which they were so afraid to talk about the entire time. and they are so proud of their country that they love to sing the victory song loudly,everywhere.
i was at a carpet store to buy a carpet for my new room, got the one i eyed on, the price is kinda OK. but living here, you tend to bargain everything eventhough they're cheap enough. so, i was bargaining it with the shop owner (kinda like begging -.-"), and what he said (jokingly) was..
'you were not here helping us during the revolution, you ran back to your country! and now you're bargaining the carpet price, i should charge you more'
i just smiled with abit of guilt. did i get the price i wanted for the carpet? hell yeah! (feeling proud of self managed to buy a super cute carpet with super less price :D :D )
the prices of stuffs are now increased. some even doubled the price before. which is a bad news for me because i wanted to save money. but hey! look at the currency! 1USD= 5.95 EGP and RM1= 1.96 EGP! :D please stay until i finish studying, will you, dear currency? huhu.
the 1st week i was here, there were chaos in the faculty, asking this head department to step down, asking a better quality of education yada-yada. and we,malaysians did nothing. we were not allowed to do anything as the government told us to stay away from any harm or any chaos.( did you feel the lovee? haha) and for the first time in history, there were election for the student committee!awwwhhh, i am so proud of you, Egyptians :) at the end of the day, everybody loves the Malaysians (because we're too adorable.) because i do not know why, they keep smiling whenever they see us. weird huh?
the soldiers are everywhere. they are friendly :) the tanks are also everywhere (but the big tank near istad is gone before i managed to take a photo with it!major sadness!!!) but they didn't do any harm to us. the soldiers are prepared with gun 24/7. cool huh? hoho.
what i'm trying to say is, i kinda like the new Egypt. and i am waiting for more changes. a cleaner country,perhaps? or a more educated-not-annoying citizens? or maybe a better learning system in the university? All in all, i am with you, Egypt :)
ps:
there was an earthquake yesterday. didn't feel it though but it's kinda scary because for the entire 3 years i'm living here, this was the 1st one.
alright, got to go! got to sleep! tomorrow is patient's day :)
i was in the car with mom when the radio tuned her childhood song, something related to merdeka, i never heard it before, but mom sang the entire song. amazed, i was. since she never sing songs other than sudirman and m. nasir in front of me. but then she waved her hand when it comes to the part where there's only music (i don't know what the part is called) she wave it again and again, and i realized i've seen someone waving his hand like mom did while listening to his favourite song, while driving. after awhile, mom asked me, do you remember who always do this?(while waving her hand), after a moment of thinking, i only realized that the wave, is my dad's wave. he loved to wave his hand whenever he listened to his favourite song, while driving.
and i asked myself, what just happened? did you just forgot how your late father react when he listen to his favourite song? i blame myself over, and over again. i do not want to erase my dad from my memory. i want them to stay in my memory, my entire life.i want my future kids to know who their granpa was.
after that, mom took me to see mak yong. it's been awhile since i met mak yong, the last time i saw her was during kak yong's wedding which is like.. 2 years ago. it's kinda odd not to see your relative eventhough you live like 5 minutes away. so we went to see mak yong to invite her family to our kenduri tomorrow. so there she was sitting with pak yeop. pak yeop was a diplomat. he worked in LA like 20+ years back. i respect him very much when i was a kid. he's the one with loads of story to tell, he travelled to almost the whole world. he's retired now. and he's having Alzheimer. 4 years back, he still remember me, he still with his travel stories he didn't get bored to tell us. but now, he didn't recognise me. he didn't even know who Leh(my dad's nickname) was, he didn't recognise his own kids, and the most sad thing is, sometimes, he call his wife,ibu and he call his mom, as opah. it's pity to see him that way. he asked 'where do you live' about 10 times. he went upstairs saying he wanted to drink, but then he went straight down, asking me again where do i live. i do miss the full-of-stories pak yeop. all i can do now is to pray for his health, and keep telling him, i am your niece, anak Leh.
Today, my little brother went to Edu fair with his friends, to get inspired, he said. My little brother is not that little anymore, he's going to be 17 this may. and he's gonna learn how to drive soon, and then he'll be taking his SPM, and later, college. oh how fast the time flies. i feel like only yesterday we put him in the laundry basket when he was soooo kecil and so cute! now he has grown :')
and today, mak asked me to get rid some of arwah ayah's kain pelikats. i was abit emotional when i was forced to do that. i smelled the kain pelikat before i give it to my mom. daddy's smell is not there anymore.Being daddy's little girl, i miss having him taking me and round the entire bangi at night, and i miss his snore during sleep.
apa sebenarnya yang aku nak sampaikan? i also don't know. maybe i'm writing this just for the sake of updating the blog, or maybe i just realised that things changed in these 4 years and how fast the time flies, or maybe i just miss my dad, or maybe i am having my emotional moment because i am going back to egypt this friday.
ps: my heart goes to those who are affected by the tsunami and earthquake in Japan, Russia,Phillipines and Indonesia. May Allah bless you. This is the way God telling us to repent. May Allah give us enough time to repent, as we (especially me) have neglected him for so long. the time is near, and the world is getting old.
Our Lord! Let not our hearts deviate from the truth after You have guided us, and bestow upon us mercy from Your grace. Verily You are the Giver of bounties without measure. (3:8)
oh gosh i love these 2 guys. does orang utara really love to make jokes? like seriously i think i'm falling for them. super lawak and super comel gila!!!!! i only share these 2 videos and just click their name to watch all of their videos in youtube!
who said being the good kid is not cool? found him accidentally while bloghopping.(yes, i still bloghop)they said that his video is quite similar to maria elena, but the male version of her.
i love him since his selamat hari ibu video he made last year, and he deleted the video like 2 days after he posted it for unknown reason. and now he's back! again, who said being th good kid is not cool?
what i love about them is that they will insert some good points or current issues or any knowledge input into each videos.
kudos to anwarhadi and matlutfi for making me laugh :D :D !
i love Egypt, because it's my 2nd home, and i've been living there for 3 years.
"we will not be silenced, whether you're a Christian, whether you're a Muslim, whether you're an atheist, you will demand your goddamn rights, and we will have our rights!"
keep it up, Egyptians! i salute you for your courage :)
Facebook was blocked for a couple of hours in Egypt.
why?
they said the government is furious about the riot they've been doing since january 25th. January 25th, the police day public holiday in Egypt. because it's a public holiday, everyone decided to gather together and protest the 30 years of dictatorship of Hosni Mubarak, the President of A.R.E. the protest was inspired from a man who was beaten to death by a couple of police officers in Alexandria despite his calls for mercy,after he posted a video on the internet of officers sharing the spoils from a drug bust among themselves.(more story here) hence the facebook group name: we are all Khaled Said.
other than redeeming justice for the ill-treatment of Khaled Said, the riot is also inspired by the Tunisians in demanding their rights and freedom from their president's dictatorship. the result from Tunisia's protests? Ben Ali fled to Jeddah. they hate the prime minister and demanding an election, and there will be an election after 6 months. for now? state of emergency is declared.
what's going to happen in Egypt, i don't really know. from what i heard, the President's son and his family had fled to London, the police Head Quarters in Suez is burned down which made most of the Malaysian students changing thoughts of having their winter break anywhere, and we are advised to not to leave the house unless it is important, and we have to bring along our male friend at any time.
it's been 2 days. it's entering the 3rd day. they are really protesting. 4 people died in Cairo, 20 in Alexandria, they shut down the electricity in some small town(i couldn't remember which town), they used tear gas in Mansoura. if that's not enough to convince the world that this is serious, i don't know what will.
why do i care so much about this? because i'm afraid of what's worst to come. and i am persuading all of you out there to pray for us Malaysian students studying in Egypt, to be safe, and to pray that they will not harm us.
my experience:
it was 1.20 pm, and i was getting ready for my exam which will be held at 2pm, i decided to leave the house at 1.30 pm but i received a call from Nadia telling me there's a demonstration along the road in front of my house, she told me to take a cab and be extra careful since the independent her also walked to the university along with Pokmie. i got out of the house, suddenly a large group of people running toward me. hell yeah i was so afraid, even more afraid when i couldn't get a single cab and the police were everywhere! was about to burst into tears before i remembered Eza, and i called her so that we walk together to the exam( after couldn't get through for several times), and we hold hands along the way until we reach the most safest place in Mansoura, the University. scary? very! i hugged Nadia once i saw her, i swear i could cry if i hug her long enough.
mak:' boleh balik tak?'
me:' tak dgr ape2 pon lagi pasal flights, insyaAllah ok je kot'
yes, i am going home. i hope Egypt will stay as it is, at least untill i go home.
UPDATED: death toll in Cairo strikes to 6 after rock-throwing between the police and demonstrators, yesterday(26/1)
UPDATED 27/1: facebook and twitter has been blocked and they're (1 million) going to gather in Tahrir, Cairo tomorrow to show their protest. people are advised to stay home.
we've been friends for almost 4 years. although it's not as long as your highschool friends, or your childhood friends, but by being away from the family, and living overseas, by this 4 years, you are like one of my siblings. i know when you're mad or happy, or even when you're euphoric. and i know what is sensitive to you. you and your korean drama is like inseparable , and your high class english, and how independent you are in doing everything by your own without other's help.
the first time i met you, was when nana haven't change her course yet. she introduced you to everyone and my first impression towards you was: ' budak ni boleh tahan jugak la high standard!' with your i am not plastic bag bag and the way you talk and walk. but i was wrong though. you are the most friendly person in our batch because you can get along with everyone, and with your priceless mumtaz kelantan accent you learned from our kelantanese friends, memang senang la kau rapat dengan semua orang!
remember the kaya you made during our 1st year(idadi)? and how sweet of you giving me a whole tupperware of it, which took me about a month or 2 to actually finish it. i still remember that, and i'm going to miss that too.
remember the first summer? the first time we're going back to egypt, where your mom met my mom and now became friends, everytime they meet, they'll talk about us. and now, everytime your mom sees me, she'll hug and kiss me and borak panjang. aku rasa if kau ada abang single memang dah ada sesi kenen2.haha :p
kita ni, kalau berjumpa, tak kisah lah baru jumpa semalam or petang tadi ke, mesti ada benda yang kita nak share, duduk lepak bergosip kadang2 sampai tak sedar dah 2 jam.and you are the one who always with stories.hihi.
so now you're leaving us, aku rasa kita tetap akan jarang jumpa although your house is just like 10 minutes away. we'll be busy with our studies, our lives, kadang-kadang nak tanya khabar pon tak sempat. but i just hope for 1 thing, that is, for you to never forget me as your friend, because i will never forget you, and because in dentistry, we're never apart, we are together, always.
gigians family. batch 07/08
thank you.
thank you for telling us you're leaving, so that we can say a proper goodbye.
thank you for the memories you planted in our heads.
thank you for being a part of gigian.
thank you for being one of the PMG
thank you for making our lives more colourful by your presence.
thank you for including us in your life journey.
thank you for being my friend.
i once said,
once you enter the gigi family, whatever you do, we'll support you. no matter who you are, we'll love you. wherever you go, we're always behind you. because you are one of us, and we're brothers and sisters, that's why. :)
loosing you, is like loosing a sister, if there's a time machine, i'll go back in time and change everything so that you will not leave us. but Allah has a better plan for you.
good luck in your future, in achieving your dreams, we'll pray the best for you,insyaAllah.
do pray for us also, for us to achieve our dreams.
you know, whatever you do, you always can come back to us, and we'll always be there for you.
i'm not a poetic type of a person, i do not know how to write a poem, because my english sucks, i know. but i love musics, and i have 1 song for you.
Well, you came and opened me And now there's so much more I see And so by the way I thank you
Whoa, and then for the times when we're apart Well, then close your eyes and know These words are comin' from my heart And then if you can remember, oh
Keep smiling, keep shining Knowing you can always count on me, for sure That's what friends are for In good times, in bad times I'll be on your side forever more Oh, that's what friends are for
"
Seseorang kamu tidak benar-benar beriman sehingga dia mengasihi saudaranya sebagaimana dia
mengasihi dirinya sendiri
"(hadis 13 dalam hadis 40)
i love you dear, take care.
ukhwah fillah, insyaAllah
ukhwah ila jannah, insyaAllah :)
ps: i don't know if you mind me writing your name here, so i decided not to write it.
I'm so glad you made time to see me How's life, tell me how's your family I haven't seen them in a while You've been good, busier then ever We small talk, work and the weather Your guard is up and I know why
'Cause the last time you saw me Is still burned in the back of your mind You gave me roses and I left them there to die
So this is me swallowing my pride, Standing in front of you saying I'm sorry for that night And I'd go back to december all the time It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you Wishing that I'd realized what I had when you were mine I'd go back to december, turn around and make it alrightand I go back to december all the time
These days I haven't been sleeping Staying up playing back myself leaving When your birthday passed and I didn't call And I think about summer, all the beautiful times I watched you laughing from the passenger side, Realized I loved you in the fall And then the cold came, the dark days when fear crept into my mind You gave me all your love and all I gave you was goodbye
So this is me swallowing my pride, Standing in front of you saying I'm sorry for that night And I'd go back to december all the time It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you Wishing that I'd realized what I had when you were mine I'd go back to december, turn around and change my own mind and I go back to december all the time
I miss your tan skin, your sweet smile, so good to me, so right And how you held me in your arms that September night, The first time you ever saw me cry Maybe this is wishful thinking Probably mindless dreaming If we loved again I swear I'd love you right
I'd go back in time and change it but I can't So if the chain is on your door, I understand
But this is me swallowing my pride, Standing in front of you saying I'm sorry for that night And I'd go back to december It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you Wishing that I'd realized what I had when you were mine and I go back to december, turn around and make it alright and I go back to december, turn around and change my own mind and I go back to december all the time
i like this song, not because it is a love song, and nor that song is for Taylor Lautner . i like it because it is about december. and i go back to december all the time. what is there in december, you may ask?
24th december 2006. the day dad passed away. yeah that's what's there in my december.
hopefully, this 2011 will bring us success and happiness all year long. ameen.
2010. what about 2010? 2010 keeps alot of my memories. i learned alot, from the people, and from the surroundings, and let's not forget, from God's tests too.
2010 embarks the establishment of the malaysian dental community in egypt. through it, i learned alot about 'directing an event'. i have directed( and co-directed) the Dentistry Malaysian Day and the Dental Workshop. yes, it consumed a lot of time and money, but the objectives of the events are well delivered, alhamdulillah :)
i did a backpacking travelling to the UK and Ireland in february (and have lost quite a number of money at the end of the year). it's like the first time travelling to the UK after dad bought us there during his sabbatical. and yeah, i did reminisced my first visit when i was there even though i was too little at that time.i dont know how, maybe God's power? through travelling, my sister made me go to an eye opener islamic event, which i thanked her alot. why? let me just keep it to myself :)
2010 made me learn more about life. and mom did tell me alot about how to live life, and how to make good decision in choosing your partner etc. i sometimes feel that mom just couldn't wait to let go of her daughter.haha. but no, mom said that i'm already 21, like it or not, i have to start thinking about it already. bukan menggatal ye? and, to choose a partner, mom advised me to choose yang baik agamanya, yang baik akhlaknya,pertuturannya, yang elok asal usulnya.
towards the end of the year,i gave a talk for the how to succeed program for beloved juniors and i went to tanta to give a talk to tanta's malaysian dentistry students. after 4 years living here, malaysian dentistry students has grown from only in mansoura, to several other places like al-azhar, alexandria and tanta. and the amount of dentistry students has increased from only 6 to i don't know, maybe 200? ramai kan? alhamdulillah :)
how to succeed: 22/10/2010
ways of wisdom(wow) : 31/12/2010
as my academic year for 2010/2011 starts on september 2010, i feel that i should write my experience toward the patients here. yes, i am now in the clinical year, alhamdulillah. 2 more years insyaAllah i am going to be a muslim dentist. the experience upon treating patients is just way awesome. nervous is a must for the first time, but now, alhamdulillah, Allah mudahkan, my work is eased. i will always remember my first patient, Naily, who were a stranger to me at first, she came just for a dental check-up, and my doctor said she needs filling, so that's what i did to her. nervousnye tuhan saja yang tahu, i kept apologizing by telling her that this is my first time and i am very sorry if i hurt you anywhere. Naily has become my friend, today, and she helped me alot in promoting my service :)
with one of my patient
all in all, i thank God for the year 2010. and the most important thing i learned from the year 2010, is maturity. :)
with some of tanta dentistry students and pengerusi pct: 31/1/2010
the year 2011. what do i hoped for the year 2011?
i'm hoping for a more mature me, a better muslimah, a better (and more rajin) student, and a better daughter. and oh, a better doctor too. it's fun sometimes when your patient call you by the doctor title.hee :D
but i do need your help in achieving my dreams here. that is, please pray together with me. thank you :)
2010 was a great year, 2011? hoping for a better year :)
i love to watch sad movies whenever i'm sad or when not in a good mood. i use the sad movies as a platform for me to cry. because people ask me why am i crying, i'll tell them that the movie is just wayy too sad that i cried. betapa emo dan pathetic, i know.
i had a few rough weeks. way too many problems to face.way too much to study within so little time. need a hug, mom's hug. but it's unreachable, i know. but it has nothing to do regarding my post here.
a friend introduced me 1 litre of tears. she said: ' confirm kau nangis tgk cite ni sedih gile!'. after hearing that, i thought, naahhh, i won't cry. but i did cry...... in every episode -.-"
the drama is wayy too sad.
i know that i'm soo outdated that everyone else watched it like 3 years ago and i only watch it 2 days ago but, seriously, it's so sad that in 1 episode i actually pause it for awhile because i was crying too hard. and i woke up the next day with mata bengkak as if i just broke up with someone.
why did i cry so hard? because this drama is based on true story. and 1 litre of tears is based on a diary of a patient who suffered from spinocerebellar degeneration. where atrophy of the cerebellum occur, and slowly, the patient will loose the coordination of hands, feet, speech etc. from being able to walk, to being bedridden. sometimes, the patient may find it hard to breathe. and once she reach this phase, death may occur. it's an incurable cruel disease because a person with SCD retains full mental capacity, but progressively loose physical control.
it does remind me of my late father. although not the same disease, he suffered alot too from his kidney disease. and, eventhough i can get scolded if i say this, but i regret for not spending the precious time with him before he passed away. i didn't even get to say goodbye or even tell him how i love him so much, how i thank him for being the greatest dad, how thankful i am for having him as my father.
so please, everyone, cherish your loved ones before you loose them.
a week of adha break. a week of adha celebration. it's something special in egypt. we celebrate aidiladha more than we celebrate aidilfitri. it's like THE EVENT of the year. every year's adha means special to me,like during my 1st year, our imarah was reserved for the slaughtering session and the gotong royong potong sayur session was made in my home(and neighbours').during my 2nd year, i was in charge for cleaning the tulang lembu.and that was hell of one experience!coming home with the smell of a cow, rendam baju sehari suntuk pon tak hilang2 bau. the 3rd year, i was in the committee board. kerja extra teruk.like really2 teruk. and this year, i went low profile, i do only the sayur. but what makes this year's adha special is, the wedding of my classmate, zaim and his wife, kak una. barakallahulakuma :)
as pictures speak a thousand words, lets just let the pictures do the talking.
1st day of eid:
have a break, snap a picture.
spending the eid with these 2 troublesom housemates. :p
background: bloody road with hanging lembu. for the memories :)
2nd day of eid:
event: zaim and kak una's solemnization
venue: malaysian hall, cairo.
surprise zaim! we made a boria baju kurung just for your wedding :)
si pengantin was speechless for the surprise (or maybe he was just nervous?)
alhamdulillah. congrats newlyweds!
barakallahulakuma wa baraka alaikuma wajama'a bainakuma filkhair
3rd day or eid: as a pengiring pengantin :)
event: MAWAR( collaboration of adha and all 4 pairs of newlyweds celebrations)
venue: mansoura
with the bride :D
mansoura's dikir barat team: sri mansurah.
last but not least: a video
the reason why i love mansoura :)
will next year's adha as special as the previous years'? i hope so.as it will be my last adha in egypt, insyaAllah. oh tibe2 terharu.
SALAM AIDILADHA, everyone! salam perantauan from us. semoga pengorbanan kita tahun ini diterima dan diberkati Allah. :)
current repeating the songs of: the script. current favourite song of the script: a lot actually, but this is like the most into the right now mood song. :)
the script- for the first time.
She's all laid up in bed with a broken heart, While I'm drinking jack all alone in my local bar, And we don't know how, How we got in to this mad situation, Only doing things out frustration, Trying to make it work but man these times are hard,
She needs me now but I can't seem to find a time, I've got a new job now on the unemployment line, And we don't know how, How we got into this mess is it gods test, Someone help us cause we're doing our best, Trying to make it work but man these times are hard
But we're gonna start by Drinking old cheap bottles of wine, Sit talking up all night, Saying things we haven't for a while A while ya We're smiling but we're close to tears, Even after all these years, We just now got the feeling that we're meeting for the first time
Oooooo [Repeat]
She's in line at the door With her head held high (high) While I just lost my job but Didn't lose my pride But we both know how, How we're gonna make it work when it hurts, When you pick yourself up, You get kicked to the dirt, Trying to make it work but, Man these times are hard,
But we're gonna start by, Drinking old cheap bottles of wine, Sit talking up all night, Doing things we haven't for a while, A while ya, We're smiling but we're close to tears, Even after all these years, We just now got the feeling that we're meeting for the first time.
Oooooo [Repeat]
Yeah... Drinking old cheap bottles of wine, Sit talking up all night, Saying thing we haven't for a while, We're smiling but we're close to tears, Even after all these years, We just now got the feeling that we're meeting, for the first time
(Ooooo...), yeahh for the first time, (Ooooo...), oh for the first time, Yeah for the first time, (Just now got the feeling that we're meeting... For the first time)
Oh these times are hard, Yeah they're making us crazy Don't give up on me baby
Oh these times are hard, Yeah they're making us crazy Don't give up on me baby
Oh these times are hard, Yeah they're making us crazy Don't give up on me baby
Oh these times are hard, Yeah they're making us crazy Don't give up on me baby
ps: salam adha everyone!photos n stories up next! :D
stressed out.i couldn't find any edentulous patient yet,need patient for operative already, and i couldn't find any suitable house for 6.i'm tired.and dentistry needs money but i don't have any because bayan halah is so hard to get and i couldn't give the translate of bayan halah to jpa and jpa will not bank in the money if they didn't get the bayan halah.so yes,i am stressed and when i'm stress, not because of exam, i end up wasting my time in front of the laptop doing I DON'T KNOW WHAT.because my punching bag doesn't have internet connection so i don't know to who else i should whine.
and then, start the missing session.and i truly miss the carefree high school moments though. who doesn't, right? and this song below here,made me missing school friends very very much. i have heard once the highschool friends are the ones you will stick to like forever, because they are the ones who really accept you for YOU.and indeed,it's true. wherever i go, no matter how busy i get, i will always go back to them. to whine and to reminiscing the awesome schooling years. i know they're not into blogs and they won't be reading this. but i do love them. if you mess with any of them, then you're messing with me!
it's not the lyrics that made me miss them, it's because it's lee hom.my highschool idol, and it's in mandarin.and there was radio yu hua in our school,they played chinese songs everyday during recess.according to my brother,radio yu hua is not working anymore nowadays. i started to listen to chinese songs through there and yes,listening to chinese songs improve your chinese too!so, whenever i listen to chinese song,it will bring me back to the memory lane. where i had my first crush,a malay and the 2nd one,a chinese. and the 3rd,another chinese!and the moments where we bullied the form six students to drive us everywhere. ahh the memories. it did ease the stress abit though. :) and i actually cry listening to this song because i'm listening to it as i type this. aiyoo why la so emotional?!
the school (after renovation here and there of course, it was in renovation during our time,so yeah,the noise.)
al-fatihah to arwah mak ngah who has passed away last saturday. i only know this after a week, after i asked my brother what is mak ngah's current condition since the last time i texted mak, mak said she's on the way visiting mak ngah who was at that time seriously ill.that was 3 days before she passed. mak ngah suffered kidney failure disease for years, even before dad was diagnosed the same disease. when dad passed away, she kept on asking, 'kenapa leh(dad) yang pergi dulu?' because she said she's been ill longer before dad was. she asked the same thing when my arwah achik(dad's brother) passed away due to heart attack 2 years back.i remembered her telling me,'mak ngah tak lama dah ni'..but we told her that ajal maut di tangan tuhan.you can live up to 100 years if God willing.
mak ngah was the one who gave me the idea of pursuing dentistry. i still remember at that time, we were at kak ina's open house and i was in form 3.mak ngah asked me about my ambition.i told her maybe i wanted to become a doctor or even a lecturer but haven't really think about it yet.then, mak ngah said,hey why don't you become a dentist?you have the chance of working office hour, and you still have the doctor title! i said, i don't know mak ngah,i'll think about it later. i went home, did a little research of how cool the dentist job will be, and the next morning, i told my mom that i wanna be a dentist and alhamdulillah i am now in my 4th year of studying dentistry. thank you mak ngah, for guiding me in choosing this path.
mak told me that mak ngah was ill during my holiday in malaysia. i told her that i wanted to visit mak ngah but mak said the family just visited mak nyah 2-3 days before i got back, she was still in stable condition.so,in the end, i didn't get the chance to visit her and i hoped to see her next year.but,God has a better plan for her, and she passed away last saturday. mak ngah never fail to remind me of how much i look like my dad and always remind me not to forget dad even though he has passed.i am going to miss her stare because she loves to stare at me due to the dad look i inherited.and also her common 'ni la budak mesir ni!'
Al-fatihah to arwah mak ngah, may she be rest among those who deserved a place in jannah.ameen.
raya oh yeah. raya di perantauan oh yeah. nak tahu tak? bila raya di perantauan sambil dengar lagu INI rasa mcm nak menangis je? hampir la menangis.tak menangis pon! *tabah*
how do i spend my raya? erm..
1.cooked for raya..*proud!!* :)
2.solat raya with more or less 40 malay students in mansoura.
i love these kakak2 comel,so they deserve a place here :D
3.open houses! :D
mansoura girls team :)
the geng gigi rongak.ngahaha
4.rumah terbuka perubatan in cairo..super bosan.(jujur betul) -.-"
5.and we went to city stars to watch movie in baju kurung after the rumah terbuka.
internet was not ok the 1st day of eid so i bought a 50L.E of recharge card which lasted for 7 minutes when i called home and tak sempat to actually apologize to dear mak. -.-" so i texted her saying i'm so sorry for being a bad daughter blablabla, and immediately after she replied, tears started to fall. adoi. that's what you get when you celebrate your eid away from family.you get more emotional.(because i never cry during the apologizing session back home) -.-"
now,back to school! i have 6 schooling days. 13 subjects,which i don't really remember the names. okok, let's try, i have operative dentistry, crown and bridge, prosthesis, oral pathology, oral surgery, general surgery, internal medicine, pedodontic, endodontic, diagnosis, x-ray, dental public health, and orthodontic.(ok i peeked my schedule) REALLY REALLY REALLY hope that i can bawa these whole 13 subjects this year.ameen.
mak said:' aktiviti selain study kena tinggalkan.just study, makan, solat n tidur.'
lasttt but not least..
again, the song..
andddd...
SELAMAT HARI RAYA, MAAF ZAHIR BATIN! :D (please please don't laugh at my tudung, i'm wearing it just for the sake of my mom.huhu)
Wednesday, September 08, 2010
at first, i like this iklan because it shows bangi.puncak bangi la..but still, it's bangi!!
then suddenly, a friend ym-ed me to take a look at this iklan and he said ' ada muka yang kau sayang dlm ni'
i was like 'siapa yang aku sayang? atok tu?'
then he said:' manede.makcik tu.rupa dia sebijik mak kau.kat bangi plak tu.'
then only i realized, yeah.. adalah sikit rupa mak.. tp makcik ni muka panjang sikit..and thanks to the friend,i am now homesick, not in the mood of doing anything. mommy, i miss home, i miss you, i miss adik n sisters. i miss helping you out few days before raya from mopping the floor to changing the curtain, from making sure windows are squeky clean to vacuuming the carpets. i wonder who did every of that during my absence.i hope you didn't do it your own.
ayah loved this song, he used to sing it in the car while driving :(
Those schoolgirl days, of telling tales and biting nails are gone, But in my mind, I know they will still live on and on, But how do you thank someone, who has taken you from crayons to perfume? It isn't easy, but I'll try,
If you wanted the sky I would write across the sky in letters, That would soar a thousand feet high, To Sir, with Love
The time has come, For closing books and long last looks must end, And as I leave, I know that I am leaving my best friend, A friend who taught me right from wrong, And weak from strong, That's a lot to learn, What, what can I give you in return?
If you wanted the moon I would try to make a start, But I, would rather you let me give my heart, To Sir, with Love
it's been awhile since REALLY post anything here.(the youtube videos doesn't count -.-") so here i am, 2 more days to get myself back to reality. :(
i'm a bit moody these days due to the fact that i have to go back..and i have to celebrate eid there..yelah, siapa nak raya without family,right? am not so lucky like last year, this year i didn't have enough money to come home for eid.which means, i'll be like totally alone because all of them are coming home for eid. but to think that the eid break is just 1 week, i decided to toughen up and err..just try to enjoy it? arghhhh~~!!!! why la egypt is being so mean to me? :(
the summer vacation so far, was the most boring one.ngahaha. went to just a couple of meet-ups, balik kampung twice, accompanied mak here and there (which is fun, but a bit tiring), and the rest of the holidays, i just stayed home, reading.. and oh! yeah la,went to some tafsir classes and terawih. i was supposed to do an attachment at a private clinic, but it turns out that nobody is going to meet the dentist during the fasting month,so there goes my chance.
of the 21st birthday. my 21st birthday was on the 1st of ramadan, this year. thanks everyone for the wishes.appreciated it a lot :) had a little celebration at home with family, and of we go straight to the surau to perform out terawih prayer. what is it like to be 21? erm.. everything seems to be the same, but i can vote now!yippie! :D (haven't lah actually.. haven't daftar yet.) and once you're 21, you have to face the grown up questions like..' u have a bf already or not?' and some statements like.. ' u have to have a bf now if not u wont get married' -.-" all you got to do is, smile, tell them that you're just 21.too young to get married.haven't enjoy enough being single, and just shove them off by telling them that your sister is not married yet so, being the obedient little sister, you just want to wait in the line.ngehehehe. :D
of ramadan. the ramadan so far is one of the greatest.because ramadan is the time we(the family) eat together.if no ramadan, no eating together.we eat at separate time.so yeah, when everybody's home, and gather together, with or without arguing, it feels great! but too bad i will not be home during eid, because mak was hoping for the whole family together during eid.takpe mak, insyaAllah next year, i'll be home.. but have to look at the takwim first lah. didn't bother for any baju raya this year. i didn't have the celebration feel.huhu.
of bonding with mak. tighter bond i must say! i haven't feel so close to mom before.ngee :D but, she always talk about marriage and life la.oh so boring.huhu.
of shopping. DIDN'T SHOP!!not in the shopping mood.probably because the absence of the raya mood.huhu.plus, i don't have money pon.if i have some,i would buy a ticket for raya!sedih sedih.dear jpa,faster bank-in the money please.not gonna happen!since they didn't get my results yet..and only after they get it, they'll bank-in the money like..after about 1 month. -.-" so keep on dreaming,hannah.wish for a miracle to happen. -.-"
bags are 95% packed.so, goodbye malaysia.see you in february! :( :(
got nothing to say.it's just that...i don't know how to describe it.just watch it.then you'll get it.it moves me everytime i watch it.and i did watch it a lot~!
